Mine?Yours.Always?Forever.

Gerard’s POV
I’m so happy. I finally said it. I love him, I, Gerard Way am in love with Frank Iero. The thing is, we don’t know much about each other, we know what we like and dislike but we don’t know each other’s stories. I remember on the first day I met him how fidgety and depressed he seemed. I want to know what’s wrong I don’t want him to feel bad about himself all the time.

“Babe can I ask you something?” I whispered. He looked up at me and smiled. “Of course you can hun.” “Okay well when we met I noticed that you didn’t look happy and I can tell that you’re still not and I want to know what’s going on with you so I can help-“ He cut me off half way through my sentence “Please stop okay; nothing’s wrong okay it’s fine. I’m fine.” What bullshit, why won’t he tell me what the hell? He won’t even fucking look at me. “Frank look at me. I know that something is wrong so just tell me. I’m your boyfriend okay I should know these things. Stop shutting me out all the time.”

I think now he’s really agitated because he looks like he could murder me if someone paid him. “FINE. You want to know what’s wrong Gerard? Every day I feel like I’m bleeding but I don’t know where the cut is. It’s like I’m drowning but everyone is just swimming by perfectly fine. I feel like we’re all made of glass but I’m scratched and cracked everywhere. Do you know what it feels like to be like this? To wake up in the morning and think ‘why the fuck am I still here?’? To go to sleep at night and think ‘someone or something up there kill me or give me the strength to kill myself.’? It fucking sucks to be me Gerard. I hate myself more than anything on this Earth. And with the cracked glass thing, I know we’re all cracked but I feel like I’m about to shatter and when I do, you’re going to be alone. You need me Gerard and I need you but I’m scared that you need more than I can ever give you. You can do so much better than me and it kills me every day that you have to put up with me all the time. I know that you can find someone that’s better than me but I’m too selfish to let you go. I love you so much but I’m scared that I’m just going to mess you up even more.”
Why wouldn’t he tell me this? I would never leave him, it’d kill me. I honestly don’t think there’s anything I could say to make him know how completely wrong he is, there’s no way I could do better than him and even if I could I wouldn’t want to. He’s everything to me. To be honest sometimes I think we shouldn’t be together but it just feels so right. He’s my worst nightmare, but also my best dream. Our relationship sucks but at the same time is the best thing that could’ve ever happened to me. I don’t know how to say how I feel to him, so I don’t. I just hold him against my chest and hope that he knows my heart only beats for him.

Notes

Sorry it's really short x