Unknown Identities

Gerard started walking down the street, smiling to himself as Frank stood in the same spot. Did Gerard seriously just ask me out? And did I agree? Holy shit! Don’t fuck this up, Frank!
“Frank?! Are you just going to stand there all day? We’ve got a date to go on, remember?” Gerard called after him as it became clear that Frank wasn’t going to snap himself out of it anytime soon.
“Oh, right…sorry,” the shorter boy replied finally understanding that this was indeed really happening. He ran to catch up with the other boy, matched his pace when he caught up and walked beside him. The pair ambled around for a few minutes in silence before Frank finally spoke up.
“Uhh…Gee?” he asked, looking anywhere but the boy next to him.
“Yes, Frankie,” he replied
“What are we doing?” Gerard had seemed so bent on going out with Frank that he had to have had some idea on what they were going to do…but by the looks of it Gerard had no idea.
“Walking around in the surprisingly warm afternoon,” Gerard answered simply, though he had a sarcastic edge to his voice that told Frank all he needed to know.
“You have no idea, do you?” Frank said it as more of a statement than a question.
“Not a clue,” Gerard stated. Frank laughed and grabbed hold of Gee’s hand, (He had an actual excuse to do so now) and replied:
“For someone so determined to go on a date with me you seem so underprepared,”
“Honestly, I didn’t think I’d get this far…” Gerard admitted.
“What do you mean?” Frank asked curiously. Who wouldn’t want to go on a date with you?
“Well…to tell you the truth…I didn’t even think you would want to be my friend, nobody else does so how could I have expected you to,” this statement seemed familiar. Of course you wouldn’t want to be my friend. Nobody in this stupid school wants to so how could I expect you to? That was written in one of the letters Frank had received earlier this week…he would know since he practically memorized all of them. Could it be? Or is it just a coincidence?
“Gerard you are seriously one of the best friends I’ve ever had,” he paused, “so please, stop putting yourself down and lets enjoy this,”
“Thanks Frank…Hey, we could go check out that bookshop down the road.” Gerard suggested after looking around at the numerous advertisement signs posted around.
“Sure,” Frank agreed, he loved books and he hadn’t gotten anything new to read in forever so might as well.
“Plus, Mikey works there so we could go bug him,” Gerard added in, smiling.
“Then let’s go,”
They turned on to the right street and headed for the small book shop. Upon entering said bookshop they were met by a loud crashing sound.
“I told you to stop dropping boxes!” shouted an older man who was probably the one in charge.
“Sorry, sir, I was just distracted,” replied Mikey calm as ever.
“Pick up all these books and get back to shelving them!”
“Yes, sir,” Mikey replied and watched as his boss walked away, before walking up to the giggling pair of boys that watched the whole ordeal go down. Actually said ordeal never would have happened if not for these two.
“Gerard? Frank?” Mikey hissed, “What are you two doing here?”
“Thought we might as well come and bug you while we were here,” Gerard answered ceasing his giggles only long enough to answer.
“Are you trying to get me fired?”
“No…maybe…now get back to work, we’ll be good for now, I promise,” Frank spoke up, Mikey gave them both a look that said ‘try anything and I swear to fucking unicorns that I will end you’ and then walked back over to the spilled box of books, starting to put them back in neatly.
“While he does that. Let’s look around,” Gerard said, Frank nodded and the two of them strolled through the many shelves of books for at least an hour. Commenting on which books they had read before, the ones they loved, liked or despised with a burning passion. After a while they fell silent, just enjoying the other’s presence. Frank was browsing through the horror section when he realized that Gerard had disappeared from his side. Looking down the aisle he was standing in, he found no sign of him.
“Hey Mikey?” Frank called as the blonde walked by, newly refilled box of books in hand.
“What?” Mikey answered stopping briefly to look at Frank.
“You see where Gerard went?”
“Nope,” he replied and then continued walking through the many bookshelves, stacking books as he went. Looking down a few rows away from where he was originally, he still found no sign of the red head. Where the fuck did you go? He thought turning around…and then found himself face to face with Gerard.
“Ahh!” he shouted, jumping backwards into one of the many table displays. Knocking over many books in the process.
“You should’ve see your face,” Gerard laughed, “didn’t think I would scare you that badly!”
