The Hardest Part of This Is Leaving You

We all sat on the couch watching all the bad movies they'd brought over. I hoarded the candy Gerard had brought over despite the nauseous feeling deep in the pit of my stomach. Occasionally Frank would make a snarky comment and mikey would laugh before lightly kissing my nose. The whole time Mikey held me tight Gerard on the floor while Frank sat stretched out on the couch. Finally the sun had gone down and I heard light snores from both Gerard and Frank. I turned and to my suprise Mikey was wide awake.
"Mikey I was wondering if maybe I could ask you a question?" I whispered so as not to wake the guys.
"Of course what is it hun?" He said looking at me a bit worried.
"Well I know you guys live together and stuff annd I was well wondering why?" I breathed quietly afraid I'd crossed a line. He let out a sigh sort of sitting up from where he was on the couch.
"Well Gerards my older brother" I nodded I knew that " And well growing up around here we were always really close, people used to call us the 'chemical brothers' back when Gerard was still addicted, antidepressants, coke, alcohol everything" I nodded nit sure what it had to do with everything "Well when our parents died, it got worse" he got even quieter "Uhh well we met Ray and Frank and we did well uhh we did alot of drugs together, smoking drinking everything...." He took a sharp intake of breath " And well I got put in the ward for a little while 'cuz of my depressiong and anxiety and bipolar and Gerard sorta broke, he fell into a deeper spiral than usual he tried to kill himself, I don't know if it was just the addiction or depression or missing me, but uhh well Frank helped him get clean.... It was a damn miracle.... I don't know how, he just is amazing with him, don't tell him I told you but Gerard has tons of drawings of Frank as a superhero, an angel,this thing he calls a 'killjoy' even wrote a couple comics about it"
He let out a light laugh The conversation now light and somewhat jovial.
" And when Frank's parents kicked him out Gerard let him stay with us, and well here we are" he said smiling at me grasping my hand again.
"I have my own question for you" he said and I nodded at him.
"Willyoubemygirlfriend?" He whispered rapidly. I let out a yes quickly. I felt like I wasn't In the room like everything was normal and I still had my hair and I wasn't sick and I wouldn't be going to Chemo later.
"I love you" he giggled kissing me a final time before hugging me tightly.

Notes

Ok I hope you enjoyed thanks for reading as always also Maven lots of Maven I'll try to post more tomorrow I really hope you liked it (are you happy now :p)