Dig It

I scoffed to myself and didn't bother reading his message, I can't believe I let myself forgive that ass hole, as soon as I opened the front door rain started to pour down, I looked back at the clouded black sky, I sighed and slammed the door "mom I'm home!" I shouted to the living room "hey gerard" she greeted me with open arms walking out of the sitting room, she brought me into a hug and I couldn't help but hold back tears, sniffed as I did so she pulled away holding me by my shoulders.

"Baby what's wrong?" She sounded concerned

"N-nothing I'm fine" I said whilst blinking a lot to keep my tears from falling

"There obviously is something, come on and tell me" I wrapped her arm around my shoulders and led me to the couch, I sat crossed legged at the end, she sat next to me and put her and my knee, I looked at my lap just letting a tear fall, she noticed and sighed

"Boy trouble?" She ask, I didn't speak just nod


"wonna tell me?"


I shook my head, she tutted and groaned, she pulled me into a loving hug, I put my head on her chest like I did when I was a kid,


"Let it out baby" I took the chance to sob hard, I had never been like this to anyone, I was strong but as soon as I let a person in they hurt me and go crying to my mom, yet she was the closest to a bestfriend I had other then mikey and maybe ray after 20 minuets of crying I finally sat up.


"I-im just gunna go to bed" I mumbled while standing up, I headed to the hall and upstairs I noticed mikey door was slightly open and heard groaning I looked through the crack and saw mikey sitting on ray kissing him my eye widened, I quickly turned around and went to my room slamming the door, I yanked off my shirt and jeans, my phone began to buzz I pulled it out my back jean pocket that were now on the floor, *frank* I decided to answer him.


"What!" *why were you ignoring me?* "Because you seem fine your girlfriend and don't need me" *im sorry* "Fuck you and leave me alone"


He didn't answer, I didn't give a shit what he said, I got up pissed off and head to the bathroom pulling out a shaving razor I smashed it until the blades fell out, I grabbed it and cut all my upper arm letting the blood fall down my inner part of arm, the relief was amazing, the pain tore me away from the heart break I felt I still let out sobs but keeping my best to be quiet, why can't frank stop being a cunt and just love me!!

Notes

Hate me? Idk

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