“Where the hell did you go?” Frank questioned
“There’s a café back there,” Gerard gestured with one of his hands, Frank noticed for the first time that he had two coffee cups, “I realized that the entire time we were at my mom’s coffee shop, I didn’t get you anything sooo…” Gerard explained handing Frank one of the steaming Styrofoam cups. “Black okay?” he questioned after taking a sip of his own.
“Yeah, perfect,” Frank replied turning around to look at the damage he had caused by knocking into the table. There were multiple books scattered all over the ground and before Frank even got the chance to pick them up, Mikey came around the corner of a shelf.
“Really?” he said shaking his head at the two of them, “Maybe you guys should find someplace else to destroy,” he added before bending down to pick up the books.
“You know, that’s probably a good idea,” Gerard replied, Frank agreed. They helped Mikey pick all the books back up before leaving the bookshop still slightly giggly from the look Mikey’s boss gave him as he walked by when they were picking up all the books.
After leaving the bookshop they found themselves at a small classy restaurant to get something to eat. The two of them stuck out terribly in the room full of well-dressed adults but neither of them cared. Conversing about anything they could think about and laughing at the looks they got from people sitting around them. Soon after an argument over who was going to pay…which Gerard won, they were seated in the park, in almost the exact same spot they were last night. Sitting on the ground next to each other with their legs tangled in a mess in front of them. They had been here for at least an hour and the sun was starting to disappear. It had been silent for the last few minutes. Would now be a good time to bring back up that one conversation from Friday? Frank wondered, looking at how the fading light looked really flattering on Gerard. Might as well try.
“You never answered me…” Frank started. Leaning on the taller boy’s shoulder.
“What do you mean?” Gerard asked.
“Friday, in the pizza shop…I asked who you would want love letters from if you were in my position,” Frank explained.
“Oh…yeah you’re right,” Gerard said thoughtfully.
“Sooo….”
“It’s…It’s complicated,” Gerard answered quietly. What does that mean? Frank wondered briefly, “Well you never answered the question either…sooo” Gee then added in after a few seconds of silence.
“It’s complicated,” Frank answered mimicking Gerard’s answer.
“I’m sure it is,” Gerard replied before going silent once more. It’s when Frank shivers after a cold burst of wind that he speaks up again.
“Come on, we can go to my place and watch a movie or something,” he said, pulling the shivering boy a little closer to him.
“But I don’t want to get up!” Frank complained as Gerard stood. He laughed at his date (he’d never get tired of saying that,) on the ground
“Then how about I carry you?” he asked. Frank almost immediately declined.
“No way, the last time you did that, it was awkward as hell. I still get strange looks walking down the street,”
“Well then climb on my back so it’s not so weird. And it’s only awkward because you made it awkward!” Gerard laughed back.
“Fine…but can I ask why?” Frank said as Gerard lifted him on his back. I feel like a five year old. Frank thought happily.
“Well, I’ve got to treat my date right now don’t I?” Gerard returned, smiling. He could practically feel Frank coming up with a sarcastic remark.
“Are you calling me the girl in this relationship?” he asked, being as serious as he could be.
“I suppose…” Gerard trailed off, laughing slightly.
“Oh really? Come on, you are ten times more feminine than me,”
“It’s the hair isn’t it?” Gerard questioned but didn’t give Frank a chance to answer, “But who’s the taller one?”
“Wow, you really dug deep for that one,” Frank said seriously, causing Gerard to giggle slightly. “But I’ve seen the way you can move your hips and that can’t be considered manly,”
“Nice to know where your attention was last night,” Frank was glad Gerard couldn’t see his face right now. “I think I’d look hot as a chick anyway…” Frank gave up all seriousness after that and cracked up. It was seriously one of the most ridiculous things Gerard had ever said, and there were some pretty fucked up statements. “Well, if you’re ‘the guy you should be carrying me,” Gerard then added.
“No, no you can carry on,” Frank said, paused a minute and then added, “No pun intended,” Gerard laughed again and they continued the walk to Gerard’s house in silence.
Once on the front porch of the house, Gerard practically dropped Frank in search of his keys after he realized that the door was locked.
“Ow!” Frank said as he hit the cement, “So much for treating your date right,” He added.
“Sorry, Frankie,” Gerard apologized helping him up and kissing his forehead lightly. Then continued his search for the keys.
