The amount of pills I'm taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking

Gerard-
It's late i know but i'm so fucking angry it's like my feet are moving towards the door before my brain has even thought about it. i hear frankie's voice behind me "no Gerard" i know what i'm about to do could ruin our relationship but i cant let him get away with this.
"frankie you don't have to come" i say without even looking at him as i reach for the door handle. i hear him behind me rushing to put his top back on before walking towards me, i open the door and head for the car.
my mind is racing with all sorts of different thoughts, frankie's hurt and its all my fault. yes he was broken before we met and probably had problems but I've only added to them. Frankie didn't even think he was gay until i was involved in his life. i get in the car and only give Frankie a few seconds to follow before setting off. i'm driving fast. way to fast. frankie's clutching to the seat belt. i feel so bad.
i let go of the wheel and rub my eyes with my hands.
"Gerard, watch it" i hear Frankie say nervously, and i slow down a little
"Frankie i'm so sorry"
he's clearly confused as he looks into my eyes "for what?" he asks i think he's a little scared for what i'm about too say
"this is all my fault, if you had never had met me" he cuts me off
"what the hell, what's your fault, my dad being a dickhead, no trust me he's always been like that"
"but he hit you because your with me" i say looking in-between him and the road
"and." Frankie reaches an arm over and rests it on my thigh "if you was never involved he still would have found a reason to hate me" his eyes try to convince me but i know he's lying
my rage starts to re build as we come closer to his house and my mind keeps flashing back to the image of the bruised damaged skin.
"Gerard, you don't have to do this" i don't answer him because i know he will try to stop me but i need Frankie to know that no one can treat him badly and get away with it. i park the car up outside the huge house and turn to face him "wait here" he opens his mouth as if to say something "stay!" i demand as i exit the car. A sickening smile grows across my lips as i can taste the revenge. i march up the house quickly and knock on the front door loudly.
i hear the heavy footsteps from inside taking a long time to reach the door, they sound as if they're stumbling, the monster's probably drunk.
Frankie's dad opens the front door, his eyes squinted as if to see who i am but i don't give him chance my anger takes control and my fist reaches out with speed and punches him straight in the middle of his eyes. his body falls to the floor with a loud bang and as i stand over his body watching his eyes squint open and shut "don't you even hurt Frankie again " i shout down to him before spitting on his face. i now that's probably too far but i'm mad.
i start to walk off down the garden before hear loud footsteps coming up from behind, i turn around to see frankie's dad coming at me at high speed i have no time to protect myself before he punches me with a right swing into the cheek. i fall to the floor but quickly gather my thoughts and look up at the crazed monster, he looks down at me in disgust but with a wicked smile on his lips almost murderous
"you cant protect him fag" he snorts out to me before violently kicking me in the stomach. luckily he only kicks me once before walking back inside however i am still winded and gasping for air. i'm completely shocked by his words, i thought he was a Christian man. bull shit.
i don't think i'm getting enough air because i start losing conciousness. i keep fading from reality into blackness. i lay there wondering if i can actually protect Frankie, well i clearly cant against his dad. that's just been proven. and when he said i cant protect Frankie did he mean he was going to hurt him again?
i hear a sobbing at the side of me and i roll my body over to see Frankie's cute little figure knelt over me. he's crying viciously but tries to stop his tear once he see me looking at him. he wipes his eyes and as i'm still gasping for air i whisper "do cry baby"
"Gerard shall we go to the hospital" his voice is muffled by his crying
"no just lay with me" i whisper before instantly feeling him lay down next to me without even questioning my craziness.

