“Why didn’t you ever tell me this?” He screamed. His hands clenched around his thick hair as he walked back towards the rocks. His eyes yelled pain while his mouth cried anger.

“Because I never thought about bringing it up. He was back in England and I forgot about him that night. I didn’t ever plan to fall in love with you. You were just a teenage dream that became a reality.” I tried to reached out to him but all I got a cold back in response. This argument has always been my biggest fear. I just wish I could have swept it under the rug.

“Why were you in America if he was in England then?” He shouted after a while. He rubbed his eye, looking as though he was trying to get his head around about what had just happened.

“I was scared he would purpose so I made some shit up about a job Rhiannon wanted me to look at. I only went to clear my head out. I was young and settling down was my biggest fear. Please Gerard, forgive me. I never wanted to tell you because he was the past and still is. We don’t need to do this now, not after everything that’s happened.”

“But you were so sweet. You…you wouldn’t do something like this” He sat back down, suddenly realising what had happened. I had betrayed him. Just like he had to me. “Fuck.” He shook his head and stood back up again. He is confused what to do. He glared at me as I looked straight at his eyes. They were already a bright red.

“I only faked my death to clear things up. You’ve just made things worse. You don’t realise what you’ve done. Jade, you’re the love of my life. I remember the first time I kissed your soft lips. How I could feel your bits of broken skin and how your waist fitted perfectly into my hands. I knew then that you were the one. The one I wanted to grow old with. Who I wanted to look down the aisle and see walking towards me. You would be the one who I would take trips to beach on a random Sunday and who I would have kids with.”

“Well we both know how that turned out,” I stupidly interrupted. He was finally just calming down as well.

“Don’t you dare bring her into this! I was just as upset as you that night. I still am. She is the world to me and I wish we still had her. I think to myself how differently things would be if he didn’t take her.” He slowly walked towards me, trying to calm himself down. I could now feel his warm breath on my rose stricken cheeks.
“Jade. Do you still love me?” he asked, wrapping his hands around my waist. They do fit perfectly.

“I don’t know after everything that’s happened but I wish I knew.” I really do wish I knew. Gerard is the one I love, or loved. I can never decide. Will we ever get over what’s happened? I still have the folder hidden in the back of the car. Could that change everything?
“That’s enough for me.” He whispered, interrupting my thoughts.
Then his kissed me. Something I had been craving for ages. He soft, petite lips that fits perfectly on mine. Our lips moved flawlessly together as he skimmed my bottom lip with his tongue. I let him in as the kiss deepened.I felt his warm hands go up my top, lightly skimming my skin. I placed my hands to his waist, hovering over his shirts lining. We both know what’s happening but it felt right. Maybe I could forget everything. For once in my life.

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I laid awake, listening to the peaceful hums of the early birds. The songs they sang, showing everyone the world was awake. Last night’s memories jumped around my head. This is the happiest I’ve been in a while. He’s perfect. We’re perfect together. I don’t know why I ever considered not loving him anymore. I know he has his flaws and I have mine but we can get over them.

His warm arm loosely hung around my bare chest, giving me enough warm to keep me warm. I turn to face the sleeping rabbit next to me and started tracing parts of his body with my fingers. I’m so turned on right now. I started debating whether to wake him up or not and continue watching him. Savour the moment as it might not last. How can someone be so unbelievably faultless and undesirable? These questions always crossed my mind. But all I know is that he’s mine and this time, I’ll do my best not to lose him. Not after last time for sure. Maybe after we find Tilly, we can go find Bandit. Save her from that bastard who took her.
A slow grumble fell from Gerard’s lips as he stretched out. His eyes suddenly jolted open as he realised where he was.

“Jade” he said surprisingly. I stroked his head, moving any hair out of his eyes, to calm him down. His eyes relaxed as he pulled me in to kiss me. His other hand grasped my boob and started squeezing it. Gently but with force. I moaned into his lips as we sat up, deepening the kiss. My hand laced into his hair as my fingers started playing in it.

“We should go somewhere else” I moaned as he started kissing my neck, “there could be people.”
“mmhmm,” Gerard replied, nibbling on my neck. I withered away as he nibbled harder, creating his mark. He knows how much I love it when he does that. I closed my eyes and forgot about people. Who cares if they see us?

That’s when I heard the gunshots.

My heart sped up as I pushed Gerard away. That was close to us. After last night, there was only one thing where that could come from. I looked at Gerard as we both spoke at the same time, grabbing any item as clothing that we could find;

“MIKEY!”

Notes

Hi.
I'm sorry for not updating In the past month or so. I needed to clear my mind a bit and everything has been a bit hetect. I've explained other things on tumblr to someone. But thank you to that person because you gave me the hope to write some more. I will be posting a super long chapter either tomorrow or christmas eve but I have started it, I just need to finish it :)
Until then
Merry Christmas. I hope you guys have a lovely day
-Megan xx