“Um…” Gerard said patting down his jeans. Frank rolled his eyes at the red head in front of him. Reaching forward and into the pocket of the boy’s jacket Frank found the keys. Holding them in front of Gerard, the other smiled shyly. There’s a small awkward silence after Gerard grabbed the keys from Frank. He didn’t know what made him think of this but he did and he wondered if he should bring this up now. Guess we’re alone now so might as well.
“You remember Friday night…” Frank trailed off
“Yes, I remember, you were intent on me sleeping with you,” Gerard replied not really sure where Frank was going with this.
“Yeah well…uhh…before I fell asleep….I heard what you uhh said,” Frank finished looking down at the ground hoping Gerard knew what he meant so he didn’t have to say it out loud. He already felt awkward enough right now.
“Oh…Umm,” Gerard’s face instantly turned a shade of red, he wasn’t supposed to have heard that. Gerard thought knowing exactly what Frank was talking about, “Yeah…sorry, I didn’t mean….sorry,” Gerard continued babbling on about how he was half-asleep and really didn’t know what he was saying. That he didn’t mean it…Frank didn’t want to hear that. That was the last thing he wanted was for Gerard to have never meant that he loved him.
So to shut the still mumbling boy up, he grabbed onto Gerard’s jacket and pulled the taller of the two down so that they were looking directly in the other’s eyes. Then, as a spur of the moment decision, Frank leaned in and kissed him.
Gerard’s not sure if this was really happening or if he’s having some sort of hallucination from lack of caffeine. He has had only two cups of coffee so it is a possibility…but he doubted that that’s what was going on. He stood in shock for a few moments, really not sure of what to do.
Frank was starting to get worried. Gerard hadn’t moved at all since their lips met, maybe he really didn’t mean it. Frank thought briefly. Just as he was about to pull away was when Gerard’s senses finally came back to him and he wrapped his arms around Frank’s waist pulling him closer to him. Letting go of Gerard’s jacket to snake his arms around Gerard’s neck, Frank was in pure bliss. The kiss wasn’t something passion filled but sweet, conveying all the emotions the two of them felt towards the other. Gerard’s still not entirely sure that it’s happening but doesn’t really care at the moment. It’s just the two of them and that’s all that matters. So when they finally pull away from the other, he asked the question he wanted to since the beginning.
“Why?” is his smart, well thought out question. Smooth right?
“Please don’t ever say you didn’t mean it, because…I love you, too,” Frank admitted and this time its Gerard that initiates the kiss. Pulling away again Gerard said:
“You have no idea how long I’ve wanted to do that,” Frank giggled slightly.
“We should get inside,” Frank suggested and Gerard agreed.
Thirty minutes later, they sat on one of the couches in Gerard’s room, a movie playing on the TV….though neither Frank nor Gerard is paying any attention to it. They started off pretty well, paying attention to the movie…and then slowly ending up with Gerard straddling Frank and kissing a lot less sweetly than before. Lips and tongues moving in sync like it had been practiced. Pulling apart for only seconds to breathe.
So by the time, they realize someone has come down into the basement…it’s a little too late.
“Whoa! I did not need that image!” Mikey shouted at the two of them, instantly causing Gerard to jump away from Frank.
“Mikey what are you doing down here?” Gerard questioned
“Uhh, I could ask you the same question,” Mikey replied eyebrow raised at the two of them, “…or more like what you were going to do,” he added in smirking.
“Okay! I think you need to leave,” Both Gerard and Frank said, though different timing it was still hilarious to watch.
“No, I think you guys need a chaperone,” Mikey replied resisting.
“Fine,” Gerard said, pulling Frank towards him and kissing him full on the lips again.
“I’m scarred for life!” Mikey shouted running up the stairs. Well that was retardedly easy, Gerard thought pulling away. “I’m going to Ray’s house!” Both Frank and Gerard laugh for a good five minutes before Frank saw the time.
“I think I should probably get home before my mom freaks,” he said, Gerard whined for a second before shutting up, seeing the look Frank gave him.
“Okay,” He agreed though reluctant to let what he just got go. Like if Frank left it would turn out to be all just a dream. But he follows Frank to the door none the less. Until, Frank stopped him that is.
“Just one question though,” he said seriously.
“Only one?” Gerard replied, sarcastically.
