Every Burden Has a Version

Frank and I ended going back to his house after we said goodbye to his mother. As soon as I got into Frank’s house and said good morning to Mikey, I locked myself in the bathroom.

“Brea, pick up,” I said softly, pressing my cell phone against my ear. I could hear my echo throughout the bathroom.

“Off With Their Heads Tattoos. How may I ink you?” Brea Del Amo intoned on the phone.

“Brea, it is V. Murk! They’re here. They’re back.” I tried to keep my voice down.

“Aliens are there? Who is back? Who, who, who?” She sounded like an owl.

“Old feelings,” I moaned. “I have thoughts for Frank. I was confident in thinking that we are just platonic friends. We are, but I’m still that school girl with a crush.”

“I got news for you, sister. It’s not a crush. You have been undergoing this, this fixation for a long time.”

“Fuck my life, Brea. How many times do I have to say it? Just hang me from my toenails already. I just want to go home. I think I might.” I heard footsteps increase more thunderous as they came closer to the bathroom door. “Shit, I need to go.” I came out of the bathroom to see Mikey with a carefree look. “Good morning, sir,” I smiled.

“Good morning, Violet. It’s a fantastic morning. The birds are singing and the sun is shining.” Mikey spun around in a circle once.

“Save it for someone who is writing the next Disney movie.”

“Hey, Violet, who were you talking to in the there?” He pointed and peeked around my shoulder into the bathroom. “I heard the word feeling several times.”

“Clean the ear wax out of your ears, Mikey.”

“I heard Frank’s name too. Do you like hi-hi-hi-him? You do, don’t you? You too are amazing together.” Mikey began to breathe heavily.

“You got that all from the eight words I said? I should give you more acknowledgment, Mikey.” I nodded my head.

“So, you don’t deny it.” Mikey crossed his arms across his chest.

“I bet you would get pleasure from undressing me.” I mimicked Mikey.

He was speechless.

“Oh, so you don’t refute it. Two can play this game, sir.”

“I might tell. I don’t know. I can’t have you hurt the guy again.”

“What the fuck do you know?” I shoved Mikey out of my way. “Fucking idiot,” I huffed. “You know nothing. If you say anything,” I glared at him, “I’ll rip off your balls. Do you understand? Answer me!”

“Yes, oui,” Mikey rolled his eyes and went into the bathroom.

-Three Years Ago- “Open your eyes now,” I danced in place. “I’m done getting dressed.”

Frank’s eyes flickered when a puckered brow appeared on his face.

“You’re wearing that,” he spat out.

I nodded. “Yes. Does it look appalling or something? I can change.” I sulked.

“No, it looks great. You look absolutely beautiful, but you were crying to find clothes to wear to the party and now you’re just wearing baggy pants with a Smack T-shirt. Wait, are those my pants?”

“Yes, that’s why they’re loose-fitting on me. You had some clothes in my closet. I thought you wouldn’t care.”

“I don’t care. You were going to wear a skirt. You changed from a skirt to my no shape pants. I like it.” A smirk finally emerged on his face. “You’re so melodramatic. Oh, I can’t wear the same clothes I wore to school! Blah, I’m Violet,” Frank mocked me in a girly voice.

“I’m almost positive I don’t sound like that. Nor do I say, ‘blah, I’m Violet’ in a cheerleader’s tone erratically when I’m speaking.” I shook my head. “So, do you think it’s alright if I wear this? I don’t look obese or anything, do I? Voluminous pants sometimes make me look like portly.”

“No, Violet,” Frank walked over to me and gazed at me. “You look stunning today. Well, you always do so it’s not just at the moment.” He was rambling and flushed red in his features. “How do I look?”

“Handsome,” I said. “I’d fuck you with the exception of not really.” I swathed my arms around his waist for a bear hug, but as an alternative something else happened. Frank pressed his lips to mine, consequently resulting in my eyes to shut naturally as he did so. Frank was the one to pull away.

“Was that what we were going for?” I panicked. “I was going in for a hug and you did an enormously contradictory… doohickey than what I was going for. I mean, yeah, it was better than my intention however. What? No, I-I didn’t mind.” I shifted my eyes to the floor. “Blah, I’m Violet. I don’t know.”

“I apologize,” Frank said in distress. “It was cool though, right? I was just testing to see if I did that, what would happen? It’s a science experiment I’m working on for school. If best friends kissed would that revolutionize their friendship? What do you say?”

“What do I say for what?” I looked at Frank while fireworks exploded in my chest. It felt like I was having a heart attack because my heart was pumping so promptly. Initially I saw stars after the kiss, but now I just see him. I licked my lips.

“About the conduct experiment I’m working on.”

I gawked. Fuck you, Frank! I wanted to scream that in his face. I wanted to tell him that the kiss made everything one hundred times shoddier because I can still feel his lips on mine and my feelings are dripping out of my every pore. I love you, Frank, but you can’t get it across your mind that sexual actions cannot be done when we are nonphysical friends. We are just friends and I don’t see the words friends with benefits written anywhere on my body. I love you. I love you. You just killed me in the inside with that kiss and my heart is going to fall out my ass any minute now. We can just be friends. Just friends, nothing else so zip it up.

“I bet you’ll get an A plus. Great experimentation,” I lied, giving him a high five. “I do not feel anything at this point in time. We are still acquaintances. Acquaintances that must get their way over to that party,” I stated, stopping my hand from ripping the hair off his head.

“Me neither. I feel the same as I did twenty seconds ago.” He grinned, linking arms with me as if nothing happened a minute ago. “I’ll drive.”

Notes

Sooooo the kiss finally happened. More kissing in the future? Maybe.
Can't tell ya.

But go check out my other Frank Iero fanfic. I just posted the first chapter a few days ago. I would love some comments.

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