I'll never let them hurt you, I promise

Frank~~
Wednesday? fuck i have to go to school today.
my mother once again used the physicist to threaten me not to skip school again. i'm starting to think that going to therapy could be so much better then saying in this house.
Here i go. school. the place i hate. the place i've been trying to avoid. the place where Gerard will be.
i pull on some black skinny jeans which a large hole cut into them on the one kneecap and a faded misfits top which is dirty and covered in stains. i also slide on my converse and leather jacket before pulling my bag onto my shoulder an heading out the door.
fuck getting the bus, the last thing i want on the god awful morning is to have to sit through the whole bus ride with Mikey and Gerard feeling guilty about the other night. Thinking about how i kissed Gerard and how that was betraying Mikeys friendship, no fuck that not the whole way to school. i decide to walk and plug my ear phones into my phone before beginning to walk to the beat of smashing pumpkins. I'm nearly at the school when the yellow school bus passes me, that's the one i normally get on and even thought i try not to look up as it drives by my head feels the need to catch a glance at the last second. i knew i could feel someone's glare on me, someone watching me but i didn't expect to look up at the old dirty windows on the bus to see sparkling hazel eyes looking down at me as the bus rode by. Gerard.
the only reason i wanted to skip school and now i had seen him before i even reached the place.

i reach the school gates and pull out my timetable wondering what i have first lesson. oh just my luck. music. the only lesson with mikey and Gerard both in the same classroom, just my fucking luck. Maybe i'll carry on with my silence, yeah actually that seems like the best way to show that i don't want to talk to either of them. not in a mean way of course i just think the day will go along a lot smoother if i just don't speak to the way brothers. i walk up to the classroom and march inside, turning my music up in my ear phones as i sit alone on the opposite end of the classroom to my so called "friends"
i now realise that my music is ear drum brakingly loud and decide to turn it down a few notches, not that the teacher minds i don't even think she's acknowledged me even if i am 10 minutes late.
I smile as i remembered that i brought pansy today which means i don't have to use the crappy school equipment. as soon as i've sat i reach over to her case and let her out wrapping her strap around my shoulder before beginning to play along with the music playing into my ears. i normally do this play my guitar along with the music im listening to, much like im the guitarist in their band. as if im the famous one up on stage playing my guitar for all the world to listen to. that would be cool, honestly that's all i want to be able to play cool music and have other people enjoy it. that would make me happy.
i soon realise that my eyes a closed tightly and a genuine happy smile as plastered itself across my lips. when the song finishes i stop playing and take the ear phones out my ears before slowly open my eyes. as i do i'm greeted with a tall muscular figure stood directly in front of me as if it had been waiting for me to finish and acknowledge it's existence. i tilt my head some what backwards to look at the boys facial features. he has blonde hair, blue eyes, pale skin and a curved grin on his tinted red lips. i shoot him a questioningly look as i wonder why he is watching me and standing way to far into my personal space.
"hey" he says in a deep tone of voice.
i don't answer with words but only with the nod of my head as if to say hi.
"im bob" he tells me some what confidently
"frank" i reply slowly unsure as to why this boy has suddenly started talking to me and if i should even been telling him my name. although he is in this class which mean he probably already knew my name. well i didn't know his but if i concentrated really hard and looked at the register i could have easily worked out that this kid was bob.
"your good" he says a smile widening on his lips as he looks down at pansy in my lap. i watch as he pushes his hands deep into his front jeans pockets as if my long reply's are making him feel uncomfortable. however honestly I'm confused to why he is talking to me, why is he being nice to me, he looks like al the other jocks which just bully me, call me names and throw me about.
"thanks" i say after a way to long pause. my mind started to wonder to reason as to why he would be here introducing him self and complementing my guitar skills. however a compliment is still a compliment and i plan on taking it.
is this bob character trying to befriend me?
"so" he says looking back up at me, a nervous sparkle in his eye. i looked back up at him make some sort of eye contact. nothing special just the sort of eye contact you make when your politely speaking to someone.
"im having a party this Friday" he continued "and me and my friends were wondering if you wanted to come" he talks while gesturing his hands over to a group of a mixture of girls and boys all play music and singing as if in a band together.
i know im taking to long to answer as he stands awkwardly in front of me reaching his arm up and running it thought his hair before scratching the back of his neck looking uncomfortable.
"really?" i ask as the whole conversation seems sketchy.
i mean am i really being asked to go to a party. a real high school party
"yeah" he says as his confidence seems to regain "i mean you seem cool" he adds.
i've never been to a high school party, well I've never been to any sort of party before
i smile instantly up at him and i watch as his smile re grows across his face again, im happy to to be asked to this party special by someone as popular as bob. is cool right? he even called me cool, another compliment that i will be taking.
this party could be a great way to make friends, so i wouldn't have to rely on mikey as my only friend.
"yeah ok" i tell bob declaring that in fact i will go to this party of his. he just nods in aproval before beginning to walk away back to his friends. however he turns back once to look at me and whispers
"can't wait to see you there" and with that he sat down within the circle of his fiends leaving me and pansy alone with my thoguhts and excited for the up coming friday.

Notes

is this paragraph small. i hand wrote it and it seemed long but now i've typed it. oh god im so tried i cba. another update tomorrow
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