
In The Mourning
Part Twenty-Three
Ever since I saw Blair's name on Mikey's phone display, I just stopped talking to everyone. Mikey didn't know that I saw Blair's text on his phone. I was dying to know what they were talking about and at the same time, I wish I didn't see her name on his phone. I was curious to know they were seeing each other or just.. nothing. I wanted to pull this little shit out of the restaurant but Blair already crossed me out of her life which means I lost my rights to question Mikey.
When we got back to our tour bus, I saw Luna standing in front of the door. The guys just ignored her and entered the tour bus. Luna was wearing a tight top, obviously trying to show her pregnant belly.
"Hey Frankie", Luna said.
"Hey Luna.. How's the baby?", I finally asked.
"She's growing and healthy. I heard you're done with Manhattan"
"Can you just call her Blair?"
"Fine, Blair. Whatever.. Look Frank. There's no point avoiding me. Sooner or later, you have to face us. You're going to be a daddy, Frankie"
I was so confused at this point. It was either I accept the fact that I am going to be a father or I just go crawl back to Blair and beg her to take me back but after I saw how smitten Mikey was while reading her text messages. I decided to do one of the things that I know I would regret.
"Do you want to grab something to eat?", I asked. Although there was some hesitance in my voice, it didn't stop Luna from saying no.
Not truly sure what was I getting myself into, I just went off with her.
When we were having dinner, Luna kept bringing Blair up. She kept on asking me what happened and how she felt sorry for me. I knew she was lying but I just kept on talking. At certain points, she went on and on talking about her life. My mind was half there. I didn't focus, at all.
"So what are we going to name her?"
That question brought me back to reality. I just looked at her. I was confused with everything. I lost the girl that I love and now I am having a baby with someone I previously dated.
"Luna, can we talk about this later? I need to go back now. Tomorrow I have to start early", I lied.
Luna exhaled and said, "Fine. Tomorrow you have to take me out for lunch"
When I got back, I saw Mikey smoking cigarette outside of our bus. When he saw me, he quickly stashed his cigarette.
"Nice move, Frank.", he hissed.
"What the fuck is your problem, Mikey?", I bitterly asked.
"You went out with Luna?"
"Wait, you are going to lecture me about Luna? What about you, Mikey? I saw your were messaging Blair", I quickly replied.
Mikey was surprised with my reply but he just kept quiet.
"Yeah, Mikey. When you were so busy ignoring me, I didn't know that you were busy talking to her."
Mikey just shook his head and continued with his silence. I was getting anxious. I needed to know about Blair. I wanted to know what was their deal. I kept on clenching my jaw and balling my fist. I just wanted to punch something. Mikey's face would be the perfect thing to punch.
"So tell me, Mikey. How long did it take Blair to start dating you. Always knew she was a slut"
"What the fuck, Frank? You think I would do that to you? We started texting ever since we arrived here. Even though she hates your pathetic gut, she still asks about you. Little did she know that her ex-boyfriend went out with his ex-girlfriend who is pregnant, if I might add. But don't worry about that, I am not going to tell her because she certainly deserves someone better than you. Not sure what did she do in her life to deserve such asshole of a person like you."
Blair asked about me. She asked about me. That means, she still cares about me even after what I did. She still cares.
"I just have a question to ask you, Frank. What is her favorite flower?", he asked.
I just looked at him and said, "Roses"
"You wonder why you don't deserve her forgiveness. You don't even know her favorite flower. It's peony, by the way. Stop sending her the wrong flower"
Mikey was right. I didn't even know what's her favorite flower. The food that she eats. I didn't know Blair the way Mikey did because Mikey is more observant than I am. He sees the little details in people's life and I.. I just assume things.
Maybe Mikey is right.. Maybe I just don't deserve Blair.
When we got back to our tour bus, I saw Luna standing in front of the door. The guys just ignored her and entered the tour bus. Luna was wearing a tight top, obviously trying to show her pregnant belly.
"Hey Frankie", Luna said.
"Hey Luna.. How's the baby?", I finally asked.
"She's growing and healthy. I heard you're done with Manhattan"
"Can you just call her Blair?"
"Fine, Blair. Whatever.. Look Frank. There's no point avoiding me. Sooner or later, you have to face us. You're going to be a daddy, Frankie"
I was so confused at this point. It was either I accept the fact that I am going to be a father or I just go crawl back to Blair and beg her to take me back but after I saw how smitten Mikey was while reading her text messages. I decided to do one of the things that I know I would regret.
"Do you want to grab something to eat?", I asked. Although there was some hesitance in my voice, it didn't stop Luna from saying no.
Not truly sure what was I getting myself into, I just went off with her.
When we were having dinner, Luna kept bringing Blair up. She kept on asking me what happened and how she felt sorry for me. I knew she was lying but I just kept on talking. At certain points, she went on and on talking about her life. My mind was half there. I didn't focus, at all.
"So what are we going to name her?"
That question brought me back to reality. I just looked at her. I was confused with everything. I lost the girl that I love and now I am having a baby with someone I previously dated.
"Luna, can we talk about this later? I need to go back now. Tomorrow I have to start early", I lied.
Luna exhaled and said, "Fine. Tomorrow you have to take me out for lunch"
When I got back, I saw Mikey smoking cigarette outside of our bus. When he saw me, he quickly stashed his cigarette.
"Nice move, Frank.", he hissed.
"What the fuck is your problem, Mikey?", I bitterly asked.
"You went out with Luna?"
"Wait, you are going to lecture me about Luna? What about you, Mikey? I saw your were messaging Blair", I quickly replied.
Mikey was surprised with my reply but he just kept quiet.
"Yeah, Mikey. When you were so busy ignoring me, I didn't know that you were busy talking to her."
Mikey just shook his head and continued with his silence. I was getting anxious. I needed to know about Blair. I wanted to know what was their deal. I kept on clenching my jaw and balling my fist. I just wanted to punch something. Mikey's face would be the perfect thing to punch.
"So tell me, Mikey. How long did it take Blair to start dating you. Always knew she was a slut"
"What the fuck, Frank? You think I would do that to you? We started texting ever since we arrived here. Even though she hates your pathetic gut, she still asks about you. Little did she know that her ex-boyfriend went out with his ex-girlfriend who is pregnant, if I might add. But don't worry about that, I am not going to tell her because she certainly deserves someone better than you. Not sure what did she do in her life to deserve such asshole of a person like you."
Blair asked about me. She asked about me. That means, she still cares about me even after what I did. She still cares.
"I just have a question to ask you, Frank. What is her favorite flower?", he asked.
I just looked at him and said, "Roses"
"You wonder why you don't deserve her forgiveness. You don't even know her favorite flower. It's peony, by the way. Stop sending her the wrong flower"
Mikey was right. I didn't even know what's her favorite flower. The food that she eats. I didn't know Blair the way Mikey did because Mikey is more observant than I am. He sees the little details in people's life and I.. I just assume things.
Maybe Mikey is right.. Maybe I just don't deserve Blair.
11/24/13