We Don't Fight Fair

Dean grabbed my hand and dragged me to his car. He threw me into the passenger and slammed it shut. I watched him cross the front of the car and slipping in.

The tension in the car was unbelievably thick. We drove in almost silence with the occasional glance at each other. We were driving so long I was beginning to worry about the safety of the situation and if Dean was really taking me to his place.

We pulled up to a beat-up house. I got out of the car and casted a sideways glance at Dean. He gave me an encouraging slap on the ass. I pushed open the wooden door. I found a dark room, with disoriented people. There was about eight of them. They all had hair so frizzy, you couldn't even categorize it as a certain color. They had sagging skin on their face, giving it the illusion that it was melting off. But their eyes. It was the their eyes that made my stomach turn. The irises were a pale, indistinct color, their pupils indistinguishable from the irises. And the rest of it was piss yellow.

Dean had brought me to a crack house.

He seemed to have found this little set-up funny. "Oh, don't mind them. They're just a bunch of highshcool dropouts that still haven't done anything with their lives after 25 years exept fuck it up." A few of them glared, but didn't deny his assumptions. I suddenly had no desire for Dean anymore. A police officer doing a guy in a crack house? Hell no. This was a situation I needed out of. "Hey, you're really cool and helpful and I really need some help. But I have to go home and check on my brother. Family's first, right?" I lied easily.

He looked offended. "But, I thought you liked me?" He asked in an injured tone. "I do, but I really cant stay." I answered bluntly. I almost took back my rejection after seeing Dean's face, but I then thought about the broken people behind me.


"Whoever said you had the choice?" He asked in a hoarse voice. I could hear the blood rushing in my ears. I felt my heart begin to pound. "You wouldn't dare." I said. "You would lose everything. Your college, your job, your future." I stared listing. "You'll lose everything and you'll end up just like the people behind me." I heard a few gasp in offense, some raspy chuckles and a chorus of "Amen"s.

"Maybe I would worry about it if I were happy with any of those things." He snarled and dragged me to his bedroom. I caught the eye if a few crack heads. Some gave me apologetic looks, and a few mouthed "i'm sorry." I sighed in desperation and tried to break free. God knows I tried to resist, but have you ever tried escaping the grasp of a police officer? Well good fuckin' luck, because it's next to impossible. I needed to make this bearable for myself. So I did the only thing that would make this slightly enjoyable.

If this were Frank.

******rape is over because I cant write smut to save my life*****

I stumbled away, and ran home shirtless. I flung the door open. The house was quiet as usal, and I assumed no one was home. Extremely thankful for that, I observed myself in the mirror.

My shirtless torso was covered in dark blotches and lovebites. My hair was ruffled and there were angry red burns across my wrists. I shuffled back into the foyer and slid down with my back to the front door. I covered my face to my hands and began to cry in hysteria. I was hyperventilating and screaming and shaking violently. So many thoughts ran through my head of the horrorfying rape. I opened my eyes. The foyer was blurry and I pulled my hair with my knees drawn up to my chest.

I heard footsteps clunk hurriedly down the stairs. "Oh my god." I heard someone gasp. I felt arms wrap around me and warm kisses touch my head. I was calming down until I realized that I didn't know who was touching me. What if it was Dean again? I pulled myself away and stood up. My vision cleared up. I saw Frank's concerned face quickly turn to terror as he caught sight of my mangled and branded body. "M-M-MIKEY!" Frank screamed. "HELP ME GERARD'S ALL.. I DON'T KNOW BUT HURRY!" I jumped notably high at his sudden volume change. Frank noticed this and stared with wide eyes and mouth agape at my trembling figure, muttering crazily to myself in a quick, quiet pace.

I saw my brother leap like a gazelle down the stairs, jumping down the entire 15 stairs to the landing, and hopping the last 4 and rushing to my side. I backed up against the wall at his sudden closeness. I can't risk anything anymore. What if everyone knew what Dean was going to do? What if they all really hated me and wished me death?

"Frank what happened?"Mikey's stern voice rung in my ears. "I-I don't know, I came downstairs when I heard the door slam and someone sobbing and screaming. I found him in a ball on the floor and he won't let me go near him." Frank explained, almost in tears as well.

"Gerard. You need to tell me what happened." Mikey said, looking me straight in the eye. Paranoia told me otherwise. "Mikey knows what happened. He's just trying to keep you from going to authorities." It's harsh voice hissed. "SHUT UP THAT'S NOT TRUE! IT ISN'T! " I yelled in response to the voices, scaring the hell out of Frank and Mikey.

"What?" Franks asked quietly. His voice was the only sound other than my labored breathing and mutters of nonsense.

Everything seemed a thousand times louder now. When they attempted to approach me one more time, I bolted to my room. I heard them run after me, but i slammed the door and locked it before they could come in again.

I sank to my knees and once again dissolved into ugly sobs, self hatred resurfacing in my heart.

I heard someone slump against my door outside and groan. I decided once, and just this once, to let that person in. Right before I built my wall so that only they knew how to beak it down.

I got up on my knees, and unlocked the door with a click.

Notes

Hey guys! Sorry for the no-smut thing, I just phyically can't seem to write it good enough. But anyways, Gee's finally soing something that is mildly positive! So as always, thanks for reading, and I love hearing from y'all, so as always, feedback is always welcome!

Love you guys!

-Erinosaur <3