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Remembering All That Pain

You're a thousand miles away

I spent the next day making sure everything was ok for the concert. I washed my hair, and got my clothes ready. I was going to be wearing a red and black flannel and black skinny jeans that were ripped at the knees and black vans.

I couldn't sleep that night, because I was so nervous. I stayed up listening to MCR, and thinking of what might happen tomorrow when I see Gerard.
It could happen any way. I could see him and he could recognize me, and we would be together again, or he wouldn't recognize me, and carry on with his life. He's famous, he probably sees thousands of faces everyday. He probably won't remember mine.

When the sun came up, i was freaking out. I was both scared and happy. I was scared of what would happen when I talked to Gerard at the meet and greet, and happy that I would even get to see him.

Finally, It was time for the concert and my heart was pounding. I was in the front row, just behind the metal bars.
I was surrounded by screaming fans, and I could hardly move, but I didn't care. I was just too damn excited.
Soon the lights dimmed, and I heard a heart monitor beeping. One single spotlight flashed on, and I saw a hospital bed, and Gerard was in it. He started singing the end, and he got out of the bed. The fans were going crazy, they were screaming t the tops of their lungs.
Halfway through Welcome to the Black Parade, Gerard's eyes met mine. He stopped singing for a second, then quickly looked away and kept singing.
The rest of the concert went by, and within thirty minutes, I was in line for the meet and greet.
The first one at the table was Bob. I went up to him, and he signed a picture of them that I had brought with me.
After I was done making small talk with him for a while, I moved onto Ray. He complimented my lip ring and my tattoos, then also signed the picture.
When I moved onto Mikey, he stared at me for a while. He signed the picture slowly, then handed it back to me. "Thanks, Mikes." I said and his eyes widened.
Before he could say anything, I moved onto Gerard. He was still talking to another fan, so he didn't see me yet.
When he finally looked at me, his eyes looked empty. They looked like they had a whole world of secrets behind them.
I handed him the picture. I didn't know if he recognized me, so I was waiting for him to make the first move.
He signed it and looked back up at me. His eyes started to fill with tears. "I didn't know you woke up."