I'll never let them hurt you, I promise

Gerard-
The first day of school. the first day really?
i have to go and get myself stupidly attracted to this "frank" kid. I'm completely hopeless.
i told myself before starting at this new school, that wouldn't get myself into trouble, i wouldn't let myself get attracted to anyone and i most certainly wouldn't talk to gorgeous boys.
oh god, i couldn't help myself though, my eyes practically made there own way to glance at the beautifully fragile boy sat in class. i giggle to myself. beautiful and fragile are two words while probably don't sound convincing together, but he was. i dot know if anyone else see's it but that boy is fragile, breakable, damaged.
Trust me to be attracted to what looks like a broken hard piece of work. the thing is i know i will try, i will try so hard to get the things what i want.
my head isn't even thinking properly now and by the time i've realised i've already walked over and sat down on the desk next to him, i needed a reason to talk to him. quick.
i knew it was totally lame but the words left my mouth before i could think, i had already leaned far to close to him so i practically had no choice but to speak.
"i know this stupid but i forgot pen's could you borrow me one"
his slightly shocked eyes rolled over my face inspecting my features, i'm regretting leaning so close to him now. i can basically smell the fabric softener on his clothes.
He seems to be in some sort of trance and he pauses silently for a few moments which some how felt like forever. he lifted his hand up a little gesturing the pen in his fingertips at me i reached my hand towards him slowly, wrapping my fingers around the pen before taking it from his grasp. what a wonderfully beautiful person i think to myself before turning back around to sit normally at my desk.
it's my first day i shouldn't be trying to flirt with mysterious sexy boys sitting lonely at the back of the classroom, however i've found myself extremely attracted to him.
Also what else was i suppose to do when i found him stood next to me at my locker checking me out and then offering to walk me to lessons, i'm obviously going to get butterfly's.
He's confident and it's sexy.

When me and mikey get home after school and get through the front door of the house my heart starts racing with happiness. Jaylin's purple converse are laying on the floor in the hallway and i instantly know i'm about to be united with my best friend. me and Jaylin have always been bestfriends, it's probably because our mother's are bestfriends plus we are the same age, went to the same schools and were put in the same classes. My happiness only grows when i realise that her and her mother have officially moved in with us. After jaylin's dad left them and in a lot of debt, they lost their house it's a good thing my mums such a good friend because now jaylin and her mum get to live with us. of course we had to move out her into a bigger house so we all had room, but it was worth it i still had jaylin and she was all i needed.
"JAAYYY!!" i scream at the top of my lungs down the hallway and i soon see a bedroom door next to mine flying open before a figure runs full speed at me. when jay's body meets mine she jumps up and wrapped her thighs around my hips im excited to see my bestfrend for the first time in agers i hug her tightly and spin us around. Mikey watches us from down the hallway he, along with everyone else thinks me and jaylin were secretly dating, but we're not.
Jay's the only person i trust and she's the only person i've told that i'm gay. it's not that my parents wouldn't support me it's just i don't feel ready to tell them.
i put her down back on her feet before coming excited at remembering that she will be starting school tomorrow with me. i look down at her with a wide smile only to be met with an even widen one. she is beautiful, if only i was attracted to girls. i've kissed jay before, like probably too many times then needed but there was never any passion or lust it was always only friendly. these kisses normally took place when we were pretending we were girlfriend and boyfriend at school to stop bullies from calling me gay. they weren't going to say shit if i was kissing one of the most beautiful girls in school. that's why i loved jay, not because of the kissing of course, but because she always tried to protect me and me her. i wish i was attracted to females, me and jay would make the cutest couple.
"i've missed you so much" i say as my smile grows even larger
"i've missed you more" she reply's moving her hand up to her face and adjusting her hair a little "how was school?" she asks with a slight giggle probably at the fact that she didn't have to go today.
"actually i need to tell you something" i whisper increasing her curiosity "privet" i add in whisper form.
"i didn't have school" she says back "so my rooms fully decorated, come on" she say grabbing my hand and pulling me into her room before locking the door behind us. yep mikey definitely thought we were fucking.
My eyes scan the room taking in the beauty. she had completely covered the walls in band posters,drawings, magazine clippings, lyrics and other scraps of paper.
"you like" she asks also looking around her room i answer with a simple "wow" and a nod of the head.
i kick my shoes of before bringing my feet onto the bed and crossing my legs sitting to face her.
"so what happened at school?" she asks and i can feel my cheeks already blushing
"oh yeah. right. umm. well jay i swear i met the most perfect boy today"
her eyes brighten instantly "really?" she asks happy for me
"really" i repeat but her excitement soon dies
"Gerard what happened to not speaking to good looking boys" she asks referring back to my own silly rules as she raises a brow
"don't raise a brow at me lady" i say jokingly with a giggle "i know i shouldn't have" i tell her "but i couldn't help myself" i reach my hand out and push her backwards playfully and after she re gains her balance
"Gerard don't let this one head fuck you ok?" i love how protective she is
"i won't" i assure her although i couldn't make any promises "anyway you'll be able to see him tomorrow at school" i say excitement creeping up on us both again.

Notes

finally Jaylin yay
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