Worse Than Nicotine

~Frank's POV~
I could feel Gerard start to go in a daze as we walked into the loud, music filled house. His arm tightened around mine, letting me lead us to the basement. Sure has been awhile, about half a year if I remember? Yup, very long ago since I've been to a good party. Guess I just haven't been up for it since that accident.
Bert, the one who owns the house, gave us a small plastic bag with two circular white pills. I bit my lip and smiled, nodding in thanks as I pulled Gerard to the messed up couch and sat him down. I straddled his lap and held myself up as I opened the plastic baggy and let one of the pills slip into my hand.

I felt him tense up at the sight, but he soon relaxed and rested his hands on my hips, gripping them tightly, but gently. I smiled and kissed his cheek. "Have you done this before? Taken anything?" I asked softly, looking down at the pill. He nodded hesitantly and gulped. "More than you can think. It's been quite along time, but I'm good to doing it." He said with a small smile as he moved his hips upwards some.

I nodded and placed the pill on the tip of my tongue, to only kiss Gerard and slip my tongue into his mouth, pushing in the pill. After a moment, I felt him swallow and I knew he had tooken it, his hands losing their grip on my hips. Then I took mine, my head going fuzzy and blank. My eyes seen colors that exploded and I closed them, letting out a sigh of relief and smiled, a small moan humming from my lips. Damn I felt good.

I looked at Gerard and seen he felt the same way. A smile was on his lips as his head leaned back and touched the couch. I placed my hands on the back of his head and lifted it up, pushing my hands through his bright red hair. I smiled and pushed my lips to his, closing my eyes instantly. His hands slowly trailed up my sides, making me blush as he leaned his head back slightly and deepened the kiss only more.
As I slowly pulled away, he bit my lip gently and I moaned softly. That's new. He's never done that before. Its nice.

"I'm gonna go get us some drinks. I'll be right back." I whispered, kissing him once more and slipping off his lap. He smiled and nodded, his eyes following me as I went to the back of the room. Before I left, I seen his eyes and worried some. His pupils were rather large and I wondered if he meant that. Could he really have did drugs before I met him? I mean, there's a total possibility that he did and it kinda scares me. But what scared me even more, was that I didn't care. I felt the same way as him at the moment and I wanted to stay like this. I felt amazing.

Well, that was till I came back and lost my shit. On his lap, was some guy. Gerard didn't seem to mind at all. Nor did he been notice me. What hurt me the most, was that he didn't care when that fucking dick kissed him. He just kissed back and moaned in pleasure as those strangers lips slowly trailed down to his neck. My eyes watered and I felt my heart beginning to break as I walked over and tried to pull Gerard away. He didn't budge and I tried even harder.

"Gerard! What the hell?! Get away from that piece of shit!" I screamed as tears started to burn my eyes. He only groaned and tried pushing me away. I was hurt. The guy on his lap laughed softly and only kissed Gerard again, who happily followed.

"Fucking hell, Gerard! Look at the fucking dick on your lap! It's not me!" I screamed. His eyes opened and with one glance at me, his eyes widened and pushed the guy off his lap as I took a run for the stairs that lead up to the actual house and out the front door. As I ran, I didn't know if Gerard was behind me, and I didn't care. But then, it started to rain, making me curse the world and everything in it.

Life was being a bitch to me and I wondered why everything was so great, then because of a simple little ass pill, Gerard changed into a different person. "Frank! Wait!" I didn't turn around and I didn't stop at my house. I ran on and to Gerard's house. I needed Mikey.

My hands struggled with even knocking, but by the time Gerard reached closer, Mikey opened the door and seen the tears down my face with the male behind me trying to call me. "M-Mikey.. Your room. Now please.." I stuttered out. He pulled me in and to his room down the hall, locking the door. He didn't question me and I loved that, he just stood at the door, leaning again it while Gerard struggled to unlock the door with a knife.

"Mikey, let me in please! Let me explain!" He pleaded. "Gerard, take a breath and look at the situation you're in.." Mikey started calmly. "You need to relax and calm down. I know you're high since you hurt Frank. Just go and calm down. Go draw." I looked up, watching as the younger brother helped us so calmly. Gerard's breathing was loud and deep, soft sobs being heard in between. He started to whisper I'm sorry through the door.