The rest of the night seems to be a blur, all i remember is walking home with Frankie and going to bed. my heads still a little messed up from the night before. i open my eyes and roll over ignoring the time and surprisingly frankie's laid next to me with his back facing me. i'm a bit shocked really (1) i don't remember him getting into bed with me and (2) he normally runs off in the morning. i reach my arm over and cuddle his waist
"morning" i hear his voice all muffled and sleepy. i lean my face into the crack of his neck "well hello" i whisper reaching my hand up for a second to move his hair so i can kiss his cheek.
"it's not like you to still be hear in the morning" i whisper cuddling him tightly against me.
"i needed to make sure you didn't die, so i stayed with you"
i giggle slightly "i'm sorry about last night" i whisper before kissing his cheek again
"it's done now" he says in a serious tone
i continue to kiss his cheek, his jaw line and down on to his neck. "aww baby don't be mad at me" i whisper against his skin before kissing it again.
"Gerard don't" he says a little louder now rolling over to face me. i look at him smiling. finally that morning bed head, i reach my hand up and run my hand through his hair. "why?" i ask and he just looks at me bluntly. i lower my body inside the covers and move my hands down to hold his hips. he's only wearing boxers and his t shirt. i lean myself towards him and push my head into his neck forcing his head to tilt back wards "you look sexy though" i whisper in his ear as i start to kiss his neck hungrily.
i feel his hands run down my back and that when i realise i'm only wearing boxers. Frankie must have undressed me because i really don't remember. i bet he enjoyed it.
"Gerard" i know he wants to tell me to stop but his voice is not convincing
"yes Frankie" i whisper moving my kisses down his shoulder arm and collar bone.
"don't" he whispers his voice become quieter compared to earlier. i use my teeth to bite gently at the skin on his collar bone and i soon feel his growing bulge against my leg which is pressed against him.
"do you want me to stop" i whisper teasingly running my hand down his stomach stopping at the elastic band on his boxers.
i hear him exhale loudly
i roll him onto his back and position myself in between him legs instantly going back to his neck with my kisses. i hear him moan slightly and i look up to see his eyes tightly closed. i know he wants me.
i reach my hand down to his boxers and tease him over the fabric, stroking the growing erection while continuing to, kiss, lick and suck at his neck.
he moans out again bucking his hips upwards slightly. i move my kisses up to his ear lobe before whispering "shall i stop now baby? you want me to stop right" with a slight giggle. i look down at him for a second to see him shaking his head
"no" i say confirming that in fact he doesn't want me to stop. he shakes his head again and i push my hand down onto his erection grabbing his dick through the material and starting to pump it. "that's what i thought" i whisper down at him before pressing my lips against his.
i stop teasing him for a moment to grab his shirt and start pulling it off, he arches his back off the bed making it easier for me to slide it off him. once its off i look down at his damaged body but i don't stop unlike yesterday i kiss his lips once more before making my way down his body. kneeling my lower body closer to his i softly start to grind my crotch against his erection. he moans out at that so i continue,both of our erections gliding past each others teasingly.
i decide to carry on, lowering my body and kisses. i press my lips occasionally on his skin down the centre of his chest then stomach. his breathing increases as i lower under the covers. my lips reach his boxers and i pick up the waist band with my teeth teasingly. Frankie grabs the covers and throws them back away from us looking down at me with a wanting look on his face. the boxers still clenched between my teeth i start to drag them downwards, he props himself up on his elbows but dangles his head backwards in pleasure. i can probably guess that my warm breath against his skin is only making thing more intense. he lets his body fall back down on the bed before reaching his hand down and running it through my hair. i smile at his innocence as i grab the boxers and pull them off his legs throwing them to the floor. i look down at his body grateful that he's all mine, he's closed his eyes again and bent his legs up the bed to widen them. i bite my bottom lip at the sight before leaning downwards and kissing the inside of his thigh. his lips instantly let a moan slip away, i lick and bite the skin on his inner thigh trying to drive him crazy, every so often he bucks upwards into the air and its turning me so much.
without warning i take his dick and wrap my mouth around it. he lets out a sigh of relief almost as i quickly take as much as him as possible. i don't start slow i just instantly start sucking as quickly as i can wanting him to cum in my mouth. i reach my hand down to play with his balls as i continue to pump him with my mouth, he bucks up a few times but i don't try to stop him. i know he feels guilty about forcing himself upward but i want his as deep as he can go. and he does, he starts thrusting upwards more often and soon i just stay in one place and let him thrust into my mouth. my hand on his stomach feels him starting to tense up, i push my mouth down to the base of his dick and i can feel him hitting the back of my throat with his cum. warm and sticky but i just swallow it quickly, looking up to see his chest pumping viciously. i crawl back up his body "i love you" i whisper my voice sound more sinister then i had planned into his ear, his face is blushes red and sweaty. i kiss his cheek while running my hand under his back and down to his butt wanting to just turn him over and fuck him. but then right then. as soon as i am about to get what i want. my phone starts going off
"ignore it" i hear frankie's voice
i reach over to the bed side and grab the phone. the call ID informs me it's mikey.
shit he's getting discharged today, i answer it
"are you coming to pick me up or not?" he say instantly
i probably sound a little out of breath "umm yeah i'll be there soon" i look down at Frankie before rolling over to the side of him
"ok see you soon" mikey says before hanging up.
i look over at Frankie and smile "let's go pick my brother up you loser"

Notes

forever being interuppted
sorry about any spelling mistakes as always
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