Frerard is Real

Mikey clamped his hands together, played with his fingers. His eyes stared down onto his lap, a tear of sweat rolled down his cheek as Patrick's eyes stared at him. Mikey bit the inside of his cheek, "Are you going to stare at me the whole time or help me?"
Patrick joked, "A little of both."
Mikey didn't chuckle. Not even a corner of his lips lifted an inch.
Patrick gave him a censure look, "Let's start from the beginning, shall we?"
Mikey shrugged.
Patrick grabbed his lucky pen and a blank sheet of paper, "When did the feelings for your brother occur?"
Mikey thought back to the age nine immediately, "Gerard had black hair. Not red. He had the idea of making a play house...it wasn't perfect, but to me it was the world."

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Gerard was thirteen when he placed one end of a blanket on the coffee table and the other end on the couch. Gerard crawled under the sheet, "C'mon, Mikey!"
Mikey didn't hesitate when he followed his brother under the sheet. Gerard's black hair got into Mikey's eyes. Gerard pushed his hair back and smiled, "sorry about that." He chuckled.
Mikey smiled, "it's okay."
Gerard pulled out an outdated magazine. He skimmed through the pages, his bright hazel eyes gazing through the words, "My inspiration in life is my family." He randomly stated. It didn't take Mikey long to figure out Gerard had read from the magazine. Nine year old Mikey smiled, "My inspiration is you big brother."
Gerard looked at his brother, "oh yeah?"
Mikey nodded.
Gerard smiled a bit, "Thanks. But you'll find someone else whose a true inspiration."
"oh yeah?" Mikey mocked Gerard 's voice with laughter.
Gerard laughed, "Har, har, har! Very funny!"
Mikey smiled but took in a deep breath, "Love you."
Gerard replied by running his hand through Mikey's hair, "I don't need to say it back. You know damn well I love you too."

~

Mikey sighed, "I don't know...ever since he said that I just have been having feelings for him. I didn't think of it as a bad thing before, but now I do. I don't want to love Gerard in a way Frank does."
Patrick gave no expression but deep thought, "Do you want to hear the good news or bad news first?"
Mikey looked away, "I could use good news right now."
"There's a way to get you to move on from Gerard."
"and the bad news?"
Patrick looked at Mikey who was glancing, "Your love for Gerard isn't going to be easy to get rid of...there's even a chance we can't get rid of it at all."

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