Out There

I was woken by someone shuffling about next to me, then after a few seconds I realised it was obviously Mikey. I started to remember again what had happened last night and early this morning, and what was probably going to happen today. I turned my head and slowly opened my eyes to see his eyes we already open, he met my gaze with a small smile "I didn't mean to wake you, I really didn't want to. But its almost 8 o'clock and if you feel up for it we'll have to get up for school" He explained as I grimaced, the thought of school was not a nice thought.

"I really don't want to go, but I probably should. It’s important and I don't want to leave you on your own again today" I said as he nodded in agreement, but as he looked at me he still had a look of doubt in his eye. "Are you sure? I don't want you to go to school If you're just gunna feel like crap the whole day" He mumbled, with concern in his voice. "No, really I'm fine, I want to go" I honestly did want to go, I didn't really want to run in to Gerard right now because he was being such a dick about everything this morning, and I just didn't need that right now.

"Well we better get up if we wanna be on time, because the notorious nerd can't be late for school" he taunted playfully nudging me with his elbow. I then realised how close we were in his bed, I had kinda forgot because my mind was so clouded with thoughts. At this moment I think he noticed too because he shot up out of the bed "Right, I'll go for a bit, you can get ready in here if you wanna? You can borrow one of my t-shirts" He said without looking at me, and then left the room.

I got dressed into Mikey's black Misfit tee, which was a little bit too big for me but it wasn't noticeable. I needed my clothes, I had to go back home for a bit. But Gerard was going to take me, and I needed a car just in case I needed a quick getaway. At that moment I got a text from an unknown number.

'hey, wuu2 after school today, wanna hang? :) -xofrnk'

A thought sprang in to my mind, would it be too rude to ask Frank to pick me up from my Moms place, I mean he already did say I could stay with him. But I also genuinely wanted to hang out with him, he seemed like a cool guy. And it would be awesome to make a new friend properly, I love Mikey but if me and Gerard are going to argue like this a lot I can't always come here. I saved his number in to my phone and started to text him back.

'yeah sure, sounds good. Do you think you could pick me up from my mom's place? I've gotta pick up some stuff :) Aieda xx'

I sent the text and waited for a reply, in the meantime I decided to go to the bathroom and sort out my hair and makeup. Shit, my eyeliner, I had no eyeliner on. I paced back to Mikey's room and searched through my bag in hope of finding the eyeliner bottle I sometimes leave in my bag. Bingo! Found it. I went back to the bathroom and fixed my makeup and my hair, making myself presentable enough, but I'm pretty sure you could tell I've had a rough few days.

I heard a light knock on the door and shortly after that, a voice. "Hey Aieda, are you ready to go yet, because we have to walk" He mumbled. I looked presentable enough for the school day, so with that I opened the door and stepped out. I was met by a smiling Mikey, which made me smile too.

“You look nice, that t-shirt fits pretty well" Mikey beamed. "You don't look so bad yourself, loser" I said playfully, madly smiling with my best friend for no apparent reason. I needed this, how could I not have Mikey. We needed each other. The thought of this Made mine and Gerard's argument pop back in to my head, making my smile drop.

Mikey must have noticed because his smile had gone too "What's wrong, Aieda?" He said in a concerned voice, looking worried. "Oh, nothing. Just thinking about my mom and stuff" I mumbled. He knew this was a touchy subject, so he left it at that.

"So shall we go?" he asked not looking up from the ground, the mood suddenly changed. Ugh, I hate it when this happens. "Yeah, I'll just grab my stuff and I'll be down in a second" I said, unsure of the mood he was now in. "Okay, I'll wait downstairs" He mumbled, now looking me in the eye.

I grabbed my phone and my clothes from yesterday but then remembered most of my work was down stairs. As I walked down the stairs, I checked my phone and had 2 missed calls from my mom -which I ignored- and a text from Frank.

'yeah, that's cool, what time? xofrnk'

I text him back at the bottom of the stairs, in a trance by my phone.

'about 4, if that's okay with you? I'll send you my address later xx'

'yeah that's cool, see you then Aieda ;) xofrnk'

I expected I would get a few more of those faces in text and in real life, he was that kind of guy, but I don't think he'd make a move or anything. Well, I hoped. Mikey and Gerard were enough to deal with now. I then looked up to see Mikey with a confused look on his face. He must have noticed how I hadn't looked up from my phone yet.

"Wakey wakey, Aieda" He chuckled "Annoyingly enough its time to go" He pouted. "Okay, I just gotta grab my work and we'll be out of here" I said. I quickly jogged over to my work on the table scrabbled it all together. I walked back over to Mikey and we walked out the door, locking it behind us.

