You're Not In This Alone

Ryan kicks the front door closed before carrying me half way down the hall to my room, our lips never parting and his hands sliding up to squeeze my ass before he drops to the floor and lays me down, leaning down over me as he increases the pressure of the kiss and I have to turn my head to the side to gasp for air. His hands start working on my clothes, tugging to get them off and he gets my shirt unbuttoned before I grip his wrists and stop him. "Ry, Ry stop we need to talk things out before I wanna do this again." He kneels back between my legs and lets out a small sigh and I sit up, sliding back a little to make room between our bodies and say "Do you have feelings for Liz?" Ryan opens his mouth and I cut him off before he can say anything "Yes or no, no excuses just yes or no." He stares into my eyes as he says "I used to think so and then I met you." "Do you still like her Ry? Just be totally honest with me, please." He sighs and drops his eye contact for a second before looking back up and saying "I don't know how I feel about her Ruby but I honestly do love you. Every time I've said it it's one hundred percent true and I'm terrified of losing you." I bite my lower lip to keep it from trembling and I bring my hands up to start buttoning my shirt back up again. His eyes trail down to follow my hands and I say "I don't think we should do this until we know what's going on." "Ruby..." "No, I'm not comfortable with it. It was so hard for me to sleep with you this morning and let you in like that and now I'm....I can't unless I know this is serious." "Baby I am serious about this. You still love me right?" I nod my head before saying "I do, but I'm scared that it's leaving me open to get broken again" my gaze dropping to the floor. Ryan's hand reaches out and cups my chin, gently pulling my face back up to meet his gaze. "I'm sorry, I really don't want to hurt you." "If I asked you to choose right now, me or her, who would you pick?" He stares into my eyes for a long second before saying "You." "What do you like about her? What does she have that I don't?" "She just, she's been in my life for a long time now, she's been there for me through some really shitty things that have happened to me and it's not that she has things that you don't it's just.." "You have a history with her?" "Yeah, and I know that's not fair to you but...." "It's fine, I get it" I tell him, cutting him off. "Have you ever slept with her?" "No, almost, a while ago but no we've never done that." "But you have done stuff with her?" "Yeah." "Maybe we should take a break until you decide who you really want to..." "No, please no Ruby. I know taking a break means breaking up, even if you don't mean it right this second it's what will happen and I don't....I love you Ruby and I haven't felt the way you make me feel in a long long time and I love you a lot and I don't want to lose that." His eyes well with tears and I sigh as I push myself up onto my knees and crawl over to wrap my arms around him. "Don't cry Ry." He wraps his arms around me and crushes me
to his chest as he buries his face in my hair and I gently rub my hands up and down his back. "I love you" he tells me and I say it back before pulling back from him and staring into his eyes as I say "Please don't hurt me Ry. This is your out, right now. If there's any doubt in your mind that you might want her please go right now and I won't hold it against you." His hands reach out and cup my face and he says "I'm right where I want to be, I promise" before leaning in and sealing his lips to mine again. We kiss for a few minutes before I pull away from him and he stands up, grabbing my hands and helping me up too. He wraps his arm around my waist while his other hand comes up to gently brush his fingers against my cheek and he says "You look tired baby." "Yeah, I cleaned the whole apartment cause pa's coming home tomorrow." "Wow really? That's great." "Yeah, I'm happy he's coming home." "Do you want me to go?" I shake my head before saying "Will you stay the night?" "Of course" he tells me and I pull away from him to go into the living room and turn off the tv, coming back and leading Ryan to my room. Once we're settled in bed Ryan pulls me into his side as he wraps his arms around my waist and I lay my head on his chest as my arm lays across his waist and I say "I love you Ry." "I love you too Ruby." We lay in silence for a while before Ryan says "Tell me something about you that I don't know." "Like what?" "Like anything at all." "Ok..." I trail off, thinking hard before saying "When I was six every day for like a week my pa had to paint my face so I looked like Nemo to get me to go to school." Ryan laughs and I say "I had a weird obsession with fish" making him laugh harder and he says "I seriously hope your dad has pictures of that" and I say "Oh god, please don't ask cause he probably does." "Aww but that would be so cute baby." I shove him playfully and say "It's your turn." "Ok...um....when I was eight I wrote a love letter to my moms best friend." I burst out laughing and he pokes me in the side and I say "I'm sorry" before laughing again and he laughs too as he tugs me closer to him. "Aww, you little romantic, so you usually like older women?" "No" he says and I chuckle and say "Someone's getting awfully defensive." "Shut up jerk." I laugh again before saying "Ok I'll try and make the next one embarrassing." "Oh good" he says and I shove him playfully again before settling back against his side and say "Ok so when I was eleven I got my first period and obviously having two dad's they never really prepared me for that and when it happened I freaked out and then my dad freaked out and I thought something was really wrong with me and he was on the phone with my pa freaking out and I panicked so hard I passed out." Ryan chuckles softly before saying "Aww my poor baby." We fall silent again for a few seconds before Ryan says "When I first saw you in the gallery that day it took all my self control to not get a boner because you looked so hot and I kept imagining taking you aside and just fucking your brains out." I giggle embarrassed and feel thankful that he can't see how red my cheeks are in the dark. We remain silent after that and I slowly drift to sleep in his arms.

I wake up from the most intense sex dream I've ever had, my panties soaking wet and my skin feels like it's crawling. I roll over and straddle Ryan's hips, leaning down and trailing my mouth over his bare torso and when I reach his neck I start kissing and sucking and biting at the skin, working on giving him a hickey and I feel his dick starting to harden against my thigh. He lets out a soft groan and his eyes flutter open and he says "Baby" sounding slightly confused and I seal my mouth over his, sliding my tongue in his mouth as I lower my body down onto his, grinding my hips into his and he immediately catches on, his hands sliding down to grab at my ass and pushes me down harder into him, increasing the pressure on his dick. I pull away from his mouth to pant out "Fuck me Ry, please" and he grabs my hips, flipping me over and pressing me into the mattress as he climbs over me and starts tearing at my singlet, getting it off me and throwing it on the floor as he kisses down and starts nipping and sucking at my nipples as his hands slide down to tug off my panties. Once I'm fully naked I reach down and tug his boxers off, pushing him off me and I climb over to straddle his hips and line myself up, sliding down onto him, starting a rhythm of bouncing up and down on him. "Ohhh Ruby" he groans out as he grips my hips hard and holds me up a little as he starts thrusting up, fucking me hard as my eyes slip closed and I moan out in pleasure. A few minutes later he rolls us over, staying inside me as he slams my back into the mattress and starts a hard fast pace, the whole bed shaking as I clench my hands in the sheets and scream out in pleasure, my whole body pulsing and tingling. "Fuck fuck fuck Ry, ohhhh" I groan out and I feel him twitch and pulse inside me as he cums. He slumps down a little, his forehead resting against mine as we pant into each other's mouths until he pulls out and rolls off me, relaxing on the bed beside me and I roll over and curl up half ontop of him, my head resting on his chest and he cuddles me tight as we lay in silence, both of us slowly drifting back to sleep.

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