Cemetery Drive- A Frerard Fic

Frerard- Cemetery Drive

A/N Hey guys so I wrote this one during a PD lesson so it may be kinda shit, and it is rather sad. Sorry :(

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Frank’s POV:
I was going to see Gerard today; I was finally going to tell him how I felt about him. It feels like I haven’t seen him in forever, I really miss talking to him. Even when he doesn’t respond just being around him gives me a sense of comfort.It’s a nice day today, the sun is shining and the birds are singing and all the cutesy shit. I may as well walk to go and see him, it might clear my head.
I leave my house and head out the door, my head down and my hands buried in my pocket as I placed my headphones in my ear and let the comforting sound of Green Day’s ‘Boulevard of Broken Dreams’ to distract me while I walked. About 20 minutes later I reach my destination, the large wrought iron gates creak ominously as I push them open. I slowly trudge along the path before I veer off onto the grass and I’m standing before him. The cold marble headstone stares back unblinkingly. The words ‘Gerard Arthur Way 1977-2014. May he lead the black the parade for he shall be sorely missed’ were carved into the smooth rock.
I traced the intricate letters as a harsh sob crawled up my throat and I fell to my knees, my vision blurring with tears. I couldn’t hold my body up as my mind flashed back to that nightmarish day

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I smiled as I knocked on Gerard’s door, he has invited me around for a batman marathon and popcorn to try and cheer him up after his break up with Lynz. The door swung open under my knock and I entered the house whilst calling out his name. I looked into the living room and Batman was playing the title screen on the T.V and various pillows were scattered across the sofa but gerard was nowhere to be found. I wandered the house, calling out Gee’s name until I reached his bedroom; there was no reply from anywhere.I pushed open his bedroom door and almost blacked out from the sight in front of me. Gee was hanging from ceiling fan, a overturned chair lying by his dangling feet. He was unmoving and completely pale, his brown hair falling over his face. Through my shock a noticed a piece of paper lying on his bedside table and staggered forwards on unsteady legs, my mind refusing to believe what was in front of me. My name was written on the piece of paper and I unfolded it slowly with shaking hands, trying not to tear it. There was a note written in Gee’s familiar spidery hand writing and I could feel tears trickling down my cheeks as I read it.
Dear Frankie,
I'm sorry you had to find me like this; I just couldn’t carry on anymore. I couldn’t deal with the fact you do not and never will return my feelings. I love you frank, I love you with all my heart and have done for years. You were the reason I got up in the morning and why I fell asleep with a smile on my face every night. I was terrified that you would hate me if you ever found out how I felt, that you would refuse to be friends with me. I couldn’t deal with that Frankster. But now I don’t have to worry about your reaction, it may be selfish but honestly at this point I don’t care. As they say dying may hurt but once your dead you can’t feel anything at all, I hope I can still love you though Frankie, even after death and I hope with all my heart that you can forgive me. I left batman on for you so feel free to sit down and watch it. I will see you sometime Frankie.
Forever yours,
Gerard

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I came back to reality and I was lying on the grass on his grave, clutching it between my fingers like it would bring him back to me. Sobs wracked my body as I screamed all my pain at the sky that was steadily crying with me.
“I love you”
I sobbed to the cold earth
“I’m sorry Geebear. I’m so, so sorry”
I heard footsteps approaching me and I was pulled into a warm chest as arms wrapped around me.
“NO!” “STOP” “GEE!” “GEE COME BACK TO ME PLEASE, PLEASE I’M BEGGING DON’T LEAVE ME”
The arms wrapped around my torso tightened as someone whispered comforting words into my ear. I looked up to see Mikey’s pale and tear stained face hovering above me, his hot, salty tears dribbling down his cheeks and falling into my hair. However all I could do was stare at my loves grave and sob as I realized he was never coming back for me.

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A/N sorry if it was crap and for the extreme sadness, I’ve got an alternate ending that I will post soon. Any feedback is welcomed, thanks :)

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