Everything I loved, went up in flames
I'm gonna break your little heart
22nd March 2013
A single tear turned into a waterfall, followed by painful sounding sobs.
That was the day that My Chemical Romance split up.
I couldn’t take it anymore, I stood up and ripped the posters I had of them off my walls and threw them onto the floor. I tore the last one off my ceiling and dropped to my bed, sobbing my heart out. They weren’t producing any music anymore as a band; the band that saved my life.
I pulled out my box that contained everything I used before I met Gerard; my blade, my drug stash and alcohol. I met Gerard Way at a concert of theirs three years ago, right when Danger Days came out in stores. I was right on the front row with my cut and burnt arms in the air. He grabbed my arms and stopped the song he was singing – Sing – and he pulled me on stage.
“You see these arms here? This is NOT what I expect to see on our fans. I had the courage to stop taking drugs and getting drunk as fuck on alcohol so you should ALL do the same. Understand?” Gerard shouted, holding my left arm up in the air.
“Yeah!” The crowd shouted.
“I said; UNDERSTAND?” He yelled into the microphone.
“YEAH!” They yelled back.
“Thank you. You are ALL beautiful so if anyone calls you ugly, fat or any other nasty words; throw them to the ground and spit in their face because you don’t deserve this!” He wrapped his arm around my waist. “This song is for you…”
“Billie,” I said into the microphone.
“This song is for you Billie. THIS! Is I’m not okay,” the drum and guitars kicked in and Frank started darting around the stage like a crazy man. The stage crew ran on and handed me a microphone and Gerard whispered in my ear when to come in.
‘I’m not okay! I’m not okay! I’m not okay; you wear me out!’ We sang together, Frank and Ray harmonising with us.
Gerard nudged me and I carried on singing, receiving loud cheers from the crowd; by this time, I was crying because I could really relate to this song and it made me realise that Gerard really does care about us.
Do I move on? Do I mourn? What the fuck am I supposed to do?
Then it dawned on me…
Notes
Hey!
New fic!
I'm quite happy with how this is going already and it's only the first chapter!
This fic won't be long but there will be a sequel for your enjoyment
~Chemical-Tears~