We walked to school in a comfortable silence, apart from one question I asked which was about Gerard already being at school. "Yeah, I think he left early this morning. It was about 6 that I hear the door close this morning I think, weirdly enough" He replied as I nodded in agreement but didn't say anything in reply. I didn't want to sound over interested, because it was still way too soon to tell Mikey about me and Gerard, if that was even still going on.

"So are you coming back to mine after school?" Mikey asked, kicking a rock a we walked in to the school gates. "Well I have to go home for a bit and talk to my mom, and I honestly don't know how long that's going to take" I lied, like hell was I going to talk to my mom "But I'll probably come back after, maybe a bit later" I was hoping that I'd be gone long enough so that I didn't have to see Gerard, which is childish, I know. But to be honest, its no more childish than he's being.

"Oh, okay. Do you want me or Gerard to come and get you?" He asked as we walked through the student entrance into the school "No, I think I can probably get a lift off of a friend or something" I said, which earned me a surprised and confused look from Mikey "What friend? Who?" He asked expectantly.

"Well, do you remember Frank? From the car? You might have a few classes with him or something?" I mumbled as we walked up to my locker, when we got there I put in the combination and opened it up "Frank? Do you even know him Aieda? It doesn't sound right to me" He said in a sterner voice now, well brilliant. I knew he would react like this and he'll probably tell Gerard and I'll get the same reaction from him, only worse.

"Well he's just a new friend, there's nothing wrong with me having a new friend, Mikey." I said in a mumbled voice, still staring in to my locker. "Maybe us three can hang out sometime, he seems like a cool guy" I said "That's the thing, he "seems" like a cool guy, you don't actually know if he is okay or not. And anyway, why do you need new friends, are you getting bored of me or something?" He asked, looking slightly hurt but more annoyed "Is it because we broke up? Or the whole thing, me asking you out?" He asked, now in a more shaky voice.

"No!" I exclaimed "Why are you even saying that? Why would you even want to think that?" I asked. "I don't know, its just, you and Gerard are all I have, and if I lose you to some random guy, I just..." he trailed off "No, Mikey, tell me what’s wrong, let me.." Before I could finish he started walking away, not even looking back at me. This was bad, I think I'm getting the silent treatment from Mikey.

Biology was a drag, I tried to drown my concerns by doing my work, but it just wasn't going to happen. My brain was completely immersed by them, those 2 boys. What a bloody distraction, just what I needed. Jessica didn't say much, or anything really. But that was to be expected, plus I wasn't really in the mood for small talk.

The bell rang and I made my way over to Music, hoping Mikey might have had time to cool off and we could talk about it in the lesson. I sat down in my usual seat and watched the door. The thought crossed my mind that he might not actually turn up, and still be angry at me. But, unexpectedly, he came through the door and sat down next to me. The only thing wrong was that he ignored me the whole lesson. But, it was better than nothing. I couldn't really concentrate in the lesson because I felt quite bad and my thoughts wouldn't let me be.

The bell rang and Mikey shot up, quickly exiting the classroom. I tried to do the same but got muddled up in the crowd of students all trying to leave at the same time. When I did get into the hallway I saw Mikey far up ahead. I started walking to English, knowing that trying to chase after him would be futile. But by the looks of it he was going to English, so maybe that would be better. I really didn't want to go to that lesson for obvious reasons, but if I didn't there would be consequences.

I crept in to the classroom trying not to noticed, and headed over to my seat. As soon as I walked in I saw in the corner of my eye Gerard's head shoot up and instantly felt his eyes on me. I needed to stand my ground on this one though, I needed to establish that I'm not going to just roll over every time he gets upset about something. I sat down and looked straight at him, which earned me a surprised look from him.

I had been so busy in staring down my English teacher/boyfriend I hadn't noticed that Mikey wasn't beside me. I looked around the room until I clocked him at the back, sat on the end of the Mr.Way fan club table, looking very uncomfortable but still annoyed.

"Aieda" Called a strong voice, causing me to snap back in to reality "Can I have a word outside, please" it was of course Gerard, and as much as I didn't want to, I nodded and got up. The whole class jeered and "Ooooooooohed" as I walked up to the front and followed him out of the room.

"Can I help you?" I asked after the door closed "Why aren't you two sat together? Does he know about us?" He asked in a concerned voice "No" I answered "He's annoyed about something else" I said bluntly. "What’s he angry about then?" He asked "I thought you didn't want me to be around him anymore, so I guess you're probably glad about this" I said coldly, trying to avoid the question, because I knew he wouldn't like the answer. He didn't answer.

"Right well, I'm going to go back in now" I said bluntly

"Wait, Aieda, are you coming back to ours tonight. I think we should sort this out" he asked with pleading eyes.

"It depends, I'm going to my moms to get some stuff, so I might be back late, if at all" I said, not looking at, now feeling slightly guilty.

