It's a not so secret, secret

"Nathan hey your dads called me to- holy shit!"

I quickly pulled my mouth away from Coles. I looked into the doorway to see mikey of all people. why was he even here?

"m-mikey I swear to god I can-"

Mikey began typing on his phone and I was panicking. I was going to keep talking but he cut me off "I can't believe I just walked in on that." Mikey said shaking his head. "I was told to come watch you for some reason and your kissing someone on the couch. Oh this is great, just wait till Frankie hears this-"

"mikey you can not and I repeat can not fucking tell dad or gee." I said seriously

"dude they'll get a kick out of it what's your deal? it's just funny and they'll probably want to-"

"mikey do you remember billie armstrong?" I blurted out to get to him to stop talking.

mikey doesn't know about everything that happened he only knows I went missing for a while not who I was with or what happened.

"How do you. . ."

"do you remember when I went missing?" I said feeling embarrassed that to get mikey to keep quiet cole would have to find out what happened.

"What does that have to do with bill-"

"he was the one I was with. You can't tell dad I'm with cole okay, because he'll freak and think it's too soon please you have to promise not to tell mikey."

Mikey's face literally dropped in shock. "you were with billie?!"

"Who's billie?" Asked cole.

"Nathan I-" mikey stuttered.

"cole please don't freak out but this guy billie has a grudge on my dad for a very specific reason and he went after me to hurt my dad. He made me think he was ten years younger than he was and made me think I loved him and he loved me. After a few events I figured out he was lying and I'm home now." I said leaving out almost all the details.

"Nathan what where those fucking events?" Mikey asked rage in his voice "if he even fucking- oh my god that fucker! Why'd didn't anyone tell me this until now?!" He yelled but he wasn't mad just shocked.

"No one told you because I still haven't my told my dads all of what happened and if I do they'll take cole away from me. You have to stay quiet, you have to m." I begged using my nickname for him from when I was a little kid.

Mikey looked in between me and cole then rested his eyes on me. "tell me what billie did and I'll keep quiet. I want to know what the fucker did to my nephew and I want to know now-"

"Mikey's it's not that easy."

"what's not easy?" Mikey asked

"just talking about in general."

"this isn't in general Nathan it's just me and you" he argued

"Mikey. It's not easy to talk about it." I said becoming frustrated.

"why not?!"

"because he raped me!" I yelled and then ran upstairs to my room locking the door.

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"nathan come on open the door" mikey said for the fiftieth time.

"Nathan will you please just let me in? I promise Mikey will wait downstairs. Right Mikey?" I heard cole say.

"fine whatever just get him to open up." Mikey sighed

"baby?" Coles voice came out very softly. i walked to the door and opened it.

Cole slipped in and shut the door on Mikey. He grabbed my hand and pulled me to the bed. He laid down and pulled me into his arms, my head on his chest.

"Cole-"

"don't. Just don't. You don't have to explain anything to me or answer any questions okay? we'll just lay here and be a couple, all that with whatever his name was is the past lets just enjoy the present."

"I'm sorry." I said.

"Why on earth are you sorry?" He asked rubbing my back.

"Because I didn't tell you and plus I love kissing you and all but we may not be able to have y know, sex after what happened to me because I feel like the memories will scare me. I get it if you don't want to-"

"Nathan." Cole said.

"What?"

"Shut up."

"But-"

"No. No buts. what kind of relationship would it be if it was just sex? That's stupid, and if that's all I wanted I wouldn't have stuck around this long with you. So just forget all the negative thoughts and just lay here with me." He said

"I-I okay." I whispered snuggling into him further.

"I love you Nathan."

"I love you cole, I really do."

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