The amount of pills I'm taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking

Gerard-
my eyes open slowly and i immediately see the alarm clock on my bed side table, it's 7:30. my eyes try to shut close again as i'm still tried but i roll over to cuddle up with Frankie. Unfortunately my arm is greeted with the flat surface of the bed. He's gone. did he leave? it's early to leave i think to myself as i drag my legs over the edge of the bed. he always leaves early, i never get to see his morning smile or messy hair. i brush my hand through my bed head moving out of my eyes before i walk over to my desk. theses a small note wrote on the inside page of my sketch pad
" Going home, ring me when your ready
P.S you look cute when your sleeping x Frankie"


i smile at the love heart he's drawn at the side of the note before pulling off my pj's ready to get in the shower. it's slightly creepy that he thinks im cute when i sleep but il' let him off because i love him. once showered i pull on some horrible grey sweat pant because all my jeans need washing, along with a black shirt, some socks and my converse. i roughly dry my hair with the towel before dragging my hand through it instead of brushing it. i head for the kitchen and grab some cereal, pouring milk over them and sitting at the table to eat.
i look at my watch its 8:14 nice timing, i pick up my phone and ring the hospital to ask doctor Green when Mikey can come home.He informs me that they will discharge mikey tomorrow and i tell him that i'll come visit later before hanging up.
I ring Frankie now realising he said to ring him when i was ready and im ready now so i do.
"hey" he answers he sounds weak and upset.
"hello" i say back "you left early, is everything ok"
"ummm not really" i wasn't quite expecting that reply
"oh why what's wrong Frankie?" i let my spoon fall into the bowel where the cereal devourer it into the milk.
"they kicked me out" he whispers
"where are you?" i ask hearing people in the background
"if you'd turned up for work on time you would know, ray's pretty pissed at you" fuck. i forgot i was working today
"ok, i'm coming now" i pick up my car keys and head for the door.
it's a good thing me and ray are friends or he would of fired me a long time ago.
i get there in about twenty minute, park up and head inside. i shoot Frankie a smile as i see him sat alone in the corner booth with a cup of coffee. umm i love coffee. he smiles back but i need to talk to ray first, i walk through into the kitchen to find ray
"im sorry im late" i say before he can even open his mouth.
"Gerard you little shit, i've had to do your shift so far" i smile at his clearly pissed face
"keep washing pots for two more seconds" i say before running out the kitchen so he has no time to object.
i run over to Frankie and sit opposite him "hey you" i whisper as he looks up his eyes instantly locking in with mine
"hey" he says back a smile starting to curl his lips.
"you could have come back to my place, not here" i say smiling at him "do you want to go wait for me there" i ask looking around the crapping little cafe.
"it's fine i'll wait here" he says taking a sip of the strong smelling coffee.
"i'm sorry about last night" he whispers while pulling the cup away from his lips
"don't be" i say my smile growing wider "you have nothing to be sorry for" i say reaching my hand out and pulling him towards me as i kiss the top of his head
"i should probably get to work before ray kill's me" i say giving Frankie a wink before getting up and walking back into the kitchen.

"who's the kid" ray asks as i tie my apeorine around my neck.
i look over at Frankie before looking back at ray and smiling widely at him "that's frank" i tell him
"Gerard, what are you doing with a boy like that?" i'm shocked by ray''s words
"what?" i ask looking at him confused
"Gerard look at him" i look back over at Frankie not understanding what ray's talking about "Gerard, he's completely broken, i can tell that just from looking at him"
i look at ray even more shocked "ray..." i stutter not knowing how to answer "Gerard you shouldn't get involved with people like that, they hurt them self which hurts you, you don't need that"
"i love him" i whisper
"but Gerard does he love you, look at him does he even look like he can love anything"
i look at Frankie once again to see him staring down into the coffee mug a frown on his lips and dark circles around his eyes.
"he's got it tough" i say looking back towards ray
"and. Gerard you have it tough, do you think your going to fix him? i heard about mikey. shouldn't you be concentrating on your brother" i cant believe the words are coming out of a "friends" mouth
"don't be a dick ray, im trying" i whisper insulted by the whole conversation
"i'm only telling you what you cant see Gerard, i don't want you to be the one to get hurt in the end"
"i wont be"
"your already half way there by loving this boy, you cant have them both Gerard, you cant fix them both"
ray walks off and i'm stood at the sink completely shocked and confused by rays words. what the hell where did all that come from.

i don't speak to anyone for the rest of my shift i only take a few glances over to Frankie to make sure he's ok, ray's words keep circling around in my head but i continue to shake them away realising that he's probably just jealous that i've got Frankie.
once my shift is over i walk over to Frankie dragging him up out his seat by his arm and leading his out of the doors, he can clearly tell im annoyed
"what's wrong?" he ask
"nothing," i answer "i just hate work" i lie
we get into the car and i quickly set off wanting to get home as soon as possible. i can feel Frankie's eyes on me the whole car ride home. i park up and get out the car waiting for Frankie to copy me before locking the car and heading for the apartment door. i open it and let Frankie follow me inside as i throw myself on to the sofa. i watch as Frankie follows me shutting the front door behind us and sitting close to me on the sofa.
"what i'm i going to do?" he ask and i take a pause to think about what he's talking about and then i remember he's been kicked out
"live with me" i say sitting up and turning my body sidewards to face him
"i cant" he whispers looking down at the floor
"why not" i say excited at the thought of us living together "we'd be great together, i'l look after you, plus i don't think you have many other choices" i say giggling slightly
he looks back up at me smiling
"are you sure?" he asks
"of course i'm sure Frankie, i love you" his smile grows quickly
i lean towards him tilting my head sidewards a little and puckering my lips before letting them press against his, i feel his mouth smile as he kisses me. i pull away for a second to look deeply into his gorgeous hazel eyes.
i'm about to lean in to kiss him again when i hear his voice "i love you too" before feeling his lips kiss mine passionately. he brings his hand up to my cheek to hold me in place and i can instantly feel the tension with in the kiss.
i shuffle my body closer to his before putting my hands on his hip. i push my tongue into his mouth letting our tongues roll over each others. letting my hands lower, pushing them under him and in-between his butt and the sofa. i gain my strength and pick him up and move him round so he's straddling my lap. i continue to kiss him in this new position whilst running my hands up and down his back. his kisses are rough and demanding as he pushes my head backwards a little each time he kisses me. i smile before wrapping my fingers around the bottom of his shirt and pulling it off him with the help of him lifting his arms in the air. braking the kiss to get the top of i take the time as an advantage to take in the sigh of this perfect figure but my eyes are shocked to see a new sight.
my mouth drops open and my eyes instantly start to fill with tears. frank brings his arms up to cover his chest, stomach and arms.
i take a loud gulp as my eyes roll over the disgustingly large red and purple bruises which are covering his body. one mark on the top of his arm is shaped perfect as a hand mark. my stomach turns and a gip a little at the thought of a person who would do this.
my eyes look back up toward Frankie's and i see his ashamed and embarrassed eyes look away from me
"Frankie" i whisper my voice jolts and i cant help but to let one of my tears go, letting it slowly slide down my cheek
there are no words to describe how shocked and angry i am, i reach my arms out and hug him close to me, crying against his skin.
"i. will. fucking. kill. him" i say holding onto Frankie tightly

Notes

poor Frankie
sorry about any spelling mistakes as always
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