Well the thory of it being mikey and sharas fault is out of the window ... Its just pissing me off that we are not getting any straight answers, to be honest I don't care if they come back or not but it breaks my heart that iv never seen them live and i haven't even got all of the albums or merch yet but it will be going for cheap now so ya win some ya lose some :/ ♥ anywayskies I cut today cos I couldent kepp the pain in any longer ♥ I'm sorry if iv let anyone down , iv let myself down I feel stupid and I'm in pain all the time now soOo yeahhh... I'm haveing a shit day cos everyones pissed off at me cos I'm overreacting ! Oh yeah sure but asa 1D bring out a new perfume its the end of the world if your not the first in class to get it !!! HYPOCRITES!!! All of them! Anywayshizzle I cut a bit different from the normal way to cut... I tippex my leg put marker pen over the tippex and scratch it with a knife I then press the pen over it again really hard and scratch it off again, I put black nail polish on to finish... Its still stinging from 4 hours ago srsly owch... What I did was wrong and I think my blood stream might have nail polish in it atm but its notthe reason I starter this chapter ♥ I can't focus!!! ♥ I'm just gonna say what I did today cos iv ran out of things to rant about :) woke up. Cleared out a kitchen. Went to the harvester. Kicked kyle cos he was skitting mcr . Ate way to much food. Went to my nans . Found out that my 2 year old cousen is better at maths than me :/ . Felt really stupid infront if all my family XD. Went home . Cryed for 2 hours . Went to bed . Cut . Tryed to sleep. Got up and started writeing this ♥ okay my mum is asking me what I'm doing gtg wuv woo all xoxo ♥