Only Hope For Me

After therapy, I cut off Gerard in the lobby.

"I'm glad you took my advice!." I stated happily.

"Frnki?" Gerard asked confused. I laughed.

"Yeah! My names Frank Iero. I didn't know you lived in Jersey! I'm transferring to Belleville High next monday, I currently go to that Catholic school. I can't tell you how happy I am to see you here." I explained. He nodded his head.

"My mom found my suicide note that I forgot to trash after talking to you. They are now very concerned about me and have disposed of all sharp and pointy objects I could get my hands on and now I'm on watch for life. I'm so stupid, I would have regretted killing myself. They asked me what I wanted to do, go to a mental hospital? Seeing your text about therapy, I asked them if I could go, since I had researched therapy sessions near here and they were very happy with my reasoning of the situation." He took a deep breath after his long explanation to why he started therapy so early.

"Well, maybe you are just lonely...." I said, hinting to him I wanted to spend time with him. I had a fucking crush on him.

"Yeah, I get bullied a lot and it would be nice to have some friends....Hey! How about you come over for dinner and we can watch some horror movies or something! Listen to Misfits with my little brother, Mikey!" He said.

"Yeah! That would be really chill." I said, containing my excitement. I saw my mom parked at the curb waiting for me. "Gerard hold on a sec, I'll ask my mom."

"Hey mom? Can I go to Gerard's house for dinner and watch a couple scary movies?" I asked nicely.

"Well, I guess so. Is he the awkward one in the corner? Seems like a very nice boy. Why can't he come over to ours?" She asked.

"He's the one I talked out of committing suicide tonight. He got to therapy and needs some friends. He says he's bullied a lot." I said sadly.

"Then I see no problem with it. He was in your situation. I'll see you by 11:30." She said, looking in Gerard's direction.

"Love you mom!" I said, blowing her a kiss and running back over to Gerard, who was still standing awkwardly alone.

"My mom said I can come, but I have to be home by 11:30." I said. He smiled warmly and I blushed.

"There's my mom now, lets go." He pointed to a black van pulling into the community center parking lot.

"Hey guys, this is Frank, he's coming over tonight." Gerard said as we got into the van.

"Of course. Is Bob going to be coming over as well?" His mom asked.

"I don't know yet." Gerard said.

"Hello Frank! I'm Donna Way, and this is my husband Don." She smiled warmly at me.

"Nice to meet you son." Mr. Way said.

"Hello Mr. and Mrs. Way." I said shyly.

It was a semi-awkward drive back to Gerard's house. I could see there way some tension in the car by Mr. and Mrs. Way, because they were being very silent and tense while Gerard was playing on his phone. I forgot to get mine from my mom goddamnit.

"Dinner will be ready in 5 minutes." Mrs. Way said when we entered the house. Mr. Way went into the living room really fast as Mrs. Way went into the kitchen.

'Wanna go to my room?" Gerard asked.

"Yeah sure." I said. I felt kinda awkward in a house that almost had a suicide in it, but I shrugged it off.

"I think my brothers home Ray, I wanna go see him." I heard down the hall.

"No, don't talk to him anymore, he's just a suicidal freak." Ray said.

"...alright."

I rolled my eyes. "Your brothers friend Ray is a douchebag." I tell him when we get downstairs to his basement room.

"Yeah, he's the one who bullies me all the time."

My mouth dropped open.

"You let your little brother stay friends with him?!" I screeched.

"Yeah, what am I supposed to do? Tell him to not be friends with his only friend? Then he'd be like me and I don't want that to happen. I'm fine with him being friends with the douchebag who calls me a faggot all the time. He's telling the truth, I just don't let people know that yet." He huffed.

"You're gay?" I asked quietly.

"Yeah...." He said looking down to the ground.

"Same, lets watch some movies." I said nonchalantly.

He laughed. "Alright, but dinners gonna be ready in a few, we can take our food down here and then we can watch Nightmare on Elm Street or The Exorcist." He said still chuckling.

He was right of course, because his mom brought us our plates down to us and told us to have a good time, still warily eyeing Gerard and me to see if we were like, secretly a cult or something.

Yeah, the gay cult.

Ha.

We ended up watching The Conjuring, which was really scary but we ended up falling asleep during it.

I woke up in Gerard's arms and he woke up a few minutes later. I blushed and got up, checking the time. It was 11:15.

"Oh shit, man I gotta go. I had a great time though! We should hang out again maybe after school!" I said, trying not to sound too eager.

"Yeah that seems awesome. See you tomorrow Frankie."

"See you tomorrow Gee." I blushed before leaving the household.

Fuck I'm falling for him.

Notes