In The Mourning
Part Thirty
Frank's eyes lit up under the dim light before he revealed his shocked expression. At this point, both of us looked like deer caught in the headlights.
"What?! No...", Frank said as he shook his head.
Not sure why I felt hurt by the way he said no but I just chuckled and let out a relieved sigh.
"I meant, do you see me in your future because I don't want you to wake up one day and come to a realization like 'I can't see myself with Frank anymore'", Frank explained.
I knew his feelings for me were real but I didn't expect it to be this serious. I was relieved after he explained because from here, I know he won't screw things up again. Or even try.
"Besides, can't be marrying you now. I want you to finish your studies first before you fully commit to me because I can be a handful", Frank grinned.
I threw a handful of popcorn before pulling the blanket. Frank was still sheepishly smiling at me but I ignored him. He kept on saying, 'I'll propose you but not now'.
"Will you shut up if we make out?", I asked.
"That's the whole point. Nice to see you're catching up, sugar", he said before leaning in. He slowly pushed me to the end of the couch and our lips met. It didn't take a while before his lips meets my neck. It feels so good. I could feel his smile against my skin and it sends shivers down my spine. I was holding back but he found my sweet spot and I let out a moan. My fingers were tangled with his hair and I pulled his head so that our lips could kiss again.
Things were going hot and heavy when we heard the doorbell.
"Fuck, life hates me", Frank stopped.
I giggled and reorganized the cushions that were scattering on the floor. Frank dragged his feet and opened the door. From the mirror that was reflecting the door, I saw the guys, including Mikey.
"Is this a bad time?", Bob asked, referring to Frank's non-existent t-shirt and his messed up hair.
Frank scratched the back of his head and shrugged.
The four of the followed Frank's to the living room and then I saw a petite girl with auburn hair. She wore a blue polo and white fitted jeans. When she saw me, she quickly grabbed Mikey's hand.
"I HAVEN'T SEEN YOUR PRETTY FACE IN AGES!", Gerard shouted when he saw me arranging the cushions. He quickly jumped on the sofa and sat next to me.
"I missed you too, Gerard", I chuckled.
Everyone said hi to me except for Mikey. He completely ignored me before introducing me to the girl.
"This is Helen, my girlfriend", Mikey stated.
Helen reached out her hand to give me a handshake and I returned the favor. She cocked her eyebrow when she saw my obviously after make out hair.
"Classy", she said.
I was taken back by her words but after looking at what she was wearing, I decided to ignore her. Obviously no one told her about her make up. Frank grabbed his t-shirt and put them on. He was still (sexually) frustrated with just now because he kept on rubbing my palms. He only does that when he's 'inspired'.
"How's the album, guys?", I asked.
"Ray just came up with a sick guitar solo and we were thinking of using it", Bob replied.
"Have you guys ever thought of taking part in Rebecca's foundation?", I asked.
"How?", Gerard joined in.
"As for now, only corporate companies are in the list but I just thought of an idea where we could expand the foundation and let bands join in because kids these days look up to their favorite bands as an inspiration. I think it would be a good idea for you guys to do it too", I simply stated.
The guys agreed to be a part of Rebecca's foundation and Gerard already informed my mother's personal assistant regarding this but Mikey remained silence. I was getting a bit uncomfortable but when I was about to say something to Mikey, Helen just kissed the shit out of her.
"Dude, come on. If I wanted you to watch, I would've continued making out with Blair", Frank bluntly said.
My cheeks went crimson red and then I noticed Gerard giving me two-thumbs up while winking his eyes. I just rolled my eyes and went to the kitchen to get some drinks for them. I was reaching out for the pale blue glasses when I heard footsteps coming into the kitchen. It was Mikey. He just stood at the kitchen counter and observed my moves.
"What do you want?", I bitterly asked as I placed the last glass on the tray.
"Just wanted to talk...", he replied slowly.
Sure, Mikey. Sure. Now you wanna talk.
"Look about last week..."
"Whatever, Mikey. I don't care"
I knew that there was something going on between Mikey and Blair. They didn't talk to each other when Mikey was here. Knowing Blair, you can throw her in any group of people and five minutes later, you'll find her making few new friends. I tried asking her but she just shrugged it off. I assume it was because I got back together with Blair.
That night, Blair decided to sleep in my room. She was flipping through the flash cards that I tipped the nerds to get while I played the guitar. I only played slow songs so that it can help her study. I am in love with this girl and I would do anything to keep her around me.
"You're staring again", she said while flicking her flash cards.
I smiled and put down my guitar. I picked up her flash cards and asked few questions that were written on it. Blair answered all of it correctly before carefully putting those flash cards in a file.
"You want to go to bed?", I asked.
She shook her head, " I want to continue where we left off"
Blair took of her t-shirt and sat on my lap. I felt a rush of blood to my head before Blair started kissing my neck slowly. She made her way onto my lips and I felt her fingers running through my hair. It felt like heaven... I was in cloud nine. I started tracing my fingers down her spine and let her take my off my t-shirt. I laid Blair on the bed and kissed her collar bone. Hearing her moan made me go a bit more crazy and my hand finally made its way to her thigh, rubbing it slowly and finally, unbuckling her bra.
This was by far the 'furthest' we've ever went. By now, I wasn't sure with what Blair wants because she didn't signal me to stop.
I stopped whatever I was doing and looked at Blair. Her cheeks were red and her palms were sweaty.
