I'll never let them hurt you, I promise

Gerard~~
Today so far is turning out to be pretty shitty, Frank's still in a mood from yesterday with the psychiatrist. He wont le me comfort him or kiss him or even touch him. he's been giving me the silent treatment since yesterday even though i've told him a thousand times that talking about it will make him feel better. however at least he still walks with me to school and lessons an lunch and at least he still cares and hasn't completely disappeared into his own world. It's hard for me to see frank like this, what happened to make him act like this, did the psychiatrist brought that "josh" up or something. i don't know but it's hurting me to see frank hurt, he walks up to me with this sad fake smile on his lips trying to lie to the world, trying to pretend he's happy when he quite clearly is not and all want to do is hug him and kiss all his pain away. I've decided to just let this silence play out, he's will talk again soon i'm sure of it. he's probably just trying to figure something out in his head, i'll just give him the space he needs.
Knowing frank he's probably just worrying bout next Thursday when he has to go back the therapy and he's probably thinking up a way on how he can get out of it. It's heartbreak to see my boyfriend like this although it also makes me wonder why he hates so much does he actually need therapy or not?

Once get to the music classroom after walking there in complete silence, which for once was actually awkward. silence is never normally awkward with me an frank but today we both seemed to be very uncomfortable around each other. we walk to the back of the class room to a table where Mikey is sat with a bored emotionless expression on his face.
"hey" i say as me and frank sit on the opposite side of him.
"hi" he says as his facial expression now turns to a sad gloomy one
"what's wrong?" i ask realising this was not my normal brother. mikey was normally the most happiest most energetic person on the plant but today he just seemed down.
"you know that girl that i've liked since we move here. Kate?"
"yeah" i say rising an eyebrow
"well i asked her out earlier" he quickly drops his head onto the table with a loud bang smashing his forehead against the wooden desk
"and..." i say persuading him to continue his little story which i now seem very interested in
"she said no" he says in a muffled tone as his voice bounces off the table where he's rubbing his face. Although i'm smiling i'm genuinely upset for him i'm just happy that he finally gained enough courage to finally ask her out. i reach my hand out and ruffle his hair slightly
"aw mikes, she's the one missing out anyway" i say trying to comfort my brother
"i guess" he reply's with his glasses still forced against the table
"here" i say picking up his guitar from next to him "playing always makes you feel better" i say with a smile as he tilts his head up to look at me before taking it out of my hands. i turn my head for a second to look at frank who's staring off into the distance looking as if he doesn't have a care in the world. i reach around his chair and grab his case before slowly an carefully taking pansy out
"maybe you could play something together" i whisper holding pansy up to get Frank attention, he quickly snatches it away from me
"okay" i hear mikey's voice but frank doesn't seem to be interested in the conversation
"frank" i say nudging his arm with my elbow and he snaps his head around to glance at me
"don't you want to play with mikey??" i ask looking down at pansy in his lap, he quickly catches on to what me and mikey were saying before an nods his head before beginning to play and not long after mikey joins in with him and honestly they sound great. i wish i could play but i cant so instead i decide to pull out my notepad and start writing lyrics and doodling sometimes when i can't think what should come in the next line.
i'm just doodling a small dragon when a voice soon brakes me away from my thoughts
"hey frank" the voice is quite but you can still hear it's beautiful tone, although the statement was clearly not spoken to me i decide to speak for frank knowing he is continuing this silent thing.
"hey im Gerard" i say looking up at a boy in big round glass a stripy top with gingery hair. he looks confused as to why i'm speaking a frank isn't
"oh he's in a mood" i say smiling up at the boy who i recognize from hearing him sing in the other corner of the room with like three other friends round him
"i'm frank's boyfriend," i say introducing myself by reaching my hand up for him to shake. he does, he takes my hand and shakes it gently before letting go still with a slight confused look on his face "Patrick" he answers before giving frank and glance which he doesn't respond to.
"oh well. i just came over to invite you and frank to my birthday party" i smile as he continues to talk, he probably only came over to invite frank but now he's learnt im his boyfriend im guessing he fells pressure into asking me to come too.
"yeah sure, we'd love to" i tell him nudging Frankie with my elbow trying to get his attention
"okay well, it's on Friday night at the sport club" i just nod in response "oh and also it's fancy dress" he say before smiling once at me then again at frank as he eye are almost pleading frank to speak.
"oh that's great" i say distracting his eyes back to me "we will defiantly come" i say flashing my teeth in a larger smile this time.
"okay good" is the last thing he awkwardly says before walking back over to his small group of friends. i turn back around to look at frank who is just staring down at pansy in his lap and i wish he would just speak.
i bump my elbow into his rips gently making him look at me
"a party Frankie" i say with a wink remembering back to the last time we went to a party but i wont say it knowing my bother is sat right next to us. he grins back at me cheekily realising what im suggesting
"we best get some costumes bought" i whisper before the bell for he end of lesson rings loudly.

Notes

this is just a filler paragraph