ill swear to fucking santa clause! if you don't tell me how bad i am.

*Gerards pov
I felt the cold air hit my torso as mikey ripped of my duvet…what?, what was? mik...dbkdflshg.
i was still half asleep when mikey began to tuck of my duvet and only got like a nano second to react! i just made it in time so he didn't get to embarrassing part where he would have to see his big brother naked caused of his bluntness. i jolted up and tucked it over my now revealed hipbones. "m,mmikay?"…"oh, OH!" mikey scratched the back of his head while being really embarrassed. he then got up and left the room with bright read cheeks as he just discovered that if i had went any further that would have ben extremely um… yah!!!

i got up and went to my dresser when my brain finally began to work and i growled a loud and ignorant "FUCK!!!" as i remembered that now, right now, as in to fucking day i was going to a new school for 4th time! i just couldn't process it in my brain how i knew!, i just knew that once again i was gonna be left with the harmful words towards how 'gay' 'fag' 'emo' scumish i am… or well how they all think i am. and the worst fucking part is that I'm to fucking shy to actually make a friend its like if i was a thing i would be rock, not that I'm hard but more like i can't freaking move, ill just stay in the same place as every one walks by and ill just shrink into my brain and hate myself even more then i already do...

i shrugged of my mind ramble and went through my dresser and got out my black skinny jeans and my misfits top. while combing my hair with my fingers and the ruffling it so it looks like mess again, i go to my mirror and look at my reflection… ugh!!! ew! bvadr! goes through my mind as i look at myself. my hair is jet-black thanks to the amazing person who invented the hair color, so now i at least have one single fucking thing i like about myself, my hair. i look at my facial features and go through all the shit i don't like about my eyes my nose my skin… just everything!!!
i flip myself of and send the mirror a straight middle finger while heading towards my bedroom door.
i get down in the kitchen stumbling a little at the stairs, mikey is sat on the kitchen counter with every thing on and beams a happy smile but that suddenly fade into an unsure and a little apologetic expression. "hu.. um eh… ya know ahh… sorry about earlier!" i shot him an annoyed look which just makes him shrink even more. but then again it was pretty funny so i slip up into a grin and start laughing to myself "no worry mikes!"…"happens to even the best"
he start chuckling to and jump of the counter…
well fuck breakfast cause were not gonna be late first day! not again. the other times that had happened we had gotten a major ass slap from the teachers and well it's not funny to be humiliated in front of the new class! so we did all to not get late to school.

