I'm not okay (Ferard) (teacher/Student)

The bell rang and all the students started filing in the class. Lunch just ended and the students were more rowdy than usual, probably because this is the class they have been talking about al day, sex education.
"Alright class, listen up." I said, trying to get them as settled as possible. "This is your sexual education class and just so you know I have a script I'm supposed to go by, so don't hold this against me. "
They started laughing and I could see some whispering to each other, probably because I said 'hold against me'.
"Now, will the girls exit and go to room 703. Your class will be held in there."
"Why don't we get to stay in here, what will we be learning that so different?" One girl said, without raising her hand.
"Well thank you for raising your hand, but the boys and girls are separated for no real reason, you are learning the same thing, but apparently if both genders learn about sex in the same room an orgy will break out or something." I said. A lot of the kids laughed and I could hear a few guys talk about how 'that wouldn't be so bad'. After the girls left I had to get started, I was a little hesitant to be teaching this, it was a little awkward. However, I was a little anxious to see how Gerard would answer the questions I had to ask.
"Now, with show of hands, who here has ever masturbated?" A lot of guys giggled because hands and masturbation, but I tried to ignore it. "If no one knows what masturbation is it could also be referred to as 'wanked off', 'jerked off' or 'playing with yourself'." A few people hesitantly put their hands up, one including Gerard. Now that was a thought, Gerard laying in his bed, sweating and moaning, jerking himself off- STOP FRANK! He is my student and I have to stop thinking about him this way, it's not like he would ever think the same about me.
"Who here is a virgin?" Some nerds put their hands up, talking to each other about saving themselves for marriage. My eyes scanned through the class and again saw a hesitant Gerard, putting his hand up. This made me a little upset. He is so perfect, how has no one taken his virginity. I put on one of the videos I had to show and let my thought trail off to where they really wanted to go. I thought about him in his bed, his long artistic fingers trailing up and down. Him, a sweating, moaning mess. I could practically hear the moans, then he started moaning my name and I was suddenly very relieved I was sitting behind my desk and very aware that I had been staring at Gerard because he was now staring back and we were just staring at each other. After a minute I looked away, knowing that some one was bound to notice if he kept it on any longer, but that didn't stop me from stealing glances.
When the video ended, I put another on before going through a few power points. Finally the bell rang, showing that the class was ending. This was my last period before my free period at the end of the day so I decided to keep Gerard after class. I soon discovered I had no reason to keep him after class and tried to quickly think of something to say.
"What did you want to keep me for?" Gerard asked.
"Uh, well, I was wondering...um.. Where we were going to do tutoring today?" That was clear bullshit but I hoped he bought it. The look he gave me showed me he was skeptical, but it still passed for truth.
"Uh, wherever." He said
"We could do it at my place if you wanted." I said.
"Okay, sounds like a plan." he said
"Okay."
We looked at each other for a second and then he said, "Was that it?"
"Oh, yeah... Do you need me to write you a pass?"
"Uh, sure."
When he was gone I tried to process my feeling and thoughts. He was so perfect. I know I shouldn't be thinking these things about him, and I know he won't feel the same, but these thought aren't going away. I really think I love him, but it would be too soon to tell, right? What am I talking about, to soon to tell, I AM HIS TEACHER! Nothing is ever going to happen because he is perfect and I am his teacher. I just, I don't know if I can keep myself away from him much longer.

Notes

Sorry I haven't updated for a while and that this is horrible. I feel like no one is even reading this and I should just stop writing it. Comment, and give me suggestions. Tell me what I should do and tell me if I should just stop writing.