Frank
“Gerard, why? Why did you do it?” Tears were streaming down my face, I wasn’t going to stop them. He needed to know how fucked up it was. He had just told me some simple words, words I would never forget.

‘It was all so that I could have you, I love you. All. For. You.’

I held his hand, suprised that I was just going to play along to be with Gee. I shook my head, imagining a devil on one shoulder, and an angel on the other, discussing how fucking stupid I was. I’m still here you little bastards. I thought nervously to them. I flicked the conscious beings off my shoulders. I sighed and looked Gerard in the eyes, afraid that I was going to regret it.
“What do I have to do?” And with that, he got me out of the building, and we rushed to the spot that supposedly he died. We scanned the idea for intruders. Paranoid, we sat, he told me the plan.


I opened the window to my room, climbing in and heading towards my desk. I had convinced Gerard to let me go alone, but he was across the street, silently waiting me to get the materials.
I got a pen, making sure it worked, then wrote on a page of paper from a notebook.

To all concerned,
You might have noticed that I’m gone, for by the time you read this, I should’ve killed myself. Don’t worry, I’m in a better place, with Gerard, and will be forever. I love everyone who loved me, even if I didn’t tell them. Tell Mikey that his brother is not going to be alone anymore.
Love,
Frank

I cried as I wrote the letter, it was too short, for I wanted to write a whole book, one page for each person I would be leaving. That wouldn’t be a book, maybe only a few pages, but you get it. I looked out the window to see Gerard waving at me, telling me to hurry my ass. I rolled my eyes and grabbed the few things I wanted to take with me.
I let one more tear fall before I jumped out the window to the waiting Gerard below.


“God, I don’t know how I’m going to do this.” Gerard held my hand, and we watched as fake blood dried on the wooden dock we stood on. ‘Goodbye’ was written in the red liquid. I love you all, so much, I’m so sorry. I cried as it came to me, I was never going to be able to see my parents ever again. Mikey would be alone. I cried even harder, into Gee’s shoulder so that no one could hear my sobs.
“Shhh, baby. It’s okay, it’s okay.” I heard his soothing voice through my muffled sobs. I wanted to believe him, I truly did, but nothing was okay.
“I’m not okay.” I said, a little too loud. “I don’t think I want to do this.” I got off of him, and he was confused.
“Tell me what you want. I’ll do anything for you. Just tell me the truth.” I was getting mad.
“Well if you wanted honesty, that’s all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, but it’s better off this way.” I leaned to him, softly pecking him on the cheek, then leaving.

Notes

So for it being my first chapter on this fic, I decided to experiment, see how you guys all like the references. kk luv u all and thanks for giving me a chance!

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