Hey Mr. Way

It took me a second to get my brain into focus of what was actually happening. As soon as I realised, I took a step back and slammed the door shut as hard as I could. I quickly glanced upwards and saw that the wall above the door frame now had a crack in it. See me fucking care. I turned on my heal and stormed down the corridor with tears quickly building up my my eyes.
'' Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you, '' I said quietly over and over under my breath. He hadn't even chased after me. He was probably still in that classroom right now, snogging the face off Miss fucking Price. Yeah, he's probably taking her clothes off right now, he'll be laying her on that fucking desk and fucking her brains out right this second I thought to myself.
Then a sudden impact of emotional pain hit me, when I remembered back to that first time me and Gerard had sex, in his classroom. I could feel my heart aching in pain as I thought about it more.
I was snapped back into reality when I heard someone call my name.
'' Frankie! Frankie wait! '' Gerard's voice called. I ignored him and carried on walking, then turned the corner to the exit.
'' Please Frankie! '' he called again. His voice seemed to be getting louder, which meant he was getting closer. He was obviously chasing after me. I picked up the pace and ran through the door, into the rain outside. Ugh it's like a typical movie scene, with this fucking rain and everything I thought to myself as I carried on running. I heard Gerard shout me again but I still ignored him and carried on running. I realised that I didn't actually want to go home to face all the questions of my mum saying ''why aren't you at your friends house'' since she thought that's what I was doing. Instead I went to the park, even though it was raining. I was already soaked so it didn't even matter.
I sat down on the swing and let my tears take control of me, they were warm, unlike the rain, and they were mixing in with the rain too.
'' Why Gerard, why, '' I whispered to myself. I was shivering because I was freezing cold but I didn't even care.
How could he do this to me? He told me he loved me! Was he lying the whole time?
I thought of all the times we'd fucked, or sucked each other off, I trusted him so much, I let him take my fucking virginity for god sake! All those times...he said he loved me...were they all lies? When he fucked me, he didn't mean it. When he loved me, he didn't mean it. He's lied to my face this whole time and I fell for it. I thought I was good enough for him, I tried my very best all the time! I would never dream of kissing someone else.
'' I loved you and you fucking betrayed me! '' I whispered with tears still rolling down my cheeks. My emotions were mixed with sadness, anger, betrayal, embarrassment, envy and jealously. I was jealous of Miss Price. She got Gerard and I didn't. She gets him, I get nothing. It's not fair! She's a slut, what the fuck does he see in her?
I sat around thinking in the wet and cold for over two hours before I decided to just go back home. I walked slowly and put my earphones in.
When I got in my mum questioned me on why I was back so early, and why I was soaking wet.
'' They had somewhere to go this evening and they didn't know until earlier. I offered to walk home so they could get going, '' I said, forcing a little smile.
'' Okay sweetie, go get changed out of those clothes and get a shower while I make you some food, '' she said.
'' Thanks mum, but I'm not really hungry. I'll eat later, '' I said before going to my room.
When I got up there I checked my phone. 17 missed calls and 23 unseen messages.

Notes

Guys I'm sorry you're all so upset about this:( xo