Hey Mr. Way

Gerard came back with the coffee two minutes later. It felt like an eternity waiting alone for him to come back.
'' Shit, I'm sorry I didn't want to shout at you-'' I started but Gerard cut me off.
'' It's okay Frankie I understand. I don't care if you shout at me over and over again because I understand how much of a hard time you're going through, '' he said, giving me a smile which was weak but not as weak as mine which I gave back.
'' You've always got me, '' Gerard whispered after a couple of minutes of silence.
'' I hate the silence Gerard, '' I sighed, '' but I have nothing to say. ''
'' I know, I know Frankie. Do you thing it's best if you get some rest? '' Gerard asked me, taking the empty coffee cup which I'd drained out it's contents as soon as I got it even though it was really hot.
'' It's not even dark, '' I said, looking over to the window at the raindrops running down.
'' They look like tears, '' I whispered after a while of just staring at them. I heard Gerard sniffle and I looked over to see him looking at me with a tear rolling down his cheek.
'' Frankie I'm sorry. S-shit, '' he said, wiping his tear away with the back of his hand, ''I guess I just got u-upset because you were crying, I'm sorry. ''
I let out a soft giggle and shook my head at him.
After a while of just sitting there we decided to put a film on. I didn't pay attention to it, there was way too much going through my mind. I had so many questions that I didn't know.
'' Gee, '' my voice quivered.
'' Yeah Frankie? ''
'' H-how did she...''
'' She, uh she, well they think she was killed. B-but they aren't sure...she c-could have...k-killed herself. But Frankie I don't t-think she did that, '' Gerard said, stuttering through his whole answer.
'' Oh. B-by who? ''
'' They don't know yet, t-they're trying their b-best though Frankie. ''
I stayed silent before Gerard looked into my eyes.
'' Y-you're gonna have t-to...c-confirm it's her body F-Frank, '' he whispered. I already knew that, but I really didn't want to. It would have to be me though.
'' I know, '' I replied simply with a long sigh, '' life's shit. ''
'' I know it is Frankie but you gotta pull through it. ''
'' There's no point anymore, I should just give up on life and-''
'' No Frankie. No. That's not an option. You have to keep going, pull through it, please Frankie. Do it for me please. I couldn't live with myself if you...ended your own life. Please Frankie, '' Gerard said, he was almost crying. Now I felt really bad for making him upset.
'' I-I'm sorry. Okay listen I promise I won't do it, I promise okay Gerard? '' I handed him my pinkie finger and he wrapped his own pinkie around mine in a sign of a promise.

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