Dig It

I quickly shoved my sleeve down while dropping the blade, I sat on the toilet lid acting like nothing happened when they clearly saw it all, I looked up with tears running down their face same with mine, they were frozen locking their eyes on my arm, I quickly moved down to pick up what I left on the floor, I shoved it in my bag and slung it over my shoulder, I stood up and shoved past them, I slammed the toilet door and stormed down the hall, the door creeked open and heavy fast foot steps coming my way, they grabbed me by my waist and spun me around so I faced them, they hugged me tight so I could hardly breath, he whispered in my ear.

"I'm so sorry" he choked, I pushed him away and whipped my eyes, I sniffed once more then looked at him.
"Frank don't be" I muttered quietly.
"Gee" he touched my cheek and walked closer to me, he kissed my cheek and held my hand, "come on" he said while dragging me out of school, I didn't protest I just walked with my head down, the blood was staining my hoodie so you could see, I guess I cut kinda deep, I just kept thinking until frank stopped, I looked up while he was unlocking his house door, I've only been to his house once and that was like two months ago, he opened the door and dragged me up the stairs into the bathroom, "sit down" he told me, I sat on the edge on the bath tube, he locked the door and turned to me.

"Take off your hoodie" he demanded

"b-but" I stuttered

"Now gerard" I did as I was told taking off the now bloody hoodie, the blood dried to it made the sleeves stick to my fresh cuts making me squeeze my eyes shut and took the pain, frank looked at me and turned the sink faucet on, he wet a cloth, he walked towards me and knelt down, he grabbed my arm and started to stoke the cuts with the cloth, I hissed in pain so he started hushed me, his skin was so pale, he didn't say anything to me, he just kept cleaning them.


"Give me your bag" he told me


"Why?" I ask I clearly knew why I just didn't want him to do it.


"Gerard don't start" he said harshly


I tugged my arm away and stair at it, I whispered to myself 'why do you even care' he obviously heard it because I heard his breath hitch, he touched my leg, I looked up and he was crying again, maybe he did care.


"Gerard I care for you so much, I don't want you to keep doing this"


"I-I..then why do you keep fucking around" I cried, he didn't say anything, he just stood up and held me tight


"Please gerard" he whispered


He let go, I grabbed my bag and gave it to him, he unzipped it and found my blades, hee grabbed them and unlocked the bathroom door


"Where are you going!" I shouted, I got up and followed him, he went to his room and threw them in his desk draw and locked it, he turned to me.


"I'm keeping these away from you"


I didn't answer, I just watched him go to his closet and pull out a red hoodie "here" he said handing it to me, I put it on and sat on his bed, he jumped on crossing his legs, I turned to him


"Frankie i-"

"Don't" he said, I shut up instantly, he lent in and kissed me, I was shocked until I let myself relax and kiss back, he moved closer to me until he sat on my lap, he put his arms around me neck and mine around his waist, he pulled away and looked at me with his gorgeous green eyes, those very same eyes that looked at me when we first met.


"Please forgive me Gee, I don't want to lose another person I love, I couldn't handle it" he stated


I began to cry again but before I could reply he kissed me again, "please" he whimpered while his lips were still on mine, I kissed him harder with tears rolling down my cheeks.

Notes

this chapter is so fvcking shit I'm sorry xo

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