Only Hope For Me

"What?! How? When?" I exclaimed, tears starting to pour out of his eyes. Mikey sighed. "He wasn't successful, but it almost worked." Mikey cried. I didn't know what to do. My boyfriend just attempted suicide. "Is he at the hospital?" I asked quietly.

"Yeah, but, he doesn't look good, he tried to hang himself, and his mom found him 2 minutes after he was unconscious. They don't know if he's even going to make it." Mikey sobbed. I tried to recount all the things that could make him depressed this weekend. "Why do you think...?" I got the nerve to ask, but it didn't come out.

"I don't know, he didn't leave a note or anything. He just....did it. His mom is a total wreck and wants to see you." Mikey said, finally letting go of me and letting me get up. I slipped on my converse and sprinted to my car.

When I got to the house, I knocked on the door. "Hello Gerard." Mr. Iero said sadly. I grimaced. "Hi....Your wife wanted to see me?" Mr. Iero nodded, but a tear slipped down his cheek. "She's at the hospital with him at the moment. You'll find her there." He said before closing the door. I heard his sobs and a thud at the door. I got back in my car, and just sat there for a moment, before it all hit me. My boyfriend tried to kill himself. He might not make it. Theres no hope.

I felt myself trying to drift back into the stage of depression before I shook my head. "I have to be strong for my Frankie." I muttered before starting my car and driving to the hospital. I parked my car and just sat for a minute. I leaned my head back against the headrest and mentally prepared myself. "He's not going to die. He's not going to die." I repeated to myself before finally exiting the car. I walked up to reception. "Hello Gerard! Are you feeling alright?" Mrs. Norris asked me. I shook my head. "Can I go to Frank Iero's room? His mom wants to see me." Mrs. Norris's eyes widened before checking her paper. "Room 99 in the suicide wing...." She whispered, her eyes watering a little bit.

"Tell her I'm so sorry." Mrs. Norris said before sending me on my way. I took a deep breath and made my way to the suicide wing. I was at room 90 before I knew it. I opened the door and looked inside. "Hi G-G-Gerard." I heard a faint whisper. Mrs. Iero was in the corner of the room, looking longingly at her son. I fell to my knees at the sight of him before letting the sobs rack my body. She knelt by me and held me close. "Why?" I exclaimed. "I don't know hun, I don't know. He was so happy with you." She whispered, and I felt her tears slipping onto my head. "I was so happy with him too...." I whispered before hugging her back. We just cried for a while till we heard a groan.

"Where am I?" A small voice asked, and we widened our eyes. "Frank?" Mrs. Iero asked. "Mom? Where am I?" He asked again. "In the hospital." I replied. "Gerard? What did I do?"

"You tried to kill yourself honey." I said, trying to hold in the tears.

"And I failed? Damn it." He muttered.

"Why Frankie?" I asked. "I'm not happy with you anymore Gee. You don't understand." Frank sighed and I felt my heart constrict in my chest. "You don't mean that..." I whispered.

"I really do. We're over. Please leave." I heard him sigh before I let my tears flow again. "Frank Iero!" Mrs. Iero exclaimed, horrified. "No, just....I'm sorry you felt that way, and I promise you won't hear from me again." I muttered before leaving the room and sadly, but angrily, sprinted out of the hospital.

I drove home and went straight to my room, slamming the door. I punched and kicked walls and just screamed at the top of my lungs before rummaging around in my closet and finding a bottle of whiskey. "Hears to Frank." I muttered before opening the bottle and pressing it against my lips. I drank half the bottle in one drink, and already felt it numbing the pain.

If this is the only way to forget Frank, so be it.

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