You're Not In This Alone

I wake up the next morning with my face pressed into Ryan's neck and I slowly pull myself back to find him awake already. He smiles warmly at me before leaning in and kissing me softly and pulling away again. "I didn't give you a proper morning after and you truly deserve it babe" he tells me softly before adding. "Sarah told me what you said and I didn't get what I want and then run off, I would never do that to you. I know how hard it was for you to open up like that and I would never treat you with anything but the upmost respect." I feel my own face turning into a smile and his warm hand slides down my arm to slide his fingers through mine, gently tugging my hand up to his mouth as he presses a soft kiss to the back of my hand. We lay in silence for a few minutes and I say "I..." Before I trail off, suddenly scared of what I was thinking. Ryan shoots me a small reassuring smile and waits for me to continue but every time I open my mouth I can't find the words. I slowly shake my head, trying to convey that I can't go on and he frowns slightly before leaning in and kissing my forehead. "You can say anything you like Rubes." I nod in acknowledgement, remaining silent and there's a knock on the door. "Yeah" I call out and pa's voice says "Breakfast is ready." I smile at Ryan before getting up, him climbing out of bed too and we both run our hands through our hair and I start to shiver, being in pyjama pants and a singlet, goosebumps breaking out on my arms. As we make our way out the door I pick up Ryan's discarded sweater off the floor and pull it on, leaving my hands buried within its too long sleeves and he smiles warmly at me as we make our way into the kitchen where I freeze upon seeing dad at the table. "I'm not hun...." "Sit down" pa demands, cutting me off and I sigh before taking a seat beside Ryan, pulling my chair close to his and leaning over to rest my head on his shoulder, one leg pulled up to my chest, my foot resting on the chair. Ryan's arm snakes around my waist as he lets me lean on him and pa finishes pouring us all coffee before joining us at the table and we all start to eat in silence, me occasionally picking small bits of food off Ryan's plate rather than my own. When we're done Ryan stands, causing me to sit upright again as he collects all our dirty dishes, taking them to the sink. "Ruby, baby I..." Dad starts but I shoot him a warning glare and he stops talking. As Ryan comes back to the table I stand up, taking his hand and saying "I'm going out today" to dad and pa before leaving the room, tugging Ryan along with me. When we reach my room I drop Ryan's hand as I close the door and then cross the room to my dresser, pulling out a pair of black skinny jeans, sliding my pyjama pants off and pulling the jeans on before tugging off the sweater and grabbing a tshirt, slipping that on and pulling the sweater back over my head, immediately feeling warm again and smiling as I inhale Ryan's scent on it. "You look really cute in that" he tells me as I open my closet and grab out a pair of beat up converse, stepping into them. "What are we doing today?" I ask him and his eyes widen as he says "You wanna spend the day with me?" "Why wouldn't I?" I ask before realisation sets in. "Oh, you probably have stuff planned, don't worry." I start to tug his sweater off again, planning on giving it back so he can leave but he walks over and grabs my wrist, stopping me. "No Rubes it's not like that. I do have plans but it's nothing I can't easily include you in and I'd really like to spend the whole day with you I just wasn't sure you'd want to after our little....issue." "Are you sure?" I ask and he nods before taking my hand and saying "Lets go then."

After we leave the apartment we go back to Ryan's so he can change before leaving again and heading downtown to a coffee shop where he grabs my hand and drags me over to a table with an older woman sitting at it. He drops my hand before leaning in and kissing her cheek. "Hey ma" he greets her and I freeze for a second as I realise that he's brought me to meet his mother. When he stands back up straight he gently wraps his arm around my waist as he says "This is Ruby. Ruby this is my mom." "Hi nice to meet you" I say softly, feeling a little nervous. "Nice to meet you honey. Ryan has talked about you a lot recently." I feel myself blush as she chuckles and Ryan ushers me to sit in the booth opposite her, sliding in next to me. After we order our coffee they start a long conversation and I mostly sit there quiet, just observing them and sipping my coffee. "You're very quiet honey" his mother says and Ryan says "Ma, really she's allowed to be." A strange look crosses her face before she smiles and shakes her head saying "Of course." We sit in silence for a few seconds before she says "That sweater looks very familiar" and I look down as Ryan says "Oh yeah, I forgot you were wearing that." I blush a little as I look back up smiling and say "I like it cause it smells like you." Ryan's mother makes a little aww sound and Ryan's smile grows even wider as he leans over and pecks my forehead. After we leave the coffee shop Ryan hails a cab and we head across the city to an underground club, Ryan leading me to the entrance. "Uh, I can't get in places like this" I tell him and he smiles before saying "No problem. Brens band is playing here tonight and they're rehearsing right now so let's go watch." "Ok" I tell him
and he pushes the door open, leading me inside and once we step in I can hear an incredible voice. "Wow, their singer is amazing" I tell Ryan and he chuckles as we round the corner and says "Don't tell him that, he doesn't need the ego boost" and I look up to see it's Brendon singing. We hang out for a while, Ryan joking around with everyone as he introduces me to all his friends, one of them being the owner. I sit with him and make small talk for a while while Ryan fools around with Brendon and just as I'm about to get up and use the bathroom my cell starts ringing in my pocket. I dig it out, seeing Dad's name on the screen and I almost ignore it but decide the trouble I'd be in for that wouldn't be worth it. "What?" I answer and I can immediately tell something is wrong, dad sniffling into the phone before saying "Ruby you need to get the the hospital now, pa's been in an accident." I feel like the whole world is crashing down on me as I say "Is he ok?" "I dunno, they won't let me in with him but he's not good and I...." He breaks off into big ugly sobs and I say "I'll be there as quick as I can" before hanging up. I stand up, looking around for Ryan but not seeing him. "Where's Ry?" I ask and someone I can't remember the name of says "He went to smoke up with Bren. He'll be back soon." I turn to the guy I was just talking with and say "Tell Ry I had to go, it's an emergency" tears starting to stream down my face as I turn and run across the club and back out onto the street, hailing a cab and praying I can get there quickly.

Notes

Got my My Chem biography in the mail today : D