Hey Mr. Way

I didn't sleep very well that night, I couldn't settle myself. I was two buisy thinking about my mum and where she was. I was worried for her and I wanted her to be okay. Actually, no matter how much I was desperate to stay and live with Gerard forever, I was dying to see her and hug her and everything.
Gerard, on the other hand, slept like a baby. As soon as I'd said night night to him he fell asleep. I'm not even exaggerating there.
I decided since it was 10 o'clock that I'd get up and make some coffee for us both, maybe then Gerard would wake up. I wanted to talk to him about it because I was upset and I needed comforting. It's weird, sometimes when I'm upset I agree with the fact that I need comfort but other times it's like I don't listen and I tell myself that comfort and care from someone won't help. Then it gets to the point where I relapse back into cutting again in really bad situations, so I decided that I wouldn't let it get to that this time.
'' Morning Gee, '' I said when I brought the coffee back in to the bedroom. He stretched his arms above his head and looked up to see me and smiled.
'' Morning Frankie, thanks for the coffee sweetie, '' he smiled, taking it out of my hands and taking a sip of it straight away even though it was scorching hot.
'' Ah-shit! Bit too hot still, '' Gerard laughed at himself for being so stupid. I sat down next to him and he looked at me like he was trying to figure something out.
'' Whats up? '' he asked.
'' I just miss my mum, '' I sighed. For some reason I was avoiding eye contact.
'' Awh Frankie listen baby she's fine I'm sure it will just take time. She might be really far away from here or something, so if she's trying to make it back home by herself it's obviously gonna take her a while. I promise to tell you if I get a phone call, to be honest I'm expecting one any second. Frankie listen, I'm gonna explain to your mum why you were staying at my house, I'll give her all the things she needs to see like the offical paperwork and tell her it was all legal and sorted out. She won't find out about us two, she'll just think that you were staying at my house so you weren't all by yourself, okay? '' Gerard was holding my hand in his and I was fighting back tears.
'' Y-yeah okay, '' I said while trying to force a smile to make myself look happy, '' thanks Gee.''
'' Now let's enjoy our Sunday, '' Gerard smiled, jumping out of bed and walking into the kitchen just in his underwear, which I found quite sexy if I'm honest. I followed him, remembering to bring my coffee and taking his for him since he left it.
We lounged around all morning listening to music and talking
'' I wish every day could be like this, '' I sighed and snuggled up to Gerard more.
'' Me too Frankie, it would be awesome, just sitting here with you, '' he smiled.
'' But no, we have to go to school and be seperated pretty much all day long, I have to sit and do lessons that I don't give a shit about and you have to...teach? '' I said, not really sure what he actually does apart from stand at the front of the class and tell people how to draw. Oh and ocasionally go jack off in the supply cupboard or something.
'' Yeah I have to deal with about 30 different little shits an hour for five hours a day, then I usually have a shit ton of marking to do inbetween. Not cool, '' he replied.
'' At least you haven't somehow through no fault of your own aquired your very own personal bully and a bunch of his friends, who think it's alright to chase you down the coridoor and put a fucking knife against your neck, '' I sighed.
'' True, but at least you have me here to protect you, '' Gerard whispered in my ear.
'' You're not always gonna be there, what if I hadn't made it to your classroom before they caught me, what if I was still all the way down the coridoor and you didn;t hear me scream and what if- ''
'' But Frankie you have to remember that didn't happen, no 'what if's' Frankie you can't live your life based around 'what if's'. I was there and everything was fine, okay? '' Gerard cut in.
'' I could have died, '' I replied bluntly with a blank face.
'' But you didn't, '' Gerard argued, I knew he'd won this so I decided to give in.
'' Okay fine, '' I sighed, '' thank you. ''
'' For what? '' Gerard questioned, his eyebrow raised a little in confusion.
'' Saving my life, '' I said simply. Gerard smiled and I swear he looked like he was about to cry for some reason.
'' I love you Frankie and I'm gonna do whatever it takes to protect you, '' Gerard smiled and hugged me tighter.

Notes

My friend told me about some creepy ghost thing which sits on your chest while you sleep and suffocates you and now I can't sleep ;-;
I'm so fucking tired ugh.
I don't even believe in it though then night comes along and I'm like '' Lol nope it's fine I didn't need to sleep anyways '' omf.