I'm Okay Now

"Gerard" she said in such a sleepy voice "I'm really sorry for what happened today. It's just that, well, I don't know. I was stupid. Also I'm really sorry for slapping you. I couldn't control myself, I don't know what has gotten into me, I guess I wasn't use to you being so hurt or angry. I don't like it when you get drunk, your not the same person"
"Honey it's okay, trust me. I completely deserved that slap, I just didn't know how to respond to that reality check that you gave me so the only answer I thought of was to get myself drunk again. After you slapped me I realized how much I hurt you and I would take a thousand beatings if that made your happy again. I'm also really sorry for scaring you. I never want to see you cry again." I saw a little smile cross her face after I was done speaking, I could stare at that smile all day. I felt really had knowing that she saw me in my worse condition but also that I probably scared her shitless. I began to stroke my fingers through he beautiful long blue hair and we both fell asleep with our arms around each other.
I was so happy when I woke up the next morning that it was a weekend and I didn't have to go to work, I was so hungover from last night I can barely walk in a straight line. I dident want to move I was so sick, but I knew if I got up then I was one step from seeing katy again. I slowly got out of bed, trying to be careful so I wouldn't knock anything over, and headed towards the kitchen still in my pjs. There in the kitchen I saw Mikey making coffee and Katy cooking pancakes. I began to feel really nauseous and lightheaded from my hangover I just plopped myself down on the kitchen table.
"Hangover?" Katy asked and I just nodded my head in return, completely forgetting Mikey was in the room.
"WHAT! Gerard Way where you drinking last night!" Mikey screamed but I was too sick to even talk so I just nodded my head the tinniest bit, and that was enough to send him over the edge. "You have been doing great becoming sober and now you just ruined it all! How could you!"
"Mikey please calm down, it only happened once"
"Once until you become addicted again! That's what happened last time!"
"Listen Mikey, it won't happen again, I promise you. And you know I never ever break my promises."
I heard Mikey let out a deep sigh as he began to brew the coffee knowing I was right. "So why where you drinking last night anyways. You only use that as an escape route from reality" he asked but I had no idea on how to reply. I glanced over at Katy she just stood still. The look on her face was pure guilt but I wasn't her fault.
"No reason" I replied hoping he wouldn't ask anymore questions and my wish came true.
"Here" he said as he slid over a cup of coffee in my direction, which I caught before it spilled over the edge.
"Smells good!" I yelled over to katy who was still in the proses of cooking pancakes.
"Thanks! There almost done!" She replied
The breakfast the Katy made was incredible, I had no idea that she knew how to cook. After I stuffed myself with pancakes and strawberry's and helped clean up, I threw myself down on the couch and turned on the tv.
"Her Gerard, my friend lily asked me if I could go to the mall with her, I'll be back by 3, is that okay?" Katy asked
"Of course" I replied "do you need any money?"
"No thank you, I got it." She said as she grabbed her purse and ran out the door. Once when she was gone, Mikey took a seat on the other side of the couch.
"Ummmm... This is going to be a really awkward conversation but..." Oh no "do you by any chance have a crush on Katy?" I began to panic for a second, but I didn't let it get to me.
"Um.. Why are you asking?" I asked trying to keep my cool, but it was a lot harder then one could think.
"Well.....the way you look at her makes it obvious but... Can you just answer the damn question?" what. The. Fuck. How do I tell him that I'm actually in love with Katy and planning on making her my girlfriend!? Some how I knew that this wasn't going to end well considering Mikey always asked me about my love interests and it never gets awkward. I took in a deep breath and lost my mind.
"Well ya, I kinda do like her,.. I know it's wrong but, she's... Just,.. Perfect to me" I could feel everything inside of Mikey shatter just by one look at his facial expression which completely dropped.
"Oh shit! Do u like her too!" He just looked me and I could see his face growing pale before walking upstairs and locking himself in his room. I was right, this dident end well.
His door was the first one you see after reaching the top of the second floor so it didn't take me long to chase after him. I vishiously shook the door handle but it was no use, it was locked.
"Mikey please let me in! I need to talk to you" he dident respond all I heard where quiet sobs. The last time I heard Mikey cry was 3 years ago when our parents died, and he never cryes. Even when he broke his foot from jumping out of a second story window, he never let any tears escape his eyes. The fact that he's crying worried me, I felt my heart stop beating and hopelessly fell to the ground. When I looked down I noticed one of Katy's Bobbie pins lying on the ground. I remember dad teaching me how to pic a lock with on of these.
I quickly got off of my knees and inserted the Hair pin in the key hole and twisted it. I took a couple of tryes until I heard the click of the lock. I twisted the handle and opened the door. What have I done to my brother.
**Mikey's pov**
Hearing that my brother liked the same girl as me shattered not only my heart but the rest of me. I never felt this way around any other girl in my whole life and now all my chances are gone. I see the way she looks at him, a look I never got from her. I remember the way it felt having her in my arms when she fell asleep yesterday. Her fragile body was so warm and soft I wish I could stay like that all day. Also holding her in my arms that night when she cried made me want to do anything just to see her smile again. Her eyes where the perfect color of green it killed me just to stare into them. Oh how I wish she was mine, sadly things don't always wok out the way they should. I lied down on my bed and did something I've haven't done in a while. I cried. I guess I lost track of time because when I looked up from my pillow I saw Gerard standing in my room. I really wish he would just leave but with his stubbornness that wasn't going to happen.
"Listen Mikey, I need to talk to you" I rolled over so he was facing my back but apperantly that dident stop him from talking. "Apperantly we like the same girl.... It might seem really hard right now, but trust me Mikey, we can make this better." I let out a small whimper which I tryed so hard to keep back but I couldn't. After having this small conversation with my brother I made up my mind about katy. Every relationship I've been in ended horribly and I dident want to lose Katy as a friend, she was too nice to let go of. I let my brother have her. Of course he asked me numerous of times if I was sure and I just said yes. It killed me on the inside to let her go, but I know Gerard, and he loves Katy with everything that he has and I don't want to get in the way of them. He made a promise to me that he wants her more then anything and that he will never hurt her. This is the part where I forget about ever liking her.

Notes

Sorry if this was poorly written I just wanted to get it finished.