Some like to sleep, We like to play

Two weeks into the tour Gerard calls me one night and his voice is low and husky. "I'm all alone in the bus right now and I know the kids will be in bed already" he says and I immediately get on board with what he's doing. We talk dirty to each other before Gerard tells me what to do to myself and I follow his instruction, moaning into the phone so he knows how good it feels. "Send me a pic babe. I wanna see how desperate you look for me." I think about it for a second before doing it, holding the phone up above me and taking a picture focusing on my other hand working between my legs. I put the phone back to my ear and I hear Gerard say "Just a sec baby" before he groans and says "Fuck that's so hot baby." We talk about all the things we'd love to do to each other and Gerard tells me he's about to cum. This pushes me closer to the edge and I groan out "Cum all over yourself and then send me a pic." This pushes him over the edge and I can hear him moaning and gasping for air and a few seconds later I am too. We lay there panting into the phone to each other before I hear a beep indicating I got a new message and Gerard says "I'm sorry baby but the guys will be back soon and I gotta clean up." "It's ok. I love you and I hope you're having a good time. Miss you."
"Aww miss you too babe. I can't wait to see you again. I love you. Talk later, bye" and then he hangs up. I open the message and see a picture of him, his hand wrapped around his dick, his hand and stomach splattered in cum and my mouth waters at the sight.

Five weeks into the tour I am playing in the front yard with Bandit and Riley when a car pulls up and a very pretty woman gets out and walks over to us. I step infront of Bandit and Riley instinctively and she says "Hi, does Gerard live here?" I stare at her warily and say "Who's asking?" Her smile fades a little and she says "A friend of his. We hooked up a few weeks ago and I know this is where he lives cause I saw it on his licence so can you go get him?" I open my mouth and feel rage overtake me as I say "And what do you want him for?" She takes a step towards me and says "Not that it's any of your fucking business whoever you are but I'm pregnant and I think it's his" before pushing past me and walking towards the house. "I'm his fucking wife so I think it is my business and don't you dare enter my house or I'll call the cops." I feel a little tug on my hand before Riley says "Bad word mommy." I look down at him and say "Sorry baby boy. How about we go inside now yeah?" I usher Bandit and Riley past the woman and into the house before turning back and saying "Fuck off. You're not gonna get anything from us" and slamming the door shut. I try hard to control my breathing and take a few deep breaths before taking the kids into the kitchen and getting them a snack. Once they're eating I pick up my cell and call Gerard. He doesn't answer so I hang up and try Mikey. He answers and I ask if he's with Gerard. He tells me yeah before handing the phone over. "Hey beautiful what's up?" I hear Gerard's voice say and I step out onto the back patio and close the sliding door before completely losing my shit. "YOU WANNA FUCKING KNOW WHATS UP? THE GIRL YOU FUCKED JUST SHOWED UP HERE TELLING ME SHE WANTS TO SEE YOU CAUSE SHES PREGNANT" I scream into the phone and I hear nothing but silence. "Fucking say something Gerard" I plead suddenly feeling blank like I have no energy to be angry anymore, I'm just broken. "Babe we need to talk about this in person. We don't play for the next two days, leave the kids with my mom and fly out? Please" he says and I scoff before saying "I'm not fucking doing anything for you" and he sighs before saying "Fine" and hanging up on me. I scream out in anger and frustration when I hear the door slide open. I turn around and Bandit comes running out to me and wraps herself around my legs saying "Don't be sad mommy." I pick her and and cuddle her to my chest while I try and pull myself together.
Later that night after the kids are in bed I get my laptop and start looking for local rental properties. There are three two bedroom houses across town where I can have a dog and I write myself a note to call and make appointments to see them first thing in the morning. With my savings I can afford the house for me and the kids for a little while until I find a job. I'll have to put the kids in daycare but I think they're old enough to be ok with it.

The next morning I call and the agent for two of the properties tells me he can show me both of them today. I make an appointment to meet him at the first one at twelve o'clock and then call Trick and William to see if they could watch Bandit and Riley. Trick has to work but William tells me he'll be right over and when he gets here I explain what's going on. "You're leaving Gerard?" He whispers, understanding I don't want the kids to know anything yet and I nod. "I can't do it again William, I'm beyond broken this time and he didn't even want to talk about it. I especially can't do this if she's really pregnant with his kid, she'll be part of our lives forever and I don't want that."
I leave the house at eleven thirty and tell Bandit and Riley to be good and I'll be back soon. I look through the first house and I don't like it. It's dirty and old and rundown and I don't want to bring my kids there. The second place is perfect. I fall in love with it from the moment I walk in the door and the agent tells me I have until tomorrow to decide before he shows more people through. I tell him he'll be hearing from me and head home.
When I walk in the front door the house is silent. I call out for William and when I walk into the living room Gerard is sitting there. "Where are the kids?" I ask and he says "William took them home with him. We need to talk and I'm not doing it infront of them."
"Did you use a condom?" I ask and he looks at me confused and says "What?" "Did you use a condom when you fucked that girl?" He hangs his head and says "No." I let out a breath and say calmly "So you fucked that girl unprotected and knocked her up and then you came home the next day and fucked me unprotected. Thanks a lot you fucking asshole. If I have anything I swear to god Gerard..." I trail off and his face pales as the idea that we might have any kind of disease hits him. "Babe I'm sorry.." "No I'm not your babe" I cut him off and he stands up and walks towards me. "Z please just listen to me. I fucked up and I don't remember using a condom but we don't even know if she's really pregnant or if it's even mine. Don't act so rashly until we have the facts. William told me where you were just then and you're not going anywhere. You're my wife and I'm not letting you leave with my kids." I snap and close the distance between us and punch him "I am not your property, you don't own me. You fucked this up and I'm done. I can't let you kill me inside any longer." Gerard rubs his cheek before his face changes and he grabs me, knocking me to the floor and laying on me, pinning me down. I struggle against him and yell "Get off me Gerard." He tightens his grip on my arms and pins them to the floor as he leans down in my face and spits "You're mine and you're not going anywhere" before biting and licking at my neck. I thrash around under him screaming "Stop. Get off me" and start to cry as I fear that my husband, the man I'm meant to be able to trust the most in the whole world is about to touch me against my will. I continue to trash around until his grip on my right wrist loosens and I pull it free, swinging another punch at his face. My fist connects with his jaw and he falls to the side. I struggle to push him fully off me and get away but as I roll to the side he reaches out and grabs my arm and sobs out "Z please. Don't leave me, I love you and I can't live without you." I look over at him and he is sobbing and looks as broken as I feel. I feel my anger dissolving and my heart shattering all over again. "I can't let you do this to me yet again. There's nothing left to break anymore and I need to heal. I don't want to hurt anymore Gerard" I tell him before I start crying again. He shuffles over to me and pulls me into his lap. "Baby I love you and I'm so sorry I brought all this on you but I'm gonna talk to the girl and get it all straightened out. I can't lose you, please just give me one last chance." I look into his eyes and sigh, too broken to even argue. I slump into his chest and he wraps his arms tighter around me and rocks me back and forth telling me he'll fix everything.

Notes

DRAMA.....hope you guys are still enjoying this : )