If Lies Could Speak The Truth Then You'd Know Me

I was right it did pass too fast I found myself with Gerard and I look at him. "I'm going to see a doctor tomorrow..." I say not looking at him but at the drawing I'm working on. "Why?" He asks worry obvious in his voice. "I've been getting sick all the time I haven't been able to keep anything down for weeks." I said it so nonchalantly that I could feel his anger. "And you didn't tell me why?" "I didnt want you to worry." He grabs my hand and forces me to look at him and I flinch expecting a hit that doesn't come. "Don't do that to yourself tell me next time okay?" He says complete kindness and worry in his voice. I nod taken aback a little still not used to the way this works versus the way it used to work. Kindness not beatings. Sleep not rape. I feel clean again finally. He cuts of the light and we both lay down getting probably a little too close to each other. It's was cold. That middle of December coldness where you step outside and it smells like snow and Christmas. I just move closer not expecting what I felt next. His lips against my own. He was kissing me. My eyes snap open and i pull back registering what just happened. "I'm sorry Ana.. Was it too soon?" I jut kiss him in response. "Goodnight gee." I say and close my eyes curling into him as I felt his arms wrap around me.
I awoke and got myself dressed in my own clothes for a change. Asking Alexandria shirt purple skinny jeans grey jacket. I leave the house walking to the doctor. "Hello how may I help you?" The overly cheery receptionist says. "I have an appointment." I say in response looking around the room it smelled like old coffee. There were paintings of flowers everywhere and the room was filled with elderly people I filled out my paperwork and say down. I sighed waiting for my turn to go back.
"Anastasia Taylor?" I heard the nurse call for me I stood up and made my way back. She did her stuff and the doctor came in and asked me questions to which I replied he took some of my blood for testing. He came back in a half an hour with my results?
"miss Taylor it would appear that you..." Did I hear that right? "I'm sorry what?" I said obviously confused and shocked by the information. "Miss Taylor I said ..." I stare at him in shock. "Okay.." I stand up and leave the office. Can I go home? I'd be a burden. If be so weak and frail I couldn't work anymore. I find m way to a park and sit on a bench pulling my knees o my chest and sitting there. What on earth do I do? I start crying and I can't fathom why. I find mysel praying to that guy I'm pretty sure doesn't exist. Why me? Hadn't he made my life hard enough already.
i wound up spending the night on the park bench no will to move or do anything. I'm pretty sure the sun had risen and set a few more times before someone approached me. "Miss are you okay?" I look to see a police officer and I just nod standing up and making my way back home sitting in front of the door seeing Gee's car isn't here. I sit and wait.
He comes home and runs to me. He pulls me to him in a hug. "Gee I..."

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There you go. :p what do you think it is? I'd love comments if you make a suggestion I might use it?