Fake Your Death
Chapter 11 - And We Were Born To Lose
September 2012
Here we go, again.
I rubbed my eyes and turned over the pregnancy test. Not Pregnant.
Everything was silent.
I stood still and watched my tiny body in the mirror. My pale complex and worn out eyes. My emotionless face.
“Babe, you okay?” Gerard called from the other side of the bathroom door, “Did it work?” The first tear of many fell down the side of my bony cheek. Almost synchronised, I fell to my knees as Gerard opened the door. Straight away he fell with me and pulled me in.
“Shhhh, everything is going to be okay” he soothingly said rubbing my arm with his thumb. I laid my head on his shoulder as I wasted my throat away with my endless screams. Gerard rocked me gently attempting to calm me down.
“We’re never going to have a child are we?” I whispered after a while, snivelling after every few words.
“We will. I promise.”
Few weeks before
“How about Luna?” I said, jumping onto the worn out sofa next to Gerard. He closed his magazine and looked up as though he was thinking.
“All I can see is that it’s always coming back to Bandit” he said, moving his hands around. He then jumped on me and began tickling me.
“Stop Gee!” I screamed, kicking my legs in the air.
“Only if you promise that we can name out child Bandit. Then I will stop” he replied, pulling me to the edge of the sofa so my head was dangling off the side.
“I’m not even pregnant yet though”
“That doesn’t mean that we won’t name our child Bandit. However you didn’t say you promised so I’ll have to keep tickling you” he said as he reached under my top and started tickling my side. I screamed and dragged him off the sofa, onto the floor. I pushed myself on top of him, taking dominance. I grabbed both his hands off my waist and pushed them above his head.
“You’re so beautiful you know?”
“I know right” I cheekily replied. I leaned down and kissed his soft lips, letting go of his arms. Big mistake. As quick as light, he turned us over so he was on top.
“Hey” I called out. He grinned at me and dragged my arms above my head.
“You still haven’t promised we can call our child Bandit” Gerard said as he clasped my hands together with one of his hands as the other one made its way to my armpit.
“No. Don’t Gerard. Please don’t….AAAAAAAAAA! Okay okay, I promise we can name our none existent child Bandit.”
“Good. Now let’s change that none existent shall we?” he replied, heaving me off the floor.
Half a year later
My sweaty hands collided together as my knee shook uncontrollably. In ten minutes time, I’ll be meeting my new daughter. I grabbed the files out from my mint bag and doubled checked them for the 15 time. The usual creepy silenced corridor was soon broken of the door in front of me opening. A young lady in an overly bright yellow tee stood at the door holding a clipboard.
“Hello Mrs. Way, I’m Louisa, your child’s social worker. If you would like to follow me, you can meet her.” The girl said as I eagerly stood up. I followed her down another corridor decorated in multiple art work from many kids. My eyes tried to capture every piece but there were so many lining the walls. We soon came to a stood outside a plain blue door. My mind went blank. I was finally going to meet her. If only Gerard was here but he was on the other side of the world doing a show. Louisa opened the door causing the baby to cry. In all of my life, I have never loved something so quickly. The social worker picked her up and carried the baby over to me. Instantly, I dropped my bag and opened my arms.
“Hello Bandit. I’m your new mummy. Your daddy isn’t here right now but he will be home soon. You’re going to love him.” I bounced her in my arms before deciding to sit on the sofa in the corner of the room.
“I’ll give you guys sometime” Louisa called out as she made her way to the door. As soon as the door closed, I started crying I was so happy. I finally had a baby I could call my own. My ears suddenly pricked up as I heard my phone ringing. I searched through my bad before finding it in one of the side pockets. It was Gerard.
“Hey sweetie, aren’t you doing a show” I said into the phone. I received back countless screams then Gerard telling everyone to be quiet.
“Yeah, I am. But I couldn’t miss you meeting our new child.” He said. Bandit suddenly started laughing so I put the phone to her mouth. When I put the phone back to my ear, I could hear many “aww’s” and wooo’s.
“I can’t wait to see you sweetie. I’ll be back soon. Don’t you worry.” He then hung up the line. I sighed and cradled Bandit, stroking her soft strands of hair that were sticking up from her scalp.
The next day I took her out onto the streets of downtown LA, showing her the hidden secrets of the streets. She giggled at the balloons being sold in the park and the ducks swimming in the pond. I felt the cool march air catch my hair as it made the leaves danced. We were finally completed.
2 weeks later
Gerard shook me awake as he climbed out of bed.
“shhh, there’s someone in the house” he whispered, grabbing the baseball bat out from under the bed. I suddenly went into panic mode as I heard Bandits curdling screams down the hallway.
“BANDIT!” I screamed jumping out of bed. Gerard beat me to the door as we raced to her room. He smashed open the door to find her cot empty and the window opened. I raced to window just as a car drove off down the road.
“Jade, look” Gerard said. I turned around to find him holding a note. I tore it off him and skimmed through it.
‘You took her from me, so I’ll take her from you. She’s rightfully mine. Don’t bother looking for her. –The real father’
I crashed down to the floor and rocked myself while Gerard closed the window. That was the last time we ever saw Bandit. We never tried again after that.
Here we go, again.
I rubbed my eyes and turned over the pregnancy test. Not Pregnant.
Everything was silent.
I stood still and watched my tiny body in the mirror. My pale complex and worn out eyes. My emotionless face.
