I walk down to my personal little recording room, I need to get this out. Some days it hits me harder than others… I’m still in denial. It’s been years. It’s been years since I’ve been his, it’s been years since the crowed screamed our names, it’s been years since we’ve absentmindedly spent a day together, without worrying about our wives or family.
I grab my music book filled my thoughts, lyrics, pain and past that could basically tell you my life story… that is my life story. I flip to the back of the book, where when Gee first met me he grabbed my book and started drawing in it, it was at night and Mikey went to get food, me and Gee just talked about life while he just doodled, it was a cartoon version of Batman because he knew I hated Spiderman. I grinned tracing my tattooed fingers over the page.
I flipped to a blank, white page in the book, waiting for emotion to fill the page, I started writing down the first lines pouring my heart while singing… I wasn’t even thinking, I just sang what I felt.
The night we met I knew I needed you so
I was depressed because I didn’t have many friends so Mikey wanted me to meat Gerard because he didn’t either…
And if I had the chance I'd never let you go
If I had the chance to turn back time, I would have told him how I felt, how I needed him, how he was my source of life… sure I’m living…but I’m barely surviving without him…
So won't you say you love me? I'll make you so proud of me
we’ll make 'em turn their heads every place we go
I just didn’t want to actually say it out loud…I’ve told him I loved him before… he has too but…it didn’t feel the same, I needed him to say he loved me and him say it boldly… like the whole world needed to know… they know more about how he feels than he does himself…
So won't you, please?
(Be my, be my baby)
Be my little baby
(My one and only baby)
Say you'll be my darlin'
(Be my, be my baby)
Be my baby now
(My one and only baby)
Whoa oh oh oh
I just need him to be mine again, I want him to be the only one…I know he wishes that too... he’s told me
I'll make you happy, baby, just wait and see
for every kiss you give me, I'll give you three
I love him so much, he’s done so much for me and I want to do even more, he built me up but he broke me down… the brake was still worth it though… I just want to build him up because he didn’t mean to break me.
Oh, since the day I saw you, I have been waiting for you
you know I will adore you 'til eternity
Since the day I saw him I fell in love, lost in his hazel eyes… I will love him forever… no matter what, even the words that bind me and Jamia or him and Lyn-Z, because me and Gerard have an unspoken promise.. no one will ever understand our connection..

So won't you, please?
(Be my, be my baby)
Be my little baby
(My one and only baby)
Say you'll be my darlin'
(Be my, be my baby)
Be my baby now
(My one and only baby)
Whoa oh oh oh
I sing out the lines, it sounds more like pleading…
I remember him telling me no matter what we will always be more than best friends, and that it was never just a stage kiss… or an act
It never was… I feel tears streaming down my face in realization that were not love struck teenagers against the world anymore… we have wives, children, a family. And were here… Broken.
I find myself screaming the lyrics, like their my life line…
They basically are.
So come on and be
(Be my, be my baby)
Be my little baby
(My one and only baby)
Say you'll be my darlin'
(Be my, be my baby)
Be my baby now
(My one and only baby)
Whoa oh oh oh

Be my, be my baby
(Be my little baby)
My one and only baby
Be my, be my baby
My one and only baby
I sit their looking passed on our memories until Jamia comes in
“What are you doing?” She asks.
I reply “…Writing a song”
I show her the lyrics, and tell her the song is for her… I do love her but not the way I love Gerard… my life doesn’t depend on her… she can’t make or break me. This song is about Gerard, most of my songs are…
But no one knows this of course…
Except one person
Gerard himself.

Notes

Bolded letters are the song
i hope you liked this :) I so not own the song NO COPYRIGHT INTENDED
i actually love their wives so dont hate..