The Only Kingdom You'll See Is Two Feet Wide And Six Feet Deep

I stared at myself in the mirror, not allowing myself to look away. I can't think anymore. I can't breathe. I just want to be as far away as possible from Cameron. And Johnny, he never knew our history. He never knew what happened between us, and I hoped to keep it that way.

I should really gain some weight. In middle school, I was really thick. In high school, I happened to get thinner, but now I was sickly skinny. I looked like I suffered from an eating disorder. I ignored that, tended to my raven black hair, which sat in layers down to my neck. My pale, bony neck was kind of disturbing. I don't remember being this skinny before. Perhaps it would because I hadn't seen a mirror in months, and hadn't seen a buffet in ages.

I wore the only clean tee I had, which happened to be from middle school, and strangely it was oversized. I also wore sweatpants, because I obviously wanted to look my best to see my childhood bully. I locked the door and headed out, to see Maddie wearing a long red dress that looked like it should have been in a magazine. She hugged me tightly and smiled.

"Gee, aren't you excited?"

I rolled my eyes. "Well, since I'm in clothes fit for a king, I must be sooo excited."

She laughed. "Okay, I guess sweatpants are the new black."

"Nope, it's screaming. Screaming is totally the new black."

One of my friends, Frank happened to notice our conversation. "I wish it were popsicles."

"Popsicles?" Maddie questioned.

"Yeah, if it were popsicles everyone would have one." Frank said.

"I like popsicles," I replied. " I really like popsicles, Frank."

"Let's go buy one!" Frank yelled.

Maddie stopped us. "You're gonna see Cameron first!"

Aw fuck.

Notes

new chapter, title from bvb song

meh, do you like popsicles?