Under Pressure

The cars engine rumbled into life and we pulled the seatbelts across our bodies. I sat next to Gee in the back of the car with ray on my other side. Mikey was sat in the passengers seat checking that everyone had got their seatbelts on with our manager sat in the seat beside him as our driver for today. As the car began to move I reached for Gerards hand and entwined our fingers. We sat like that for the first five minutes of the car journey before i tightened my grip on his hand and cursed under my breath. He noticed the second the first letter came out of my mouth and looked at me quickly.

"You ok baby?" He asked me with a hint of worry in his voice.

"I forgot my car sickness tablets." I replied very quickly, already feeling that wave wash over me entirely.

I was feeling sick so early on in the car journey and we hadnt even been travelling for more than ten minutes! This car journey has another twenty minutes to go! I wouldnt last that long...i really didnt want to be sick. Not in front of everyone. No one apart from Gee even knows i get car sick! Im gonna throw up. Shit im gonna be sick...i can feel it...

"can we pull over!" i blurted out.

Everyone looked confused but our manager just let out a small chuckle and told me that i have to wait to use the bathroom until the next service station seeming as we're on the fast lane of a motorway. I looked at Gee desperatley feeling like i could cry.

"I cant hold it. Gee...im gonna throw up!!!" I panicked.

Being the calmer out of us, he reached under mikeys chair and pulled out a carrier bag. He handed it to me and i shoved my head in it and threw up. I hadnt eaten that day, or the day before so my sick was just water, smoothie and stomach acid that burned my throat and made tears prick at the corners of my eyes. Gee gently moved his hand to my head and held my hair out the way of my face as i continued to throw up what seemed to be my entire stomach. He rubbed my back and kissed my neck while talking me in an attempt to calm me and maybe stop me being sick for a while. There was about five minutes of the journey left before i just sat back and cried. There was nothing left in me to give and i was sweating more than usual. Gerard knew to leave me alone when i got like this on a car journey. If someone touched me i would get adgitated and punch them.It was just the embarrasment of knowing they had seen me puke everything in me. I saw Ray turn towards me like was going to ask if i was okay or just hug me but i growled under my breath and saw Gerard shake his head at ray as warning. I thanked him in my head and looked up at him with red eyes. My eyes always went red after i threw up. Gee smiled at me sadly.

"We need to talk about that when we get to the venue." Gee pointed to my bag of 'sick' that was really just stomach acids.

I tried to pretend i didnt know what he was talking about. "talk about what gee?" I looked at him innocently.

"The fact you didnt thow up any food." He whisper shouted at me. Thats the first time ive ever wanted a car journey to last longer...

Notes

~Ghost Wolf