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school was only 10 minutes away from where we live so it didn't take to long and we mate it in time. we walk through the school doors and headed down the hall searching for the office. we found it and went in, got our schedule and locker number. mikey was gonna have his locker at a different area since he was younger and we head i different directions when we got out of the office.
i looked after mikey as he disappeared down the hall and i began to stubble around searching for my locker when i bump't into some one. i spun around since i had walked backwards into the person behind me. what i was met with was not what i was expecting. a big pair of hazel orbs where penetrating my face when our eyes locked. he was like maybe one head short than me end had the most beautiful eyes on earth. no gerard stop! hissed at my brain but that didn't help anything at alll!!! cause it was like the dude was looking straight through me with that look in his eyes that seemed almost amazed… no no no! that could not be ha! amazed by me? the gay emo wimp which i went as at my old school! he couldn't be looking at me like i was thinking he was… right?
i then felt my shyness take over me and a blush spread across my cheeks and stained my face in a deep pinkish color. the guy got to his sense, it seemed like that, anyway he shook his head and raised a eyebrow at me while taking my whole figure in taking his eyes from my head to shoulders all the way down my skinny jeans and flung his head up again as he noticed he was studying me extremely closely. he then gave me the most seductive shit eating smirk i had ever seen… but wait what? why was he making it seductive? geeez!
i was still stood there numbed out bu the way his eyes almost swallowed me. well it looked like that. i myself won't lie, i was gawking at him! he was so stunning. i knew i was gay so why stop?
he then shook his head again and stretched his hand in front of himself. it took me a time to process in my mind what was going on since i still was in my numbed session. i then got it through and i worked my arm up to his he took my hand and wow! this sound so cheeky but like it was like electricity jolting through my body. he griped my hand first lose then when i was about to let go he griped it tighter. then let go. almost like a last touch thingish thing…
"hi im frank" once again i found myself gawking at the guy. he just touched't me! eh meh gerd!!!
"um?…" oh shit ill actually have to respond… how is it again? oh yeah thats right.
"um h,hi um,m im Gee… oh uh i meant Gerard" "hi gerard" he said with a cute little smile on his lips and beaming eyes once again fading down my torso.
he looked very happy with what i was wearing…
"i like your shirt it's cool… love the misfits" wha? of yeah thats right i was wearing um… i looked down my self and saw what he was referring to.
"OH! yeah thanks… they're really good"… i trailed of looking him up and down for like the millionth time and he spoke "like what you see?" what? "what?" it just flew out of me. my shyness growing over my ears at the moment. he was just so forward and so gorges!!!
i of course couldn't nod or say yeah cause that would just be like dumping a shark into a fish tank made for a goldfish. it would shatter! so i didn't do anything then. just a shrug.
hah way to go looser.
"so where are you heading?" i just stood there for a moment when i noticed that every one in the hall way was filling into classes and not taking up the room in the hallway. oh shit i mumbled under my breath. "here let me see your schedule" he said still with beaming eyes glaring me down.
i handed it to him not thinking further. "oh shit cool, your in all my classes!" he mumbled and handled the paper back to me. i didn't really know what to do after that until i felt his hand wrap around mine. first i a panicked and was about to flinch away when he spoke "oh shit sorry… its was just um like i just wanted you to follow, like we have music in the first class and you seemed so nulled out that i didn't know if you would listen to me when i spoke…" he trailed of turning a slight shade of light pink. i my self grew even hotter and turned into a deep scarlet as it got to me that he had noticed my numb state. i now could only hope that he didn't know that he was the one causing it.
"oh no it's fine" i muttered as i looked eyes with him again.
"well we better get to class so we don't get to late" he spoke softly letting go of my hand. that felt cold, his grip wasn't in my lose palm anymore and that felt cold… UGH!!! gerard grow a pair already! i hissed at my self for like the… i don't know anymore but i had done that a lot only in a mater of minutes. we strode down the hallway, or well he did and i paced after him. he suddenly stopped and i bumped into him again.
"ahh! some one is really on the moon ha?"…"you gotta stop doing that. at some point your gonna knock me over" he then started giggling and oh my fucking god was that cute!!!
i let out a small wimpier as a failed apology and looked at him my head down slightly in embarrassment. "haha no. its okay, well i wouldn't had met you if you did't do that in the first place right?" he smiled at me and i laughed back showing my teeth on a pearl row.
we muffed into the class room and the teacher bought my apology about being late cause i couldn't find my locker or some shit like that. she then beamed at frank who just kinda made a circle like motion around me indicating that he was helping me.
the whole lesson died down after a bid and the bell rang. making me jump a little since i was in my own world thinking about a song i was writing in m head and humming along to.
the rest of the day went by fast and i only heard the last bell ring and then a lot of chairs pushing across the floor and students leaving the classroom, i did the same only to find frank waiting for me at the door, biting his lip plump. oh my god!
we strode out the school gates as i heard a shout of my own name surrounding the school's front. i turned around and found a shit ass mad looking mikey. oh shit forgot him today.
"oh sorry mikey" i said hugging him. he was still pissed at me but could easily forgive me since he noticed that i was with a person… which never happened and he beamed at me with the most happy smile I've ever seen!
"oh no its fine. i see you have good reason there" he said while eyeing frank on my left side.
he then smirked at me. which i first didn't react to but then i kinda got to me… or well i don't know if i was getting onto the same track as mikey but it looked like he was kinda making the you should go for him look. but that could not be it. i never told him about how gay i was. never. oh yeah thats right he can see straight through me.
i hisshed at him making sure only he could hear "oh you stop it now! you tittle shit!… just don't screw this up!"
i then knew that i was right about the look he had given me.
cause he he just smirked at me.
frank stood there just looking at nothing kinda.
i nudged him out of his daze and he looked at me.
"so… um d,do you like, wa,wanna hang?" of course i had to stutter. ugh!
he just nodded at me and smiled. we stored of to our house, it started raining like after 3 minutes like satan was taking a piss! and we got like soaking wet!
we tryed to runn but what difference did that make? so we just speed walked over to the house after 7 minutes or so had passed we was in our entrance and stood like 3 wet dogs dripping on the carpet. mikey flung up the stairs and said something about a bath or so. i just shrugged it of and looked at frankie… wait what? frankie? yeah why not. he was shivering and looked extremely cold. i just took his and in mine and dragged him down the stairs to my room.

Notes

cliff hanger! haha
sorry not sorry
ill update with a short pod from frankie right away.
se ya ma little freard worms <3

? hope you like it a far!!!