We Were Born to Lose

Gracie

I want to scream. What did I do to deserve these assholes as parents? I lay down on my bed. I stare at the ceiling. I want to leave, but I can't. There's a tree outside my window though. Maybe I can climb it. I open my window to see the gray clouds, If I'm gonna do it I need to do it now. There's a little gap in between the tree and my window, but I can jump it. So here I go, I decide to jump. I catch a branch and barely hang on. I finally get to the trunk of the tree and I climb down. I decide to go on a walk, while walking I look down at my feet and deep in thought I run into somebody, and fall. I look up to Gerard and Mikey. "Dude, I'm so sorry!" Gerard said, "Are you okay?" Mikey asks trying to help me up. He can't because, well he's six so Gerard helps me up. I feel something on my nose, so I look up to see it had began to rain. "Oh crap, here take my hoodie." Gerard says. Awe. He puts his jacket over me and I slip it on, pulling the hood over. I help Mikey pull up the hood of his brand new red power rangers jacket. We began to walk to his house, but right when we got there I get a call from my mom. Shit. "He-ello?" "WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?" Before I could answer I get questioned once more, "GET YOUR SORRY ASS BACK HERE!" She hangs up before I can say anything. "Uh I have to go home." I say slowly. "What? Why?" Mikey asks with sad eyes. "I'm sorry Mikes." I say and ruffle his hair. "We could go with you." Gerard offers. "It's okay." I say. They nod dejectedly and go in the house. I make sure the door is closed before running home and walking in the house, hoping the punishment won't be as bad if I get home faster. My mom was waiting at the counter. "Where the fuck were you?" She asks, getting up. "I just went on a walk." I say. "Yeah well you're grounded so that's not how it works." She says sarcastically. "Look I'm sorry." I say. "Yeah well sorry isn't good enough." She says, pushing me into the kitchen. "Did Olivia ever sneak out when she was grounded? Oh wait Olivia never was grounded!" My mom shouts. "You pathetic fucking excuse for a daughter why don't you ever listen?" She says while hitting me hard on the head with a wooden cutting board after every syllable. "I'm sorry!" I say I could feel blood trickle down my face. She slaps me. "What did I just tell you? Sorry! Isn't! Good! Enough!" She says, hitting me again after every word. "Now make dinner and I swear if you try to leave again you will wish you were never born." Haha that's funny since I wish for that every day. She walks upstairs probably to tell Olivia how amazing she is again. I get some ice for my head and start making dinner. Then my dad comes home. Thankfully he only squints suspiciously at me before going to his room to change out of his suit. I finish making the lasagna crap they wanted and am about to go upstairs when my mom calls me back. I'm not allowed to eat with the family anymore because 'it hurts to look at me for that long.' "Yes mother?" "Tell your father what you did today." She says. I gulp. "Um I snuck out." I say. "What?" He says, getting up from the table. Olivia has a smug face. "You left without permission while you were grounded?" He says. I nod. He smacks me across the face and I fall to the ground. I curl up in a ball and he kicks me once in the stomach before going back to the table like nothing happened. I climb up the stairs and crawl to the bathroom where i immediately throw up. I had a bruise on my cheek now and a much larger one forming near my obvious ribs. They didn't really like feeding me or anything so I was pretty skinny. I would have to use make-up to cover the bruise. If anyone found out my parents beat me they would kill me. I try really hard not to cry and take a shower. I change into a giant green t-shirt and boxers and clean up the kitchen (where i dropped a cup and my dad slapped me again) before going straight to bed.
The next day wasn't much better. I had school. I put on a red SWS t-shirt and dark ripped skinnys. I realize i still had Gerard's jacket and decide to wear that too. What? It was soft. I put on my ratty high tops and grab my sisters old book-bag. I had to catch the bus while my mother drove Olivia to school. I run down so I'm not late and rush to the stop. I was just in time and ran to the middle of the bus. The back was for all the seniors who thought they were the shit cause they smoked pot and drank beer at 8 a clock in the morning. The front was for small freshies who were basically terrified of the seniors. I was a sophomore and didn't give a shit about either of them so i sat wherever. I didn't see Gerard so I guess Ms. Way drove him. I did however see Kassidy wrapped around Parker. I try to stay calm. I didn't expect anything good from this day but i also didn't want to get in a fight with anybody. I lose enough of those.

Notes

Haaai sorry i took so long also chapter title a bit crappy i didn't really put much thought into it cause i had one then deleted it so i don't remember what it waaas. My life is so hard.