"Gerard.. go draw and calm down for a bit.." he said softly. I heard footsteps over my cries, letting me know Gerard had left to go do as Mikey told. He turned to me, hugging and kissing my head. "Frankie.. I need you to calm down as well. Forget about what just happened. It'll only ever be this once. He won't hurt you ever again, I promise." He whispered, stroking my hair soothingly. I knew he was right, but I couldn't really breath. My heart was racing like a car, my breathing fast and short. Mikey looked at me straight in the eyes. "Frank. Calm the hell down. You're going to have a panic attack and you'll have to go to the hospital." I panicked more, shaking my head. "Ho-Hospital.. N-N-N-No.. Can't.. Gerard.. No.." I said shaking.

The younger brother smiled, resting his hands on my cheeks, smiling warmly. "Frankie.." He whispered quietly. "Take a deep breath and calm down.. I'll go and talk to Gerard, so just go to sleep. Everything will be better in the morning. I promise." He whispered and kissed my forehead. My eyes closed, doing as told.

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When morning arrived, I felt sick. I couldn't remember what happened last night, but I smelt food. I was hungry. "Frank.." Whispered a harsh voice, "It's time for breakfast, love." Gerard. I looked up and seen the food on a tray that he held, a smile on his lips and his hair wet. What did I do?

I slowly sat up, my head banging against my skull as I took the tray and began to eat quietly. The bed sunk down some, an arm wrapping around my waist brought me closer to him. I closed my eyes, letting out a pleased sigh. A kiss was laid upon my head, a smile finding its way onto my lips. "Frank.. I love you so much.." He whispered. I opened my eyes, moving the tray away from my lap, and turned, straddling the other.

When I looked up, a surprised and questioning look laid on his features. I kissed him roughly, running my hands through his wet and slightly damp fire truck red hair. He kissed back happily, placing his hands on my hips and squeezing them tightly. Fuck that felt good, which made me let out a moan.

His tongue found its way into my mouth, battling my own for complete dominance and power. I love it when he tries to be more competitive. Our tongues battled, swapping saliva and the taste of each other. This is the man I want to marry one day. I want him to be mine forever, start a family, grow old, and die together like a true and in love couple.

Gerard's hands roamed up my body, and under my shirt. His nails ran up my back, and down again, leaving burning sensations. My own hands gripped his hair, tugging it backwards and leaving his lips as they found their way to the males neck. He grunted, leaving his head turned to the side as I kissed his flesh roughly and hungrily. "I don't.. Want pancakes.. For breakfast. I want you.." I said between breaths of kisses on his skin. He nodded and fixed me on his lap better, but I didn't stop my actions. What I said; I meant and I'm going to do what I want till I get it.

His hips thrusted upward into my ass, which made me gasp and moan in pleasure. That's when I realized something hard brushed against me. I smirked, pushing him against the head board, and moved my hands down to his waist. They trailed up, pulling Gerard's shirt along with them. I made a trail of kisses up his torso, and to his chest. His back arched, making me smile. His eyes were closed, his lips parted slightly as soft pants and moans left him. So hot.

I pulled his shirt over his head, and threw it to the side. He was already somewhat sweaty. Gerard's eyes opened, glancing at me, a small smile on his lips as he let out soft pants. "Are we finally gonna go all the way, Frankie?" He asked with a smirk. My breath got caught in my throat, and he smiled, pushing himself up and pushing me down onto the bed. He straddled me like the first time we got to doing anything. His hands grabbed my wrist, holding them above my head. His face got closer to mine, pecking my lips, and then traveled to my neck.

As soon as his lips found my flesh, i squirmed, letting out a shaky moan. "After all this time, you're finally sensitive. Guess I did a good job at teasing you all the time.." He whispered. His eyes closed, biting my lip as his lips attacked my skin. Moans flowed past my lips, leaving me in no control over my voice.

One of Gerard's hands trailed up my sides, taking my shirt up along with his. Over my head it went, leaving us both half naked.

Notes

Okay, so I finished this like on Sunday when I went somewhere, and since I didn't have any wifi, I couldn't upload it till today. Anyhow, I HAVE GERARDS NEW ALBUM AND IM CRYING. I GOT IT LIKE FIVE DAYS AFTER IT GOT OUT AT BARNES AND NOBLE. LAST ONE TOO IMWAS SCREAMING AND NOW ALL I NEED IS FRANKS AND MY LIFE IS GOING TOMBE COMPLETE AND I JUST CANT TE FEELS IN HIS ALBUM. IT TOOK ME AWHILE TO REALLY LISTEN TO IT ALL AND I JUST STARTED CRYING BECAUSE ITS SO PERFECT JUST LIKE HIM AND IM SO HAPPY HES STILL GOING TO BE MAKING MUSIC THE WAY HE WANTS AND PLEASING HIMSELF AND HIS FANS. HE JUST MAKES ME SO PROUD TO CALL THIS MAN MY HERO. -Emery