You're Not In This Alone

Later that night I am laying in bed watching a movie on my laptop, pa having just brought me a fresh cup of herbal tea to help with my stomach ache when my phone buzzes on the table beside my steaming cup. I reach out and pick it up, seeing Matts name on the screen and when I unlock it his message comes up. 'Hey beautiful, I was laying on the couch watching tv and I couldn't stop thinking about you : )' I smile wide before sending back 'You're thinking about me? How sweet : )' A few minutes later my phone lights up with a reply. 'Is it bad and make it less sweet if I admit I'm thinking about you naked on my living room floor?' I feel my face heat up and my pulse speeds up a little as I struggle to decide what to send back. 'Some nights I dream about what happened that night' I send back, biting my lower lip and wondering if my honesty will come across as sexy, having no idea how to do this. 'Fuck, me too and I wake up so hard even the slightest touch will make me cum.' I feel my whole body heat up, my face feeling like its on fire. I take a few minutes deciding what to say back to that and just as I start to type a new message comes through. 'I'm sorry if that was too much. If I ever do anything at all to make you uncomfortable don't ever hesitate to tell me.' I sigh, feeling bad that I gave him the wrong idea. 'No it's ok I'm just completely clueless on how to do this : (' 'Aww that's ok beautiful. We don't have to do this, so what are you doing?' I smile wide at how sweet he is and that he changed the subject to make me more comfortable. 'Im just laying in bed sipping herbal tea and watching a movie, I have a really bad stomach ache.' 'Oh that sucks beautiful, are you alright?" 'Yeah I'll be ok. What are you doing?' 'Just got into bed, wish you were here to cuddle : (' 'Me too : ( my bed is cold.' 'Maybe one day I can be there to warm it up for you : )' I smile wide, feeling butterflies in my stomach and for the first time I start to think that maybe my feelings go beyond just pyhsical attraction. 'That would be really nice : ). I'm getting really tired so if I don't reply, I fell asleep.' 'No problem beautiful, you get some sleep and I hope you feel better really soon.' I smile wide before deleting the entire conversation from my phone, incase dad or pa see it before settling down under the covers and starting another movie, the volume turned down as I let myself fall asleep, a smile on my face.

A few days later Matt and I have been messaging each other a lot, just sweet little messages to make the other smile throughout the day and I feel a little nervous to see him again in person. Pa and dad are both at work and it's my last day before starting at my new school. I'm sitting on the couch watching tv when my phone beeps and it's a message from Matt. 'Hey beautiful would you like to hang out today?' I smile before sending back 'Yeah, id love to.' 'Meet me outside your building in twenty minutes : )' I jump up off the couch, running to my room and opening my closet. For the first time ever I worry about what to wear. I decide on black skinny jeans and an oversized band tshirt, slipping on my navy blue converse and letting my hair down out of its bun, letting it fall messy around my face, running my fingers through it. I put on a little lip gloss before sliding my phone into my hand bag, slinging it across my body before running out the door, going downstairs and sitting on the edge of the garden outside. A few minutes later Matt comes up and grabs my hand, pulling me up and smiling brightly at me before leaning in and pressing a soft sweet kiss to my lips. "I can't believe I haven't seen you in four days" he tells me when we pull apart and I smile wide at him. Matts hand slides down and into mine, our fingers linking and we start walking down the street together, me following Matt. He leads me to the park and we wander through, stopping and buying ice cream from a cart before walking down and sitting on the grass under a tree near the water. We sit side by side, our arms brushing as we eat our ice cream, making small talk and laughing and joking before I reach out and steal a spoonful of his ice cream and he smiles over at me and we start eating each other's ice cream, sharing soft kisses between giggles and I feel my whole body tingling while I'm with him. Once our ice cream is done Matt takes the cup from my hand and sits it on the grass beside us, leaning over and cupping my face in his hands, sealing his mouth over mine. I sit on the grass and kiss him back, feeling my heart swell and butterflies in my stomach before he gently eases me back, my back making contact with the grass while his body moves to half lay over me while we keep kissing, his hands moving up to stroke through my hair. When we break apart for air his mouth moves to kiss along my jaw and I brace my hand against his chest, pushing gently and saying "Stop." He immediately removes himself from me and I sit up, panting for breath before looking at his face and he looks upset. "I'm so sorry beautiful, I didn't mean to push it that far" he says and I shake my head at him. "No it's ok it's just, I'm not ready for this to go that far again yet and we're in a park remember." Matts face turns red and he smiles as he says "Yeah, sorry. I just kinda forgot where I was, I was too focused on you." I feel my face go boiling hot and Matt chuckles at me, reaching out and gently stroking my cheek. "Come on, I'll take you home" he says before standing up and holding his hand out, helping me up before linking our fingers again and we start walking back to the apartment. At the front door to the building I turn to face Matt and we stand there smiling at each other for a few seconds before we lean in towards each other, sharing a soft slow lingering kiss with no tongue before pulling apart again and he leans back in to peck the end of my nose making me
giggle. Matts smile almost splits his face in two as he beams down at me. "I'll message you later?" He says and I nod my head and smile back. "I can't wait." I take a deep breath before walking away, throwing one last smile over my shoulder at him before I make my way inside, going upstairs and into the apartment, smiling so wide my face hurts, the butterflies still fluttering in my stomach.

Notes

You just know something truly terrible is going to happen very soon.....