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Remembering All That Pain

You're in ruins

After getting the signed picture from Gerard, I drove home. When I got home, I sat down on my couch and let my mind wander.
He remembered me. He looked at me and recognized me. He gave me his number and he wants me to call him.
It was a much better reaction than what I could have possibly hoped for. He wanted to keep in contact with me, which means he didn't want to lose me.
I pulled out my phone and dialed the number. A few rings later, he answered.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Gerard. It's me, Frank."
"Frankie." I could hear the smile in his voice.
"Hi, Gee."
"So, you woke up."
"Yeah.. I did. I also kind of had this crazy dream while I was out. I woke up and thought that my dream was real."
I proceeded to tell him all about my alternate life, where we were happily together, then the tragedy of him being killed by an old bully.
"Wow. Sounds like quite the dream." He said.
"Yeah. It was."
"Well I'm just really glad you're back. A lot has happened since you've been gone. I formed My Chem, Mikey came back, and... I got married."
After he said that, I hung up the phone and began bawling my eyes out. It hurt so much that he didn't wait for me to wake up, and instead moved onto another person. A woman. I had always thought he was 100% gay, but I guess he wasn't. He lied to me about it. I guess he lied to me about a lot of things. He said he would be with me forever. He said one day we would get married because I was the only person he would ever love, but obviously that wasn't true because he is married to his ex-therapist.

All of my thinking finally put me to sleep.

I woke up to a knock at the door. I rubbed my eyes and stood up off the couch and walked to the door. When I opened it, I was a bit shocked. Gerard was standing in the pouring rain. He was soaked and he was shivering. "Gerard? What are you doing here?" I asked him. "I-I came t-to see you." He stuttered. I moved to the side. "Come in, I'll grab you some warm clothes." I said and he walked in. I closed the door and looked at him. He was looking around the living room. "It still looks the same." He said. "Well... yeah. I was in a coma so I wasn't here to change anything." I said sarcastically and walked to my bedroom to grab some clothes for him to wear.
I grabbed an oversized Nirvana shirt and some black sweatpants. I brought them out to him, and directed him to the bathroom. He went in and changed. While he was changing, I went into the kitchen to make some food. He came into the kitchen and put his wet clothes on the counter, then sat down at the kitchen table. "I never thought I would be back in this house again." He said. "Why? Because you never waited for me to wake up and you just left. You left and married the first woman you saw. You knew you would never come back here because you thought I was out of your life for good." He turned and looked at me. "Don't you dare do that to me Frank. You have no clue what I went through. I had to sit there and watch as the love of my life laid unconscious in a hospital bed! I didn't run off and marry Lindsey. She helped me cope through the pain that I was going through and I fell in love with her." He yelled. I fell to my knees and started crying. "Y-You left me, Gee. I t-thought you would love me forever and y-you left." I said and he rushed to my side. He wrapped me in his arms and held me. "I missed it so much." I said. "Missed what?" He asked. "Being in your arms."