Falling in love will kill you.

~P.o.V Ray~

He takes a moment then looks at me like I've killed someone.
"T-this never happened ray....."
"W-what, Mikey. you're kidding right?" Somehow I'd managed to pull myself out of my daze.
He runs a shaky hand through his sweaty blond locks. "Ray... this never fucking happened okay?" He says in a hush tone, checking his surroundings while buttoning his pants again. My back still against the wall, I'm still a bit shocked.
"Okay?" he repeats.
"NO! what the hell Mikey? One minute you tell me you like me and the next you are telling me to forget this like it was nothing?" I sigh "You expect me to shrug this off like it's nothing? Mikes... I can't do that."
"Ray, please you have to! I have a girlfriend, I can't have her know this happened" He looks away
"Why are you even with her than!?" I yell at the man in front of me.
"shhh, keep it down.."
"NO." I say stubbornly, before I know it he's kissing me again, I try to push him of me. But I melt into the kiss instead. He pulls away cupping my cheek.
"Please." He looks me deep in the eyes. I turn my head, but he pulls me back. "Ray, please? One day, just not now... it's not good to have two couples in the band." He sighs.
"Fine." I say coldly, pushing him away.
"Ray, I'm sorry!" he yells after me I start walk faster, I feel like my hart is smashed into billions of pieces. I don't care if my belt is still lose, I don't care if my face is getting wet from tears, I just wanna feel numb... The worst part is I still really love him.

On my way heading to the bus I pass a guy on the corner just standing there.
"Hey man, need a pick me up? " he asks in a rough voice as I'm almost past him.
Fuck it. "Yeah." I mutter turning to face him.
"What do you need? coke, speed or weed?" Ray take the least harmful I say to myself.
"Weed." He nods looking through his jacket, pulling two small packets out of his pocket.
"Strong or not strong?" He asks
"strong."
"You sure you can handle?"
"yeah." just like my teen years, I smile to myself.
"alright, 350."
"that much?"
"well, you wanted the strong stuff."
"yeah yeah fine." I say pulling out my wallet and handing over the money. He hands over the packet. I start to walk away.
"Yo, Ray?" he yells after me, dafuq he knows my name? I turn around.
" uuh.. yeah?"
"Next time don't buy weed from a cop." he shows his badge
"W-what? man you gotta be kidding right?" I really don't need this right now.. I start to panic
"Hey, clam down.."
"Dude, I mean sir. I'm having a really bad night. I just needed something... please don't take me in" I try to act calm, and hand back the package.
He shakes his head. "Keep it, I won't bring you in. Not this time." He chuckles "my son is a fan, I'll really let you go if you give me a sighing, for my boy." he smiles, holding out a note pad.
"Yeah.. yeah sure man!" I feel relieved, I quickly sigh my name. "what's his name?"
"Joey, and I know how you feel. Some nights you need to let off the stress." he chuckles putting a hand on my shoulder.
'Joey, stay awesome. Your dad is a cool dude! - Ray'
I hand back the notepad.
"Thank you sir!" I shake his hand
"No, thank you."

This time I really leave. My night could have gone so much worst, good god. I sigh in relief
I make my way to the door of the bus. Upon walking inside, I see Mikey standing by the bunks, he looks at me apologetically.
"I'm sorry" he murmurs
"Fuck off" I whisper angrily pushing past him, walking to the back of the bus. I open one of the windows and sit down opening the small packet. I roll a joint and light it. Leaning back and taking a few drags I start to feel better.

~Gerard P.o.V~
-hours later-

My eyes shoot open as I hear something crash in the back of the bus followed by giggles. I untangle myself from sleeping Frank, pressing a quick kiss to his temple and slip out of the bunk.
How can both my brother and boyfriend, be such heavy sleepers. I giggle myself from the thought of Frankie being my boyfriend, I check my watch '5:45 am' holy shit it's early. I rub the sleep out of my eyes, the door to the back of the bus was ajar I walk inside the smell hits me first then I see Ray laying upside down on the couch while eating a bag of chips staring blankly at the tv, that wasn't even on! All of the food we had scatted on the floor.
"Ray, what the hell happened!?" I ask in shock.
"Heeey Gee!" He giggles and falls of the couch with a thud. "ouch! hehehe"
I go to help him onto the couch again.
"Thanks, man." he smiles looking at the ceiling totally out of it. It's no use talking to him. I sit at the table across from him, I guess I should just watch him so he doesn't do anything stupid.
after about 20 minutes of telling him 'no' to the bag of chips now laying on the floor, he fell asleep. I look to my watch again, '6:10 am' no ones awake till about 10 and the driver will be here in 15 minutes to start the drive to the next gig. I put a blanket over Ray and start to clean up the mess. I throw away all the empty containers and chips bags that where laying around. I found what was left of the weed and hid it, who knows... maybe we'll use it some time... but not anytime soon.
I spray a bit of air freshener to hide the smell.. it only works partly. I then sit back down at the other end of the couch, ray snoring peacefully. God I feel like a mother or something, I lean my head against the window. I later hear the door open and close following with the start of the engine. I watch my surroundings as we leave the town.

I decide to get up and go back to frank, but before I do so. He comes wondering in with a cute looking bed head, his raven locks all over the place.
"Morning, Frankie." I chuckle the way he perks up when he finally sees me.
"hey." he smiles tiredly. He sits on my lap. cupping my face and kissing me softly. "Why are you up so early?"
"I should ask you the same" I smirk
"The bed is cold without you." he leans his forehead against mine. "and now you tell me why you're up" he yawns, I yawns as well. He rubs the circles under my eyes.
"I had to take care of a friend." I shrug gesturing to Ray still sleeping on the couch.
He looks at him then back at me. "What happened?" he asks concerned
"Can't you smell it?" He sniff the air. His mouth forms an 'O' shape.
"yep" I chuckle "Need to know more?"
"Nah" he giggles. "You look like you need coffee" He brushes his fingers through my hair.
"Yeah.." I lean into his touch "But we don't have a coffee maker anymore, remember?"
He jumps up, runs over to the fridge, I can hear shuffling. He pokes his head out and smiles wide.
"What do you have Frankie?" I ask cautiously
"This!" he closes the door with two store bought starbucks coffee things in a glass bottles ( you know the ones right?)
"Holy fuck, Frank." I smile wide and pull him down into a bone crushing hug. "I fucking love you. I love you, I love you"
I kiss all over his face he laughs. Pulling away he hands one of the bottles to me.
We sit together, Franks back in between my legs we drink our coffee and watch the passing cars. Around 9 Mikey walks in clutching his head.
"You okay mikes?" Frank asks. He looks towards us and nods he then sees Ray still laying on the sofa. As soon as he sees him his eyes widen, he turns on his heels and leaves back to the bunks.
I look to frank utterly confused.
"Whats up with him?" I whisper not wanting to wake up Ray.
"I'll tell you later" as he presses his lips to mine.

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