"It's fine, Frank. I love you"
"What?! No...", Frank said as he shook his head.
Not sure why I felt hurt by the way he said no but I just chuckled and let out a relieved sigh.
"I meant, do you see me in your future because I don't want you to wake up one day and come to a realization like 'I can't see myself with Frank anymore'", Frank explained.
I knew his feelings for me were real but I didn't expect it to be this serious. I was relieved after he explained because from here, I know he won't screw things up again. Or even try.
"Besides, can't be marrying you now. I want you to finish your studies first before you fully commit to me because I can be a handful", Frank grinned.
I threw a handful of popcorn before pulling the blanket. Frank was still sheepishly smiling at me but I ignored him. He kept on saying, 'I'll propose you but not now'.
"Will you shut up if we make out?", I asked.
"That's the whole point. Nice to see you're catching up, sugar", he said before leaning in. He slowly pushed me to the end of the couch and our lips met. It didn't take a while before his lips meets my neck. It feels so good. I could feel his smile against my skin and it sends shivers down my spine. I was holding back but he found my sweet spot and I let out a moan. My fingers were tangled with his hair and I pulled his head so that our lips could kiss again.
Things were going hot and heavy when we heard the doorbell.
"Fuck, life hates me", Frank stopped.
I giggled and reorganized the cushions that were scattering on the floor. Frank dragged his feet and opened the door. From the mirror that was reflecting the door, I saw the guys, including Mikey.
"Is this a bad time?", Bob asked, referring to Frank's non-existent t-shirt and his messed up hair.
Frank scratched the back of his head and shrugged.
The four of the followed Frank's to the living room and then I saw a petite girl with auburn hair. She wore a blue polo and white fitted jeans. When she saw me, she quickly grabbed Mikey's hand.
"I HAVEN'T SEEN YOUR PRETTY FACE IN AGES!", Gerard shouted when he saw me arranging the cushions. He quickly jumped on the sofa and sat next to me.
"I missed you too, Gerard", I chuckled.
Everyone said hi to me except for Mikey. He completely ignored me before introducing me to the girl.
"This is Helen, my girlfriend", Mikey stated.
Helen reached out her hand to give me a handshake and I returned the favor. She cocked her eyebrow when she saw my obviously after make out hair.
"Classy", she said.
I was taken back by her words but after looking at what she was wearing, I decided to ignore her. Obviously no one told her about her make up. Frank grabbed his t-shirt and put them on. He was still (sexually) frustrated with just now because he kept on rubbing my palms. He only does that when he's 'inspired'.
"How's the album, guys?", I asked.
"Ray just came up with a sick guitar solo and we were thinking of using it", Bob replied.
"Have you guys ever thought of taking part in Rebecca's foundation?", I asked.
"How?", Gerard joined in.
"As for now, only corporate companies are in the list but I just thought of an idea where we could expand the foundation and let bands join in because kids these days look up to their favorite bands as an inspiration. I think it would be a good idea for you guys to do it too", I simply stated.
The guys agreed to be a part of Rebecca's foundation and Gerard already informed my mother's personal assistant regarding this but Mikey remained silence. I was getting a bit uncomfortable but when I was about to say something to Mikey, Helen just kissed the shit out of her.
"Dude, come on. If I wanted you to watch, I would've continued making out with Blair", Frank bluntly said.
My cheeks went crimson red and then I noticed Gerard giving me two-thumbs up while winking his eyes. I just rolled my eyes and went to the kitchen to get some drinks for them. I was reaching out for the pale blue glasses when I heard footsteps coming into the kitchen. It was Mikey. He just stood at the kitchen counter and observed my moves.
"What do you want?", I bitterly asked as I placed the last glass on the tray.
"Just wanted to talk...", he replied slowly.
Sure, Mikey. Sure. Now you wanna talk.
"Look about last week..."
"Whatever, Mikey. I don't care"
I knew that there was something going on between Mikey and Blair. They didn't talk to each other when Mikey was here. Knowing Blair, you can throw her in any group of people and five minutes later, you'll find her making few new friends. I tried asking her but she just shrugged it off. I assume it was because I got back together with Blair.
That night, Blair decided to sleep in my room. She was flipping through the flash cards that I tipped the nerds to get while I played the guitar. I only played slow songs so that it can help her study. I am in love with this girl and I would do anything to keep her around me.
"You're staring again", she said while flicking her flash cards.
I smiled and put down my guitar. I picked up her flash cards and asked few questions that were written on it. Blair answered all of it correctly before carefully putting those flash cards in a file.
"You want to go to bed?", I asked.
She shook her head, " I want to continue where we left off"
Blair took of her t-shirt and sat on my lap. I felt a rush of blood to my head before Blair started kissing my neck slowly. She made her way onto my lips and I felt her fingers running through my hair. It felt like heaven... I was in cloud nine. I started tracing my fingers down her spine and let her take my off my t-shirt. I laid Blair on the bed and kissed her collar bone. Hearing her moan made me go a bit more crazy and my hand finally made its way to her thigh, rubbing it slowly and finally, unbuckling her bra.
This was by far the 'furthest' we've ever went. By now, I wasn't sure with what Blair wants because she didn't signal me to stop.
I stopped whatever I was doing and looked at Blair. Her cheeks were red and her palms were sweaty.
"It's fine, Frank. I love you"
11/24/13