The amount of pills I'm taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking

Gerard-
mikey's still in the hospital and Frankie's seems to be ignoring me. i'm alone.
i'm so lonely i've even been to see mikey every visiting time possible, i think he's sick of seeing me to be honest. The doctor said they need to keep him in to keep an eye on his arm which seems appropriate. it's nine pm now and it's to late to go visit him and the nurse said i couldn't stay over night with him because he's being moved onto a ward again.
i've texted Frank like 12 times but he's clearly ignoring me. i don't know what i've doe wrong but i must have upset him. i decide to text him again:
"Frankie have i done something to upset you?"
i know he probably wont answer but after 10 minutes of waiting i just want answers. i message him again:
"if you don't answer i'm going to assume your in trouble and I'll have to come round to safe you"
this time he instantly messages me back, he was clearly waiting for me to continue to text him:
"no Gerard, i'm fine. leave me alone"
well someone's moody.
"you don't seem fine Frankie, want me to come over?"
"no Gerard"
"why not, you can come round here if you like moody bum, come on i'm lonely and i miss you"
"i'm sorry Gerard but no, please leave me alone"
i start to type my next message "but i lov" i delete it before i even finish.
He clearly doesn't want me around right now. who even tells their boyfriends to leave them alone i'm here to do the exact opposite.
i think something might be wrong with Frankie.
that's it i'm going over there.
i probably look a mess as i'm wearing a old maroon polo shirt and some washed out, fading black skinny jeans. i slip on my converse and leather jacket before heading out to my car. i drive up to frank's house and park up on the other side of the road
i start ringing him, he picks up quickly greeting me with:
"what?"
"oh well hello moody" i say back to him a little giggle as i do. Frankie does sound amused.
"look out your window" i tell him as i stair up at his bed room window. i hear his voice
"fuck sake" well that's lovely Frankie makes me feel loved. i see a dark figure pulling the curtains back and looking through the window that's when Frankie hangs up.
After a few minute i see Frankie's figure making it's way out of the house and towards the car, he's wearing black skinny jeans as always with a back polo top and a denim shirt being used as a jacket.
he walks around the car and quickly gets into the passenger seat. his eyes look terrified as he looks up to meet my eyes, he's beautiful and i'm starting to realising how much i have fallen for him, i'm completely in love with this boy.
"Gerard you cant be..."
he is interrupted by my lips pressing against his. i reach my hand out and run it through his hair pulling him closer to me as he tilts his head a little. i feel him relaxing into it as we get lost in the passion. i feel his lips part timidly and i push my tongue into his mouth to kiss him deeper. a moan falls from his mouth but its more of a sigh of relief then a moan. i feel his hand lovingly running through my hair as we continue to kiss.
i brake away from Frankie's wanting lips and stair into his eyes:
"i cant what?" i ask
"Gerard my father will kill you" Frankie whispers as his eyes start to droop as if to start crying.
i cup his chin with my hand and stop his face from looking downwards
"what do you mean Frankie?" i ask. his soft hazel eyes start to fill with tears
"he knows Gerard, he knows about us", he said your going to hell" i smile at the word hell but then turn back to being serious "he's forbidden me from seeing you, he will hurt you"
my hand still holding his chin pushes his head backwards slightly and my eyes widen at the sight of purple finger marks covering Frankie's throat:
"did he do this?" i ask my heart starting to pound with anger
Frankie's head nods softly "i'll fucking kill him" i whisper. as i reach for the door handle my mind making a plan to march up to the house and kick the shit out of the man who has the cheek to lay a finger on my Frankie.
i feel a hand grab my upper arm "don't"
"he cant hurt you like this and get away with it Frankie"
a tear begins to roll down his cheek " i know but i don't want him to hurt you"
my eyes widen as i swear i can hear my own heart braking to watch Frankie cry
"Frankie" my voice stutters as if broken
"please Gerard" his tears start pouring now and his eyes start to redden.
"your coming with me" i whisper starting to car
"Gerard i cant" i start driving away from the house
"i wont leave you with him Frankie" i say as my heart hurts and my brain turns to mush. i drive back to my apartment and once we pull up i look over at his red puffy eyes, he looks away from me i assume embarrassed. i reach my hand over to him and wipe away the last tear which is wetting his cheek. i lean over and hug his figure " i'll look after you" i whisper to him before looking up to see a small smile growing on his face.
we both get out the car and walk inside, i lock the door behind us before turning around to see my little Frankie all broken and damaged. like my heart. i want to kiss him better but instead i just whisper "the world is ugly"
he looks up at me and i reach out my hand to brush away the hair which is hiding his face "but your beautiful to me"
his lips curl into a little smile and i take his hand in mine while walking him towards the bedroom. i grab the bottom of his shirt and pull it upwards, forcing his arms into the air as i pull his shirt over and off his head. i walk over to my drawers and grab some pj's i throw them over to him "it's late" i whisper before starting to undress myself to put on my own pj's. he watches me before undressing himself.
i climb into the bed and under the covers, i lift the covers up next to me inviting him to join me. he climbs in and slides his back against my stomach, i run my hand through his hair gently as i smile at the way his body fits perfectly into mine.
i reach a hand over his body and point to the wall which he is facing
" i hope you don't mind" i whisper pointing to a shaded drawing of Frankie which i had done earlier.
he looks backwards at me and smiles "that's really good" he whispers. i smile back down at him before letting my hand slide down his body until it meets his, i let my fingers lock in with his and then i bring them up to his chest where i cuddles him into me tighter.
"your safe now" i whisper into his ear
"i know" he replies before falling asleep in my arms.

Notes

aww cute frerard
sorry about any spellig mistakes as always
rate this so far pleasseeee