“Yeah,” Frank paused a second picking his words carefully, “What does this make us?”
“Well I suppose in a normal relationship one would consider you my boyfriend now but whatever you want to do is fine,” Gerard said.
“Well…I’m going to take that as if you just asked me to be your boyfriend and then I’m going to say…” Frank paused, smiling at how Gerard looked at him hopefully, “Of course, you idiot,” And then he kissed him again.
“Yay, happy couple, now stop making out when I’m right here,” Mikey shouted from the couch in the living room.
“Thought you were going to Ray’s” Gerard shouted back.
“I’m too lazy,” Mikey replied and Gerard rolled his eyes before running and tackling his younger but taller brother. “What the?” Mikey got out. Frank laughed at the two brothers before making his exit out the front door.
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“Where have you been?!” Frank’s mother exclaimed worriedly the second he entered the door. It was around nine o’clock at night so she did have a reason for being worried…after all Frank was her only son.
“Umm…” Frank contemplated his answer for a second before saying, “On a date,” he said it slowly and unsure of the reaction he would get from his mother. Her eyes went wide for a moment before she smiled gigantically.
“Oooo, finally I get to talk boys, again!”
“Mom!” Frank exclaimed at his mother. She couldn’t help it…she had always hoped to have a daughter along with her son but…that wasn’t going to happen anymore. So at least she got to live one aspect of having a daughter.
“Sorry, but please tell me all about it,” she said completely forgetting that it was in fact late at night and Frank probably should be in trouble for that. He wasn’t complaining however, and retold of the day he had, he left out a name…just to see the kind of reaction he would get from telling her exactly who it was he was out with. He also left out specific details…like what exactly happened once the two of them reached the other’s house. His mom really didn’t need to know that.
Ending with, “Oh, and I have…have a boyfriend now,” he said that the same way he started the conversation…slow and unsure.
“That’s wonderful!” his mother exclaimed smiling brightly
“Yeah, he asked me before I left,” he said, blushing slightly. His mother’s expression changed to a serious one as she said.
“I’m just a little disappointed,” she started, “Did it not work out with Gerard? Or did something happen between the two of you?”
“Uhhh…mom?” he started smiling, “he is Gerard,”
“Oh my God!” she exclaimed happily, could you be any louder? Frank wondered momentarily before realizing he said it outloud. “I could…but I think you need to go to bed…you’ve got school in the morning,”
“Oh right, and exams,” Frank groaned, good thing I did all that work on Friday…otherwise I don’t think I would’ve remembered it this whole weekend.
“You get all you’re work done?” she questioned as Frank started up the stairs towards his bedroom.
“Yep,” he answered reaching the top.
“You going to pass?”
“Nope,” He replied jokingly, his mother laughed,
“Good night,” she said finally and Frank closed the door. He ran towards his bed and jumped up on it after making sure the door was closed all the way. He could’ve probably died happy right here…but that would mean not seeing Gerard tomorrow. He shifted around to a sitting position on the edge of his bed, hearing a slight ruffle of papers.
Confused, he searched around for the source. Finding it under his pillow, he remembered leaving the letters there this morning. Leafing through them, he’s overwhelmed by a sense of guilt. Here is this guy…maybe girl pouring their heart out in these letters to him and he goes and falls for someone else. Though he far from regretted falling for Gee…in fact it’s probably the best thing that’s ever happened to him. But he still felt kind of bad. He found the drawing of the four of them, thinking slightly how this needed to be updated with Gerard in it as well. He also noticed that Ray’s elbow was cut off at the edge of the paper but thought nothing of this. I need to find this guy. He thought, now more than ever. I need to make things right, explain myself and straightened this out.

Notes

Sooo, finally right? Anyway I want to apologize for the delay...again. My insomnia finally caught up to me and I crashed for hours at a time and when I was awake...I really couldn't function all that great and I didn't want to write this chapter half asleep. You all deserve better than that. But I think I'm okay now...so here you are! I made this chapter a little bit longer than I intended to as well. Like by two thousand words so...you're welcome. Also...I regret to inform you that the story is almost at it's end. Two chapters left. (I literally finished the outlined yesterday). But have no fear, I already have an idea for another story sooo, I'll still be writing if you're still willing to read.
As always...Thanks for reading!