How the misery begins

I sat at my window watching the rain come down heavily. I probably looked like some teen girl in an old school cliche movie, but I honestly didn't give a fuck. All I could think about was gee and how I'd treated him the past few days, he'd obviously had a hard time dealing with all the shit that's gone on in his life and I've only made it harder on him. I can't help it, when I look at him my insides hurt and I just want to be with him all the time and it scares me, nobody that likes me ever stays and I really don't want to loose him. But while I like him, it really hurt that he didn't tell me about Lindsay. I mean who hides the fact that they have a girlfriend, it obviously wasn't a very well thought out plan. I sat at the window for an hour trying to get his dumb face out of my head, but I just couldn't.

He was all I could see.

I heard a car door slam and my head jerked up. I saw the familiar mop of black hair walking towards his house, struggling to fish the keys out of his pocket. Once he opened the front door, he disappeared inside. Without thinking, I ran down stairs and out the door. Speed walking down the path I though about what I was gonna say, and came to the conclusion that I'd just say the first thing that came to mind. I got to his door and tried the handle, which happened to be open, then walked inside.
Everything was trashed; there were books all over the floor, the paintings had been knocked off of the wall, and the giant mirror that used to hang above the fireplace was smashed to pieces. I watched my step, trying to avoid standing on the bits of broken glass since I hadn't bothered to put on any shoes. I could hear a loud banging noise from upstairs and a yell from gerard, so I made my way up the steps. I got to his door and knocked softly. The noises stopped.

With a creak, the door opened and a very sad gerard was stood on the other side. "I uh, I just wanted to check on you. I saw your car pull up." I admitted quietly. "Whelp, I did it," he shouted, "I broke up with her. I broke her fucking heart, and right now all I can think about is how I want to kiss that stupid pretty mouth of yours," he swayed back, then regained his balance and went on, "the funny thing is, I don't even care. You know why? Cause I dint loove hurr." His words began to slur as he walked further into his room. He picked up a bottle of vodka from his desk and I realised why he was acting like this. He was drunk off his ass. He put the bottle to his lips and tipped it upwards. When I finally snapped out of it and managed to realise that he was trying to drink away the pain, all I could think of was my mom and how it stared out as 'just one drink'. It physically hurt me, and I would die before I let anyone else that I lovers waste their life away because they thought that killing their brain cells 'made it easier'.

"Gerard, put that the fuck down" I commanded through gritted teeth. "Chill duude, I've been sober for like a year. I'm just having a harmless little drink." He drawled drunkenly. "YOU MEAN YOU USED TO BE A FREAKING ALCOHOLIC!?" I shouted. "Yeaaah...but that was in the past. We should live in the nowww" he rolled around on his bed giggling. "Are you kidding me right now!" My breathing came out ragged. "Why do you care so much-" the realisation dawned on him, "oh...your mom." His voice was barely a whisper. "Yeah" I sat on the edge of his bed and ran a hand over my face. He moved over and sat next to me, then put his arm over my shoulder. "I-I'm so sorry frankie, I completely forgot.." "It's okay, just promise you won't go drinking recklessly against just cause you're pissed off?" I pleaded, looking up at him. "I promise" he kissed my forehead.
We both lied down on his bed, with my head on his chest and him playing softly with my hair. For the first time, I felt as if we were at peace. We forgot all the shit we'd been through for a while and just played there, enjoying the silence. For the first time, I felt like we could really be something.

Notes

So now they're okay with each other!
don't worry, it probably won't last too long, I'll find a way to break their hearts.
anyway, I stayed up all night writing cause I wanted to get this posted soon as possible for you guys.
so here you go, enjoy!