"Oh" he said, as his voice went a little higher "I can give you a lift there If you want?" It would be nice to have a lift there, but I feel like if we were in the car together, the subject of Frank might come up. Leading to another blown out of proportion argument.

"No, but thank you, I'm going straight there and its really not that far to walk." I softened my tone a little, although the problem hasn't been solved he has calmed down and is acting slightly less like a big baby.

"Oh, okay, well if you need a lift back or anything, just give me a lift home" he said "You'll need my number" he said, handing me a piece of paper as he did. He held the door open for me and I walked back in, shortly followed by him. I sat back in my seat and he began to talk. I sort drowned out the lesson and got on with my essay, knowing the day would be over soon.

The rest of the day was a blur, I was sort of just trying to make it through it. I sat with Mikey at lunch but he didn’t talk, but he did watch me take my first bite, like always. At one point I saw Frank and he smiled and waved but thank god, he didn’t come over. But I knew Mikey saw, which made me feel ten times worse. The bell rang which signalled the end of the day, and even though at the moment I’m sure Mikey was too pissed off to even care but I texted to tell him I was going straight home and would probably be back around 6:30-7:00.

I walked out of the student entrance, only to see Mikey and Gerard getting in the car. Gerard awkwardly smiled and waved, but nothing from Mikey. Well, at least one of them has calmed down. I walked fairly quickly back to my house because I knew my mom was always back at around 4:15, and I really didn’t want to run in to her. Shit, it was already 3:40, I better get move on. I started jogging until I made it to the front of the house. Seeing it made me wince a little bit actually, not from pain or anything. Its just this place now is a symbol of repression, and it wasn’t nice to be reminded of that. I quickly walked up to the front of the house, I got my keys out and opened the door.

As I walked into the kitchen I shivered a little, it was always freezing in here. Its actually colder in here than it is outside. I walked up to my bedroom and grabbed the large bag from under my bed. I started to pack all my clothes that were in my chest of draws, but to be honest, I really didn’t have that many clothes, it wasn’t seen as a necessity to my mother, ironic considering she has a Chanel purse that she got “given” by my dead aunt or some crap like that. I threw in my makeup, my toiletries, my CD’s and my phone charger. I picked up a few of my nik naks and things I had collected over the years, I wasn’t leaving things behind that my mom might try and sell or throw out.

Finally, I went to my desk, opened the draw and removed the fake bottom. I’d had a job in the summer to help out, but my mom pretty much always took the money straight away and spent it on something she didn’t need. A few times I’d been able to put some aside, I didn’t want to just live at Mikey’s free of rent or anything like that, I needed to help. I checked the time, 3:54. Fuck, she’ll be back soon, where’s Frank? I decided to ring him but there was no answer, shit. I really didn’t want a confrontation with her.

I decided to go wait downstairs because if I did need to run, I didn’t really want to jump out the second floor, I’d probably break my foot. I waited for another 5 minutes, but nothing, luckily nothing from my mother. It was now 3:06 and annoyingly nothing from Frank. I heard a car pull up and a door slam, shit they’re getting out. If they’re getting out it must be her. Why would Frank get out? To my relief I heard a knock on the door, thank god. I ran to the door and grabbed my bag, leaving my key behind, not wanting a reminder, when I heard another car pull up. Oh god. I quickly flung open the door.

“Quick Frank! Get in the fucking car!” His face was confused and then realisation hit him when my mom screeched “WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING BACK HERE?! HAVE YOU COME TO STEAL SOME MORE OF MOMMIES MONEY?!” She yelled as she shot forward, straight for us.

“C’mon! Quick” Yelled Frank as he yanked my arm along toward the car. We quickly sprinted to car and yanked the doors open and bundled into it.

“Where do you think you’re going young lady!? You’re grounded! Get the fuck out of that car!” She yelled through the window as Frank put the car into reverse. He pulled out on the road did a slight but quick turn and sped away.

“Shit Aieda! What the was that?!” asked Frank, Glancing at me briefly.

“Yeah, I know. That, sadly was my mother”

“I see why you left then, she’s kind of a piece of work”

“Yeah, I’m glad I’ve got my stuff back though. Any later and she probably would’ve thrown everything out”

“Yeah I guess you were lucky, so are you still staying with your English teacher?”

“Well, yes, but I’m also living with Mikey. But i’m kinda in trouble with him at the moment”

“Oh, why? What could you have done?”

“Well, It was just because we’re hanging out tonight, and I think he’s just a bit protective over me” I mumbled looking down at my feet.

“Oh” He said “I get what you mean, I know he’s a nice guy.”

“Yeah, he’s really cool, he’s just a little shy” I said.

“Well, if you want, my offer is still open for you to stay?” He asked with a hopeful spark in his eye.

“Well, I guess I could just tell Mikey and Gerard that I’m staying back with my mom” I said.

“Whatever works for you” He smiled.

Notes

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