“Babe, you okay?” Gerard called from the other side of the bathroom door, “Did it work?” The first tear of many fell down the side of my bony cheek. Almost synchronised, I fell to my knees as Gerard opened the door. Straight away he fell with me and pulled me in.
“Shhhh, everything is going to be okay” he soothingly said rubbing my arm with his thumb. I laid my head on his shoulder as I wasted my throat away with my endless screams. Gerard rocked me gently attempting to calm me down.
“We’re never going to have a child are we?” I whispered after a while, snivelling after every few words.
“We will. I promise.”
Few weeks before
“How about Luna?” I said, jumping onto the worn out sofa next to Gerard. He closed his magazine and looked up as though he was thinking.
“All I can see is that it’s always coming back to Bandit” he said, moving his hands around. He then jumped on me and began tickling me.
“Stop Gee!” I screamed, kicking my legs in the air.
“Only if you promise that we can name out child Bandit. Then I will stop” he replied, pulling me to the edge of the sofa so my head was dangling off the side.
“I’m not even pregnant yet though”
“That doesn’t mean that we won’t name our child Bandit. However you didn’t say you promised so I’ll have to keep tickling you” he said as he reached under my top and started tickling my side. I screamed and dragged him off the sofa, onto the floor. I pushed myself on top of him, taking dominance. I grabbed both his hands off my waist and pushed them above his head.
“You’re so beautiful you know?”
“I know right” I cheekily replied. I leaned down and kissed his soft lips, letting go of his arms. Big mistake. As quick as light, he turned us over so he was on top.
“Hey” I called out. He grinned at me and dragged my arms above my head.
“You still haven’t promised we can call our child Bandit” Gerard said as he clasped my hands together with one of his hands as the other one made its way to my armpit.
“No. Don’t Gerard. Please don’t….AAAAAAAAAA! Okay okay, I promise we can name our none existent child Bandit.”
“Good. Now let’s change that none existent shall we?” he replied, heaving me off the floor.
Half a year later
My sweaty hands collided together as my knee shook uncontrollably. In ten minutes time, I’ll be meeting my new daughter. I grabbed the files out from my mint bag and doubled checked them for the 15 time. The usual creepy silenced corridor was soon broken of the door in front of me opening. A young lady in an overly bright yellow tee stood at the door holding a clipboard.
“Hello Mrs. Way, I’m Louisa, your child’s social worker. If you would like to follow me, you can meet her.” The girl said as I eagerly stood up. I followed her down another corridor decorated in multiple art work from many kids. My eyes tried to capture every piece but there were so many lining the walls. We soon came to a stood outside a plain blue door. My mind went blank. I was finally going to meet her. If only Gerard was here but he was on the other side of the world doing a show. Louisa opened the door causing the baby to cry. In all of my life, I have never loved something so quickly. The social worker picked her up and carried the baby over to me. Instantly, I dropped my bag and opened my arms.
“Hello Bandit. I’m your new mummy. Your daddy isn’t here right now but he will be home soon. You’re going to love him.” I bounced her in my arms before deciding to sit on the sofa in the corner of the room.
“I’ll give you guys sometime” Louisa called out as she made her way to the door. As soon as the door closed, I started crying I was so happy. I finally had a baby I could call my own. My ears suddenly pricked up as I heard my phone ringing. I searched through my bad before finding it in one of the side pockets. It was Gerard.
“Hey sweetie, aren’t you doing a show” I said into the phone. I received back countless screams then Gerard telling everyone to be quiet.
“Yeah, I am. But I couldn’t miss you meeting our new child.” He said. Bandit suddenly started laughing so I put the phone to her mouth. When I put the phone back to my ear, I could hear many “aww’s” and wooo’s.
“I can’t wait to see you sweetie. I’ll be back soon. Don’t you worry.” He then hung up the line. I sighed and cradled Bandit, stroking her soft strands of hair that were sticking up from her scalp.
The next day I took her out onto the streets of downtown LA, showing her the hidden secrets of the streets. She giggled at the balloons being sold in the park and the ducks swimming in the pond. I felt the cool march air catch my hair as it made the leaves danced. We were finally completed.
2 weeks later
Gerard shook me awake as he climbed out of bed.
“shhh, there’s someone in the house” he whispered, grabbing the baseball bat out from under the bed. I suddenly went into panic mode as I heard Bandits curdling screams down the hallway.
“BANDIT!” I screamed jumping out of bed. Gerard beat me to the door as we raced to her room. He smashed open the door to find her cot empty and the window opened. I raced to window just as a car drove off down the road.
“Jade, look” Gerard said. I turned around to find him holding a note. I tore it off him and skimmed through it.
‘You took her from me, so I’ll take her from you. She’s rightfully mine. Don’t bother looking for her. –The real father’
I crashed down to the floor and rocked myself while Gerard closed the window. That was the last time we ever saw Bandit. We never tried again after that.
Notes
Sorry I posted this chapter late, I just got back from work :)LAST FLASHBACK FOR NOW!! I PROMISE!! Next chapter will be back in real time :)
I dedicate this chapter to Hazel (Hazel_Highlight), who came up with this chapter :P and to Elizabeth (Killjoy_Love19) who I hopes phone is okay now ;)
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-Megan xx
I love this! Poor Mikey though! I cannot wait for more!
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