Love lasts for ever
Chapter 9
I drove watching the fierce January ran grow harder and harder and eventually turning into hail. The pounding of the small little balls of ice made me smile. I liked to hear the sound of pain, the sound of deperation, the sound of my hopes smashing onto pieces like the hail on the concrete of the sidewalk.
I was soothed by the thought of the little ice pelletes raining down, they were not alone, they had others, they were all the same yet some how very different in size and shape.
Unwittingly I had driven to the hospital. My heart wanted to see Frank, but my brain protested loudly at the thought of seeing him again in such bad condition. Dragging my feet, I walked into room 312 in the ICU. Alright I could handle seeing Frank for a little while. My heart wanted it. My heart wanted my little Frankie, it wanted him to be okay.
Sitting by his bed, I sighed. "Please be okay Frank. Please be okay for me." I said not noticing the tears dripping down my face onto his cheeks.
I wiped the tears away and kissed his cheek softly. He was so pale, so small and vulnerable lying in this cold hospital bed. Was the brain damage as bad as the doctors said it was? Did they even check to see? I cried harder. He was my world and my universe and I needed him to be okay. I needed him to live through this.
"You helped me through the darkest of hours, Frank, alcohol, drugs, depression. Why can't I help you out of a coma? Why can't I help you back from the brink of death?" I half cried, half screamed. "Come back from the valley of hell for me. Don't die on me, not now, not ever! Why can't I fucking get you back!"
I knew the doctor was watching, I knew it was time. Hell I even knew this day was coming but not this soon. I didn't want to let go.
"Mr. Way?" The doctor called. "I think its best to unplug him. It will end his pain."
"No! You can't do that! YOU CAN'T FUCKING DO THAT!" I screamed at him. "He's gonna get better! You'll see! I'll make it happen! Don't kill him! Not yet!"
I was sobbing angry, abandonment tears. Not leaving him, I couldn't. He had helped me through all of my dark times, I couldn't leave him now.
The doctor had a shocked expression on his face when he left the room
I was soothed by the thought of the little ice pelletes raining down, they were not alone, they had others, they were all the same yet some how very different in size and shape.
Unwittingly I had driven to the hospital. My heart wanted to see Frank, but my brain protested loudly at the thought of seeing him again in such bad condition. Dragging my feet, I walked into room 312 in the ICU. Alright I could handle seeing Frank for a little while. My heart wanted it. My heart wanted my little Frankie, it wanted him to be okay.
Sitting by his bed, I sighed. "Please be okay Frank. Please be okay for me." I said not noticing the tears dripping down my face onto his cheeks.
I wiped the tears away and kissed his cheek softly. He was so pale, so small and vulnerable lying in this cold hospital bed. Was the brain damage as bad as the doctors said it was? Did they even check to see? I cried harder. He was my world and my universe and I needed him to be okay. I needed him to live through this.
"You helped me through the darkest of hours, Frank, alcohol, drugs, depression. Why can't I help you out of a coma? Why can't I help you back from the brink of death?" I half cried, half screamed. "Come back from the valley of hell for me. Don't die on me, not now, not ever! Why can't I fucking get you back!"
I knew the doctor was watching, I knew it was time. Hell I even knew this day was coming but not this soon. I didn't want to let go.
"Mr. Way?" The doctor called. "I think its best to unplug him. It will end his pain."
"No! You can't do that! YOU CAN'T FUCKING DO THAT!" I screamed at him. "He's gonna get better! You'll see! I'll make it happen! Don't kill him! Not yet!"
I was sobbing angry, abandonment tears. Not leaving him, I couldn't. He had helped me through all of my dark times, I couldn't leave him now.
The doctor had a shocked expression on his face when he left the room
I'm sorry sugar ;-; i'm hoping the ending made you happy?
7/17/13