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Remembering All That Pain

Sometimes it might get harder

After I woke up from my coma, Jamia explained everything to me. She explained how everything I thought happened...didn't. It was all a dream from the coma I was in. I was in the coma, because I got into a car crash. I had hit my boyfriend, Gerard, and my car flipped. I was really injured and they had to put me into a coma, otherwise I would have died.

She also explained why I was all alone when I woke up. My boyfriend, and the love of my life, Gerard, had left me only a few months after I had been in a coma. She thinks he had probably just lost hope of me waking up, so he stopped visiting. He left me forever and went off to start a band, My Chemical Romance. They're actually quite famous.
He had also gotten married..to a woman. It was a huge shock to me, because he told me he was gay, but he had announced himself as bisexual. He was married to Lindsey Way/ Ballato. She was his doctor when he was in the mental hospital, but now she is the bass player to a band called Mindless Self Indulgence.

Once she had explained all of this, I decided that I wanted to find Gerard. He is on tour for The Black Parade, so it probably wouldn't be too hard to find him... I just have to try and get into the meet and greets. I had to talk to him, I didn't care how, I just had to do it. It was the most important thing on my mind. Gerard meant the absolute world to me, and I wanted to have him back.
I was worried that I would mess up his life, seeing as he was doing good. He was rich and famous and had a beautiful wife. I eventually got over the guilt and decided that I would live a horrible, miserable life if I didn't find Gerard. He might not come back to me, but I just want him to know that I'm alive.