The Shy One

----Addison's POV----

Oh my god...what did I do last night?! Mikey and I aren't even dating and I already had sex with him! I feel like a cheap, dirty whore.

"OH MIKEY!" I heard Gerard yell in his girly voice. He was mocking my moans from last night.

i looked down at my bare wrists and I got the sudden urge to cut. For months I have been clean but today, it's all going down hill. I ran to the bathroom and threw open the cabinet. He has to have some razors in here somewhere. Mikey cuts...I know he does, I saw the scars last night. Picking up a small black box, I opened it. Inside were tons of razor blades...and pictures. My heart dropped. There was tons of pictures of Mikey and another girl laughing, hugging, kissing...I could feel tears running down my cheeks as I fell to the floor. Reaching in the box, I pulled out a razor. I pressed it hard into my porcelain skin and dragged it down allowing crimson liquid to flow down my arms. It was painful yet it felt so good. I cut one, two, three times. Each time that blade touched my skin I went deeper and deeper until a cry escaped my lips. I slowly crawled into a ball and lied on the floor. I didn't hear footsteps or yelling or even a stop in conversation. No one cares...

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