Save Yourself, I'll Hold Them Back

I hung my left hand out of the car window, allowing the harsh wind to push against it. The road we were driving on was the road that would take us to the next town. It seemed so far, so long. The windows were open, driving my hair to madness just like my mind. My right hand was navigating the steering wheel as Gee was silently sitting down, his eyes gazing out the window. I sighed silently as the cool air outside begun to die down. The heat was creeping up on us.
Gee shifted in his seat, "How much longer?"
"I'm not sure." I replied.
Gee groaned.
How much longer until you're caught? Ray's voice asked.
I ignored Ray and kept my eyes on the road.
Gerard, please turn back.
I reached over to the radio and switched it on. The old Rock music played through the speakers. It wasn't enough to drive out Ray's voice but it was better than nothing. It wasn't the time to think about the crime I've done, or that Patrick was taken because of it, or that Mikey was left behind. It wasn't the time, but I couldn't stop the memories from coming back. I'm sorry Patrick that you were arrested for our escape. I'm sorry Mikey that you can't see your brother Gee ever again...but I'll never be sorry for killing Laguna. I'll never be sorry for Gee's escape. I'll never be sorry for my escape.
A shoe stomped against my own to activate the brakes. I flew forward, but the seatbelt latched onto my chest. I groaned as I looked at Gee, "What the hell-"
His face expression was devastating. I looked down the road to find a line of cars up ahead and cop cars.
"They're checking, Frankie. They're checking cars."
I shook my head, "We won't be able to go into the next town..."
Gee swallowed, "Frankie...are we going to jail?"
"The hell we are." I reversed the car, but that only caused attention. Gee said, "The cops are looking at us-shit, we look suspicious."
I wasn't sure if it was out of panic or determination, but I sped off the other direction. The car vibrated underneath us as I heard sirens far off behind us. Gee looked behind us, "I can see the lights of the sirens."
"Gee, hold on. I've got an idea. And it's not mcr."
"Wait, what-?"
"Nothing, just hold on." I slammed my foot onto the gas, causing rubber to burn. The sirens behind us deafened my ears as I sped off into an empty construction zone nearby. Gee held onto the car seat as I made a swift turn where it was most vacated. I abruptly stopped the car.
"Frank-what are you doing? We're trapped if we stay here."
"Yeah, I know."
"...are you turning us in?"
Before I could say anything, the two cop cars drifted behind us. One men from each car (there was only one man in each vehicle) swung open the car door and pointed their guns toward our direction. One yelled, "Step out of the vehicle and slowly put your hands up!"
Gee looked at me, "Frankie...I don't want to go back..."
"I'm sorry, Gee." I muttered.
"I don't like to repeat myself! Step out of the vehicle now!" The same cop yelled.
It was all a blur. I remember stepping out of the car, putting my hands up-and then there was a flash of black parade suits. There was yelling, gunshots, and pain. There was blood. There was...happiness. And then there was so much satisfaction.
My eye lids were heavy but I managed to open them. I wish they were closed forever but they opened to another gruesome scene. Two cops were lying dead beside me. There was a bloody gun in my hand, and a surprised boyfriend in the car. He got out and ran over to me, "Holy shit, Frankie-that was intense." He helped me sit up. I felt a jolt of pain in my knuckles, "Wha...what happened?"
"It's hard to describe...you got out of the car and all of a sudden, you changed...are you okay?"
"I...I think so...did I shoot someone?"
Gee smirked, "That would've been less painful for them." I looked over to the mutilated bodies as he added, "They shot at you and was a terrible shot at the speed you were going...when you had their guns, you didn't shoot them, you beat them with it-taking turns, switching off to one to the other...it was like you wanted them to suffer and feel every brutal pain instead of ending it quickly...was this your plan all along? To go total psycho?"
I stared at the blood that stained my skin, "No...I was really going to turn myself in..."
Gee helped me on my feet. He led me back to the car, "Well, it looks like something inside you didn't want that to happen."

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